Yesterday at 11 o'clock in the morning, I performed an indescribable hypnosis at a studio recommended by a friend. I tried my best to restore the true experience of hypnosis at that time:

"Dong dong dong~~ ~" I knocked gently on the door of the hypnosis studio three times.

"Come in~" A gentle female voice came from inside.

When I opened the door, the hypnotist Ms. Wang was already waiting for me. The dim studio was lit with red aromatherapy lamps, giving it a somewhat mysterious atmosphere, and the soothing yoga music played on the speakers, which seemed far away. It's so close that it makes people think...

Miss Wang is younger than expected, 27 or 28 years old, with ponytail, clean and neat face, good face, well-proportioned figure, black bow ribbon T T-shirt, special hollow design on the cuffs, black and gray pleated skirt, elegant yet girly, a very classy young lady!

When he saw me coming in, he greeted me with a smile and prepared to boil water for me to make tea.

"I'm in the period of losing weight by taking meal replacement, so I can't eat or drink anything except meal replacement and water. No need to bother you to make tea for me, but you can make your own amount, no need Never mind me, I brought my own water..." I explained, which I had to explain to everyone who tried to persuade me to eat recently.

"Do you know what hypnosis is?" Miss Wang asked me while making tea.

"I know a little bit, but I'm not professional. Many people may think that hypnotists control consciousness. Of course I know it's not the case, but I don't know exactly. I probably know it's an exploration of the subconscious. ..." I answered truthfully.

"Have you ever experienced hypnosis before?" Miss Wang asked again.

"I experienced it once, but I fell asleep and entered a deep sleep. Later, I was woken up by a sleep specialist. It was a failed hypnosis experience. I was really able to sleep! Do you know? When I had orthodontic surgery, it was too painful. In order to relieve the pain, I self-hypnotized myself and made myself fall asleep. You can imagine that the doctor was beating my mouth with various tools and I could still fall asleep. The scene... So, after hypnosis, I will probably fall asleep~~~" I gave Miss Wang a vaccination in advance.

"Before hypnosis, would you like to watch a 3-minute short video to tell you what hypnosis is?" Miss Wang said while sending the video to me on WeChat.

So I saw this short popular science video:

After watching the video, we started to prepare for hypnosis.

Miss Wang asked me to lie down on a large automatic chair. She helped adjust the curvature of the backrest of the chair, allowing me to lie down slowly and relax.

"Let's adjust our breathing first, inhale deeply, then exhale slowly, relax~relax~relax~~slowly close your eyes, inhale again, and exhale slowly. Breathe...relax your whole body...open your eyes, look at my hands...close your eyes...inhale deeply, then exhale slowly, relax your whole body ...Until you relax very, very relaxedly..." I cooperated and relaxed, and slowly fell asleep...

"I can't see anything..."

"No feeling"

"Don't know"

It is difficult for me to enter the scene of guidance, because I have no sense of the picture and can't recall anything. .

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(I fell asleep a little bit later, as I said before It’s easy to fall asleep...)

(No memory of this...

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"...You are now entering a corridor. There are many doors in the corridor. You walk to a door and you see the number on the house number. Tell me the digits of the house number. How much? "

"Hmm~~~8~~" I actually didn't see anything~~ But in order not to disappoint the hypnotist, I thought to myself, I was born in August, so that's 8 Right~~

"Do you still remember what happened when you were 8 years old?"

"I don't remember~~I have no impression at all~~~"

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".....How did you feel at that time? "

"...very helpless, very special helpless, I have wanted to commit suicide countless times..."

"...now you are standing when you were a child In front of you, what would you say to her? "

My emotions started to get out of control, and my tears couldn't stop flowing... I remembered that I was biting my head alone in the night when there was lightning and thunder. I cried under the quilt and didn't dare to make a sound... I thought of myself who returned to an empty home with no keys and was too tired to sleep at the door... I thought of every exam. I was number one in grades and was highly valued by my class teacher but was bullied by my female classmates... I thought that if I got good grades in the exam, my parents would pay more attention to me. However, I have never been praised by my parents since I was a child. My own words...

"I will hug her..." I choked out and choked with sobs. It is very difficult for a person to face his past with ease and sincerity. What a difficult thing to do.

"At certain moments in my life, I have experienced extreme depression, bursting happiness, and screaming madness... But I have found that I rarely feel loved... ..I suddenly felt very sad...Am I not worthy of being loved, or am I incapable of loving?..." I suddenly felt that there was nothing in the depths of my sadness.

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"...You are safe, you are supported Yes, you are fully trusted, let this feeling fill your whole body.... What are the things that make you feel very warm? "

"Last time in Bangkok, in the evening, I and I? My friend was in a taxi. The sunset in the sky outside the window was stunning. I remember the last time I was in Taiwan, I sat on the fence by the river and watched the sunset quietly for a long time... ”

I remembered that when I was in Bangkok, every time I crossed the road, I would walk by the traffic and hold my hand, protecting my big black hand when I crossed the road;

I remembered When I flew to Japan, my ticket was canceled by the airline. I sat at the airport and cried helplessly for a long time. Brother Tao called to comfort me and arranged for me a VIP lounge and a direct flight to Japan in the evening;

I remember being separated from the Sun God on the streets of Bangalore, India, and scolding me all over the place. He was so worried that he thought I had been abducted by a passing taxi;

Remembered After I fainted due to hypoglycemia, I was surrounded by a group of people, except for a sweeping lady who carried me to the hospital for emergency treatment;

I remembered that I was trapped in an avalanche while hiking in the Himalayas, and shared my final thoughts with me. A piece of beef jerky Xuanxuan;

I remembered little C who always pinched my chubby face and said, "Loli, why are you so cute?";

I remembered When I came back from a long trip, I tidied up my house and left a warm lamp for my roommate Xiaoxiao;

I remembered that when I was so sick that I was bedridden, I cooked porridge for me, one mouthful at a time. My best friend Xiaoxin blew it to cool down and then put it into my mouth;

I thought of Shu Jing and Li Xiaosheng who came to support me unconditionally at my fan meeting, who came all the way just to see me. Strange netizens;

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After that, I calmly I talked a lot with Miss Wang... When I was able to speak out some of the past with calmness, it had passed. The once magnificent things were now calm. I actually knew clearly that I I consciously forget the unhappy things in my memories, and let the past pass. The only thing I can grasp is every moment of the present, and strive to live a rich life.

"How can people who lack love in childhood heal themselves when they grow up?" Before leaving the studio, I asked Miss Wang.

"...In fact, most people lack love in childhood, because although love is an instinct, knowing love is an ability. Parents are also imperfect, and they grow up perfectly. We have to rely on ourselves to improve... Before the age of 27, we may not be able to do anything. After the age of 27, we can be our own parents..."

This sentence "Be your own parents" makes me It's very moving, just like there is a bunch of lights in the darkness, I want to be my own light.

Those days when we are treated harshly by the years will eventually be forgiven. The most real thing now is just a kind of magnanimity and forgiveness for ourselves, others, and this world where disappointment and hope coexist.

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