June 14th. My father went to Changhai Hospital to take a pet ct because all the indexes of blood test failed greatly.
June 17th. On Father's Day, the whole family got together at my house and ate hot pot. My father was in a bad mood, his face was a little pale and his appetite was average.
June 19th. I have an appointment with my mother, sister and I to pick up the ct report from Changhai Hospital this afternoon. When we parked the car and crossed the road to the hospital, it was like a heavy rain. When we got to the image building, the three of us were soaked to the skin. The results of the report are extremely poor, and proliferation is everywhere. At that time, I went to an expert, Fu Qiang, and he said that basically I could only count down my life by week. Doctors always love shocking exaggeration. I think there are 159, maybe it can save dad. When we got home, we didn't tell him the real condition, and we simply described it as intestinal obstruction.
June 2th. It rains heavily in the morning. My father had a strong reaction to two meals a night before, vomiting and diarrhea. In the morning, his legs were weak, and he fell at home and hit his head open. Mother called 12, and sent her father to Changhai Hospital for emergency treatment and suture. In the morning, my mother, sister and Wei Wei accompanied my father. Duoduo and I will go to the hospital after noon. We hung up the number of the expert clinic again, and the result was the same as that of Fu Qiang the day before. There was no need for treatment and no rule of law. My sister spent the night with my father in the emergency room of Changhai Hospital.
June 21st. In the afternoon, I went to Yangpu District Chinese Medicine Hospital for hospitalization. At dusk, the nurse called and said that my father was very upset.
June 22nd. Mummy is with her father all day. I went with my sister this afternoon. Chinese medicine hospital has a foot bath. I was holding my real father and snuggling up to him.
Father's blood test index in Chinese medicine hospital is worse.
June 23rd. I accompany you all day. Several relatives and friends came to visit my father: Xiaowei, Jianhua, Jinmei, tons.
June 24th. My sister accompanies me all day. Mom and I bought a shroud in jiangwan town. I started to use the night care worker.
June 25th. Mummy is with me all day. Albumin and thymopentin were given for the first time.
June 26th. I accompany you. QQ music plays "supreme love" in a loop, and my father said it was sung by black Houston. In the afternoon, Ronaldinho helped his father take a bath for the last time, and his hair for the last time.
June 27th. Accompanied by my sister. I get off work early and go to the hospital. Ahai came to visit his father in the evening.
June 28th. I accompany you all day. In the morning, Xiaoyong's uncle and aunt Xiazhi came to visit. At 1 o'clock, Mr. Zou came, and his father chatted with him at the bedside, as long as he temporarily forgot his illness. In the afternoon, I had a diuretic injection, and there was an emergency that I didn't urinate. Chinese medicine couldn't insert a catheter. I hurried to contact Dr. Aihua, and found Fang Wei successfully in the emergency department. I am a little tired this day.
June 29th and 3th. There are no special circumstances when my mother and sister accompany me respectively. I was at home on Saturday, and WeChat thanked Dr. Aihua.
July 1st. I accompany you. Xiao Wei and Jianhua came to visit for the second time and brought an 8424 watermelon they picked.
July 2nd. Mother's company. My uncle and aunt came to visit my father as soon as they came back from America.
July 3rd. I accompany you. On the same day, I told my father that my sister didn't come to accompany me the next day and went to Yang Jun's memorial service. Yang Jun died young, hoping that my father could face what he didn't want to face.
July 4th. Mother accompanied me on behalf of my sister. The second time I bought protein and thymopentin. Uncle Ji Zhi and Aunt Jin Ping came to visit. My father was very happy and asked me to invite them to dinner. In fact, we are not in the mood. After leaving the hospital, we will see them off at the subway station.
July 5th. Mom accompanies me. In the afternoon, Dr. Aihua visited his father and contacted Henry Hui Wang. He was transferred to Yang Center for hospitalization on the 9th.
July 6th. Accompanied by my sister, the first old man in bed was discharged. The Buddhist chanting machine that I invited at the Wanfo Pavilion was placed at my father's bedside and never stopped playing.
July 7th. I accompany you. The second bed, Hu Laobo, was discharged. One day when my father and I were alone, I made him a photo and gave me moxibustion. I didn't come home that night. Father will unconsciously call me every half hour, and I will go to the bed and hold his hand. He will blame me for coming to him as soon as he turned over, and he let me sleep in the recliner. In fact, the middle of the night is his most tormented moment, but he always shakes his head to deny that he is uncomfortable, but his brow is locked. I look at it in my heart, put it in my heart, and there is nothing I can do. In the morning, after he slept peacefully, I went home.
July 8th. Accompanied by my sister. I cooked porridge and sent it to the hospital.
July 9th. I'll find the admission certificate of Aiwa Kaiyang Center first. Mom and sister go through the discharge formalities of Chinese medicine hospital. Carry out separately. Mom will accompany you in the afternoon. I went to work in the afternoon and didn't pick up mom. My father was in a hurry with me on the phone, so why didn't he pick up my mother and go home together? I am annoyed with myself.
July 1th. Mom accompanies me.
July 11th. I accompany you. Uncle Ji Zhi came to visit for the second time. He was old, hot and far away. We were reluctant to let him come, but he came again. Father raised his spirits to chat with him again, and he was so happy that he took care of my sister to invite my uncle to eat Cantonese food. Was he in a trance? He couldn't remember where he was, and indicated that he would treat his guests to dinner at Xinya or Xinghualou 2.
July 12th. I accompany you. Mom and sister visited two nursing homes.
July 13th. I accompany you. I got off work early, picked up my mother and went to the hospital to see my father again.
July 14th. I accompany you. Father began to sleep for more time. If there is no pain, it is also auspicious.
July 15th. I accompany you. My mother and I went to see the hospice care in Linfen Road again, and then went to see my father.
July 16th. Mother-in-law accompanies her. Father hasn't known his illness yet. He just feels very ill, never so serious, and weak. In the afternoon, the three of us told him before his bed that he was really sick and might not see well. We mentioned the word death for the first time.
July 17th. I accompany you. Let's eat wonton stew downstairs at noon, and my brother is here. We stayed at the bedside, and my father woke up and said clearly, Why don't we go back? The tone and eyes are full of begging. Yuxin told me before that I should satisfy my father's last wish. In the evening, I had a family meeting at my home, so I agreed to give up treatment for one day and leave for hospital on the 18th.
July 18th. Mom is waiting at home. I went to the hospital first and asked for leave from the doctor, but because of the first-class care, I couldn't ask for leave and had to leave the hospital. Go home at 9: , 9612. The ambulance has arrived, so we have to leave the hospital and go home. I followed the ambulance, and there was no treatment at home, but my heart was a little down-to-earth. My father would feel more at ease at home. Settle down at home. The nurse is home, too. I walked to jiangwan town to get the shroud and went home. I was exposed to the sun, but my back was relaxed. I understood that some karma was melting. In the afternoon, I will go to the hospital to go through the discharge formalities that I didn't have time to do in the morning. At dusk, my father was sad again. I first went to Yueyang Hospital to prepare painkillers and diazepam, but I didn't succeed, so I went to Yongmei's house to get them. When her home came out, the car ran out of gas, filled it up near her home, and returned home near 7 o'clock. Father felt unbearable. With my father's consent, we went to Jiangwan Hospital, which is closest to home, for emergency treatment. That night, we sat at the door of the emergency room. Harry went to Jianhua to get a Darani quilt for his father; What should I do for my father? Jianhua gave me the phone number of the lotus reading group and asked the family members to contact him. I've heard of Zhunian, so I called all the senior brothers right now. Two brothers, Jiang and Chen, came that night, bringing a four-character chanting machine and a statue of Amitabha. They are the revelation of their father: Shi Laobo, who says to read Amitabha with all his heart, followed the Buddha machine. If you have a long life, your condition will get better; If there is no birthday, please ask Amitabha to lead you to the best and perfect place, and there will never be a painful turn ...
July 19th. Go home in the early morning and sleep for 2 hours. The mobile phone rang, the second batch of lotus friends came, and I hurried there again. Father is still asleep. There was an old man in the emergency ward who accompanied the old lady. He just sat on the eaves of the bed, ready to sit all day and all night. Later, I learned that he was 96 years old and the old lady was 94 years old. I couldn't help but feel warm, admire the truth and feel ashamed. That night, I stayed with Wei all night.
July 2th. Mom arranged for her father to enter the ward with the help of Teacher Ge. 6 people, slightly noisy. After experiencing these things these days, I understand that everything is fate and I don't care anymore. Brother Jiang and brother Chen came to enlighten me for the second time. When my father heard this, he smiled, raised his thumb and folded his hands. I was very pleased.
July 21st. Bed doctors are very dedicated and insist on ct and gastric tube insertion. The result was a ct scan. Because I was afraid that my father would be sad, I cried and refused to insert a gastric tube, and she didn't stop. There is another heavy rain at dusk.
July 22nd. Heavy rain. My father gasped at noon, and my sister's whole family came. Xiao Wei Jianhua came to visit for the third time, and his clothes were soaked. Aunt Xiao Wei also peeled peaches for us to eat, saying that we worked hard. Gratitude emerges from my heart.
July 23rd. Mom goes to the hospital first. I came later. It happened that there was a shaving and pedicure master in the hospital, so I stopped him and made a full set for my father. Father is breathing in the tide at night. Brother Chen came to teach us how to remember the past, leaving behind a button. Sister and Wei Wei stayed all night, and the air conditioning in the ward was very cold.
July 24th. I accompany you. There's a new patient, and there's no bad smell like the legend. Rest on the balcony outside the ward at noon, and the heat is in it. Ding Jie sat opposite me, chatting about her heartache ... This seemingly vulgar woman raised her hand to help me dry my tears and told me to put it down and take care of myself. In fact, how delicate and kind she is. It turns out that I have a bad habit of looking down on people.
July 25th. Father's hands are cold. Blood pressure started to get bad, but it got better after noon. I went to work after I went to the hospital. There was a lot of backlog in the company. I got off work very late and didn't go back to the hospital.
July 26th. At 5: 15 in the morning, I got a call from Xiaoqing Sun, a nurse. Hurried out of the house and stepped into the ward at 5: 45. Xiaoqing said that your father left. He left at 5: 4. I picked up the clasp and started the pursuit of King Kong. The hearse is firmly heading west in the inner ring, which is familiar with the dream of the previous day.
From June 2th to July 26th, we accompanied him for a short last time. Wei Wei asked, why do you have to suffer greatly? I think it's because I need a debt. I have a relationship with everything in the past, make a complete reconciliation, and then leave without any ties. After the process of bathing in fire, the phoenix was nirvana.
July 26th. The Lotus Hall of Longhua Funeral Home, where the Lotus Help Group helps the readers all day.
July 27th. Help the mind during the day.
July 28th. He bid farewell to all of us among the flowers; Say goodbye to this world. He seems to be leaping with enthusiasm, heading to the west, the direction of bliss where he should go, and happily rushing to the appointment with the Buddha. Up to now, the exclamation of "Amitabha" will ring in my ears from time to time, floating from the sky and coming from other places, and I will immediately echo it, which can always last forever.
August 5th. I took part in the * * * training of the Lotus Group for one day, and the theme was life care: is the care in the world not perfect, but the care born is the basis of the care in the world? It's a complete trip. After hearing the Brahma Sutra, if a Buddha sees all the sick people, he should always provide for them ... If he can look after the helpless patients, it is equivalent to looking after the Buddha himself ... I am secretly glad that I also look after my father when he is most helpless with the softest eyes. Amitabha!
August 8th. The first time I read the Diamond Sutra, I sat by the bed in my father's room, intermittently, and I was very tired. I got the words that Uncle Ji Zhi copied to the three of us: Heart Sutra, Disciples' Rules and Zhu Zi's Family Instructions. There is infinite love between the dignified and beautiful lines.
August 15th. I read the Diamond Sutra for the second time. At the office, I sat and read it at first, and then I went to the balcony and leaned slightly to the west. Although I didn't understand it, I was full of joy. Su Zhai has been in the fourth week, and at some point this morning, I experienced the relaxed feeling of being light and empty and infinite. After work, I went to Changyang Valley and passed Meizhou Road. I was deeply touched. This road was never known before, but it was so predestined. In the evening sky, clouds drift, so I can't help slowing down and turning on the camera. The cloud seems to say: I can't leave my trace in the sky, but I have flown. It is a mission, not a mission, but a Tathagata.
August 16th. At noon, Xiao Bao came to the company and sent me a word, all of which were elegant names about food, intended to make me happy. His back is so similar to his father's, I should treat him like a brother.
August 17th. Typhoon again. This different summer, the wind and rain are fierce and frequent. Turn on the Bluetooth, and find the Sandy Lam version of my dearest, which rings in my ear: Please rest assured that I have become stronger, and I am not afraid of loneliness if I love you. I have learned your favorite cheerfulness ... and it is also my father's expectation for me, and I will live up to it. My dearest, fortunately, there is still a baby in this world, and I can be filial. I will spare no effort and try not to regret it.
August 22nd. The first time I helped the dead, a 94-year-old man. Seeing that I was a strange face, Brother Kouqing kindly asked me: Are you afraid? I shook my head without hesitation. All beings are me, and I am all beings, and there is no difference.
August 23rd. Summer heat. "If love is not heavy, it will not give birth to a woman." I occasionally saw this sentence when I was waiting for the elevator today. I finally understood why he didn't wait until we arrived that day; I also understand how I was unexpectedly calm and firm at that time. He protected each other with ruthlessness and said goodbye to this life.
I am grateful to everyone for helping me and sending my friends and relatives away!
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