It is really not easy for you to complete a set of lengthy memoirs with accurate wording without the repeated interruptions of senior sister An Yu. Just when I was about to give you a hug, a girl with burgundy broken hair suddenly walked in from outside. She walked up to us with a murderous look. He did something that makes me still angry to this day. She stretched out her hand and slapped me hard on the cheek. I really didn’t know that your girlfriend would be such a pathological specimen of menopause. People extend their hands to shake hands, but she stretched out her hands to give me this. I haven’t entered you yet. A slap in the face from the imaginary enemy of the world.
When the commotion gradually subsided, senior An Yu suddenly rushed over, raised a beer bottle and smashed it on your head. I saw the red blood seeping out slowly in your head, then rushing like a stream, and I was suddenly dumbfounded. Of course, the senior sister was also scared to death. Just when she was about to flee in fear of crime, I suddenly grabbed her arm. You don't do this! After sending you to the hospital for bandaging, the senior sister calmed down and said she was fine if she didn't die! I saw your eyebrows frowned slightly, probably due to pain. Your phone was clutched tightly in your hand, and you didn't wake up the first time it rang. When it rang for the second time, you still didn't wake up. When it rang for the Nth time, I took the phone from your hand.
Some people say that mobile phones are the second heart of a person. Do you know that Gu Shiyue’s heart is filled with Zhou Jiaying? I responded to her message, edited it and sent it out. What I edited, I can only tell you, let's break up. Then I exhaled a long breath, as if completing a delicate Mass, and then secretly placed the phone in your palm. The senior sister came once and the doctor came once. The doctor said that you had been in a car accident before, and I hope that such a serious injury will not cause you to sleep until the day when the Mayan prophecy comes true. I'm really scared, you know? I blew gently into your ear and said to you gently - Gu Shiyue, you must wake up. You can't die, you really can't die, there are still many things you don't know, many, many things you don't know!
2
I stayed by your hospital bed all night. When the morning light came out the next day, I suddenly felt why my neck was so stiff. It turns out that I was right next to your bed, sleeping like that in an extremely weird posture all night long. When I woke up, I saw senior sisters An Yu and Zhao Xiaolou walking in side by side. They saw our holding hands and suddenly smiled meaningfully. However, Zhao Xiaolou's eyes clearly betrayed his original intention. How could he be willing to see the girl he had liked for so long suddenly fall in love with his friend? Of course I couldn't care so much anymore, my stomach was growling with hunger. My liver scolded my stomach, my duodenum formed a small team, and I shouted to the perpetrator, An Yu, why don't we get something to eat, or we will starve to death. The senior glanced at me and walked downstairs slowly.
After Zhao Xiaolou waited for his senior sister to come downstairs, he said, Su Xinyu, I think he is not suitable for you, not at all. So, he lit up a cigarette and puffed out smoke rings with ease. I said, I know he is not suitable for me. But I still want to be with him, holding his hand like this for a long, long time without letting go.
After you fell asleep for a long time, we helped you complete the discharge procedures. From then on, we returned to a period of time without seeing each other. When your new girlfriend met us, we were still at the KTV. You introduced us to your new girlfriend with a calm attitude of passing through the border. Her name is very beautiful, her name is Qi Xinluo. Only then did I realize that your illness had not really recovered. It turns out that the psychological trauma and deep pain cannot be replaced by hairpins and fighting grass in real life. Who could let this be love?
This year, many video stores have been playing a song like "If This Is Love". Jane Zhang made a desperate statement - If this is love, it would be unfair. Gu Shiyue, you know, if this is love, it would be unfair. Halfway through the drink, Zhao Xiaolou suddenly glanced at me and said, now do you know what kind of person Gu Shiyue is? I know you are not such a sentimental bastard, you are definitely not, you are not. You just can't forget Su Liai, you have to forget her slowly and slowly. This time may be a bit too long, and the process will not be straightforward. So, we must understand the age-old theory that to forget one must fall in love with someone.
In a blink of an eye, you and Zhao Xiaolou started fighting. I really don’t know how you could fight each other like that. Just like a little beast chasing away intruders to protect its territory, later on, four of you were injured in a fight between the two of you. Because of the intervention of my senior sister and I, both of us were scarred. Fortunately, you got tired of playing. Of course, my senior sister and I had no choice but to invite you to sit down and have a drink before continuing.
3
Of course, you did not continue. It's no longer your style to fight like a trapped beast. As the saying goes, "If you don't fight, you won't get to know each other." After two glasses of wine, you actually cherished each other and became sworn friends. You invited me to drink. In the end, I didn’t know whether it was you or Zhao Xiaolou who said I love you. I really hope it was you and not him. We all drank a lot of wine that day, and senior An Yu said that your father was ready to let you study at a university out of town. After saying that, he looked at me thoughtfully, and I pretended not to be sad, not at all. In front of you, I will never allow myself to cry, not even a single tear. In this way, you don't know that I like you. If you don't know that I like you, you won't die so sadly.
However, my senior sister secretly told me after you returned home that she was not asking you to go to college elsewhere, but that your condition was getting worse. If not treated in time, hysteria may occur. My senior sister said that even your later girlfriend Qi Xinluo was the actor they found. Did you know?
I know that the earth is round and it keeps spinning. One day we will definitely meet again, don't you think? The day you left, there was heavy snow in the sky. I can’t remember how long it has been since this southern city had a winter without snowflakes, but it really started to snow that winter. Because of the flight change, we got together for the last time. That time, you still drank a lot of wine. I don't know if your brain can withstand such a large dose of alcohol. But how can I snatch your wine glass? I can't, you know, I can't.
So, I made a stupid decision, I decided to stay with you until you get drunk. For such a person who has never been exposed to alcohol at all, after drinking so much, I am still worthy of you, but why do I still feel sorry for you, why do I feel sorry for you, why? After I vomited three times, I gradually woke up. I grabbed your hand and asked you, do we know each other? Did we know each other a long time ago? How long? We've known Senior An Yu and Zhao Xiaolou for a long time, right? But why can't I remember? Why? I remember that night when you smoked for the first time. Of course, this guy Zhao Xiaolou encouraged you to smoke this cigarette. I don’t know why, but you were whimpering deeply. No one advised you, so I had to hug you gently. My senior sister An Yu sighed lightly. There are eight hardships in life: birth, old age, illness and death, separation from love, long-term resentment, not being able to ask for anything, and not being able to let go.
If there are really eight sufferings in life, for you, I would "love separation, hold grudges for a long time, not be able to ask for anything, and not be able to let go". You said that we have only known each other for a short time, and that a person like me is not worthy of love, do you know? I retorted loudly, not knowing.
Some people say that there are two kinds of men in this city, one is impotent in love and the other is impotent in sex. Of course you are not the latter. You are incapable of love, right? Since you are in vain, I have no choice but to retreat. Everyone knows that love is something that cannot be touched.
Before boarding the plane, you looked back at me, then rushed over among the crowded crowd and hugged me tightly. You called me a name - Su Liai. However, I am really not her. I push you away and say lightly that I wish you a safe journey. Also, I'm not Su Liai, you know? She is my sister. You smiled bitterly, I know she is your sister, I know. Senior An Yu hit your shoulder with her fist and said to come back early. You nodded, and you told Zhao Xiaolou to take good care of her. Zhao Xiaolou nodded heavily and showed a clear and moon-white smile - I am better at taking care of people than you! At least she won't be hurt so much! I really don't understand why your communications are always so confusing? You left like a gust of wind.
The plane passed by the clouds at nine thousand meters. I looked up and cried. I didn't lower my head, Gu Shiyue, do you know why? Because as soon as you lower your head, tears will fall. Do you know that tears will fall? You call back often, and you ask them how I'm doing, you know, I'm fine, I just miss you very much.
After New Year’s Day, Zhao Xiaolou asked me to be his girlfriend, and I agreed to him out of nowhere. I don’t know if I am doing the right thing. Zhao Xiaolou is indeed a boy who is very good at taking care of others. His meticulousness often makes me feel that I am not worthy of him. I told Senior An Yu that this is simply a waste of resources. How could God allow this? Zhao Xiaolou is by my side. Senior sister An Yu said, God naturally has God's arrangements. Don't be surprised if you are surprised. If you are surprised, you will lose yourself! I rolled my eyes at Senior Sister, are you saying it’s weird for me to be dating Zhao Xiaolou? She blinked and said innocently, I didn't say that. After saying that, he added nervously, this is what you admitted yourself. So we got into a fight, and in the process we knocked over a bookshelf, which was the only piece of still life furniture in my house. Zhao Xiaolou told me that there was a secret on this bookshelf, but I said I didn’t know. Zhao Xiaolou, do you know that there is more than one secret on this bookshelf, and there is another secret that I discovered later. I hope you never know, never...
Of course Zhao Xiaolou will not be interested. Bo Bo introduced what the mystery was. He just told me that knowing that I love you is enough. I nodded, oh. A long time later, Senior Sister An Yu suddenly shouted at the bookshelf. I thought she saw an animal like a cockroach. Or earthworms or other molluscs, but obviously she didn't. She just pulled me to the bookshelf and asked me if I saw it? Did you see it? So touching, really touched!
What did you see? I looked at the scattered books in confusion and said, I generally don’t read books. Senior sister yelled at a high decibel, which means you have never touched the books on this bookshelf? I nodded, and this time she stared at me like Columbus discovered the New World. Quickly, he came to the conclusion - I love you, and I hope you love me too. I really didn't know that such a messy bookshelf would have such a secret. I followed my senior sister's method and grabbed a few words from the name of each book, and it turned out to be like this.
"My Mother", "Jane Eyre", "You Are the April Day in the World", "Hope", "You", "Pine Breeze Blowing Over Vienna", "Alice", " Me and my universe". After reading it, I was almost shocked. A careless guy like Zhao Xiaolou could actually play such a mystery. And such a mystery was so carefully planned. I didn't discover it until today.
I, love, you, hope, you, also, love, me.
I didn’t know that such a boy could have such inspiration. It turned out that I only knew that Zhao Xiaolou was a careless boy.
It turns out that love can really change a person. Gu Shiyue, you made me become the person I am now who is far away from the world, far away from the hustle and bustle, far away from the philistine. I made Zhao Xiaolou into a boy with such a delicate mind.
When Wang Sulong's "Bach's Old Testament" was being played in the street video stores, I was holding Zhao Xiaolou's arm and walking on the roadside. The petals of the crape myrtle fell all over the ground, and they were all pink. I said that I saw a lot of pink bubbles, many, many. Did you know? Zhao Xiaolou said, I know, that’s because love is coming, love is coming!
I walked with Zhao Xiaolou. Suddenly I said to Zhao Xiaolou, can we kiss under this tree? Zhao Xiaolou hesitated and kissed my lips gently. I have heard a story that lovers who kiss under a blossoming tree will surely have a love as prosperous as flowers! Zhao Xiaolou, I have forgotten Gu Shiyue, I hope you can keep walking with me. So I said I love you. Zhao Xiaolou said I love you too, what if I continue to say to him in the next life? He said there is no next life, and I said there must be one. If there is a next life, will you still love me? He said I will definitely love you. But I told Zhao Xiaolou that I will not love you in the next life because I want to love Gu Shiyue.
Zhao Xiaolou showed no sign of being angry. He hugged me tightly and told me in a voice as low as the chirping of an insect, I will love you for the rest of my life.
Even if you don’t love me.
4
If this is really the case, even if it comes to an end, it might not be a happy ending. However, just when I settled down to be Zhao Xiaolou's girlfriend for half a year, you sent me this message on my birthday - Su Liai, happy birthday. I suddenly burst into tears, holding the knife and fork for the cake and burst into tears. Zhao Xiaolou helped me divide the cake into portions. Just when the portioning was done, you came. You are still the same as when you walked out, wearing white clothes, exquisite like a street cosplayer. I brought a piece of cake to you, thank you for coming.
You didn’t say anything and took my hand outside in full view of everyone. I looked at Zhao Xiaolou timidly. He lowered his head and pretended that nothing had happened.
I heard senior sister An Yu say to Zhao Xiaolou, she is your forbidden wife, how can she get a share of the pie. Zhao Xiaolou lowered his head in frustration. After you and I ran out, you lit a bouquet of fireworks and said happy birthday. I said, I'm sorry, I love Zhao Xiaolou. Your fingers holding the fireworks suddenly trembled. You said I know, and I also know that I shouldn't appear in your world. I said, maybe I really loved you before, but you said I knew.
I said, I’m sorry. You said, it doesn't matter.
A long time later, Zhao Xiaolou asked me, what is love? I told him that love is when I say I'm sorry and you can't bear to say it doesn't matter anymore. Zhao Xiaolou smiled and lit a cigarette. The firelight flickered on his face. I said sorry, and Zhao Xiaolou said it didn't matter.
At the end of the story, I need to explain something that is kept secret. Just a long time ago, I knocked over the bookshelf when I was having a fight with my senior sister. The diary with the password suddenly fell apart, and I found a lot of photos. And I saw the smiling faces of you and my sister in the photo. She is healthy, but I lost my left arm after the car accident. Her smile is astonishing, and she also has two shallow dimples, which I also have. I suddenly felt that my sister "Su Liai" was myself. Could it be that it was not Gu Shiyue who lost his memory in that car accident but myself? When I took the photo to my senior sister An Yu, I completely hid it from Zhao Xiaolou. I think I have the right to know this matter, and sure enough, my senior sister told me those things that happened a long time ago. It turns out that the car crash was not what it looked like above. My senior sister told me that you were not good to me at all at that time, but I just loved you so fiercely that I did not hesitate to do anything.
It is said that if you love someone deeper than the other person, you will be hurt more, even if it is just a little bit deeper. But, Gu Shiyue, do you know? How much deeper I love you than you, how much deeper I think you must know.
Otherwise, why would I use such a stupid method to extort 300,000 yuan from my father? You took me into the car and just said that you needed money, and I used the hostage method to extort money from Dad. But there is always a gap in every secret, and there are times when old horses stumble. Halfway through our plan, our seniors An Yu and Zhao Xiaolou saw the flaw. So they followed us to the elevated highway where the accident occurred, and their cars were chasing after us. Your attempt to evade criminal responsibility and your uneasiness finally led to a tragedy. However, no one mentioned that funny blackmail case again afterwards. You were protected within a safe range by Senior Sister An Yu and Zhao Xiaolou. I also changed my name. The "Su Li Ai" in the story is actually the current Su Xinyu. You all know that, right? But almost no one knows that you are the bad guy extorting money. And you later fell in love with each other, these were not the actors we were looking for, those were really your girlfriends. How messy your social life is, you have so many girlfriends, so many. In order to justify myself, senior An Yu had to lie to me and say that these were all actors.
After the car accident, I lost part of my memory and an arm, which no one mentioned again. You just come to this southern city to see me occasionally, why do you still miss me so much? Do you think so? The last time, Zhao Xiaolou told me that it is better to take pity on the person in front of you than to look far away from the mountains and the sky. I said, but you are not the person in front of me, you are the pig in front of me! Zhao Xiaolou quickly changed the ancient poem - it is better to take pity on the pig in front of you than to look far away from the mountains and the sky.
I know, Gu Shiyue, you can find many, many different girls to satisfy your pursuit of novelty goals, but I no longer like to listen to your famous saying, "Although famous flowers have owners, I Come and loosen the soil." I still like to hear Zhao Xiaolou say to me - "Be content with what you have."
At the end of the story, I want to tell you, Gu Shiyue, you are not my Hiroshima love.