Looking out the window at the graceful peach blossom trees in the spring, I kept thinking about a sentence I remembered when I was reading last week: "A powerful person is one who can dance the most beautiful dance with restraint."

I like fitness and dance zumba, and have been doing it for almost three years. Recently, I participated in the "Basic Skills Training Camp" for more than two consecutive weeks. Two days ago, when I sent birthday wishes to a beautiful girl, she replied to me and said: "Thank you for loving to dance." I was a little surprised and surprised - it turned out that in the eyes of others, I now have such characteristics!

I think a person who loves to dance is enthusiastic, cheerful, confident and lively. In my memory, during my childhood and adolescence, I was reserved, shy, inferior, and quiet.

When I was in elementary school, due to my physical disability of being highly myopic, the teachers would not let me participate in any art or sports activities in school. The most impressive time was when I really wanted to participate in a sports meeting and deliberately showed my teacher how fast I could run. But the teacher was worried that I would run on the wrong track and not give me a chance to participate in the sports meeting. During middle school, the good family background and versatile talents of the students in the provincial key middle schools further aggravated the inner inferiority. I feel like I am just a little girl who pretends to be nonchalant on the outside but hides in a corner with low self-esteem on the inside. At that time, I could see a more inferior and lonely soul, so I wrote an essay called "Lone Wild Goose" to express my understanding and concern for this classmate. In fact, now that I think about it, I am also like this, so I can have feelings for him. It’s just that my appearance will hide myself even more.

So, after I escaped from my outstanding classmates and chose to go to a normal school, among classmates of the same class, I slowly gained confidence by studying hard as always. There were also dance classes in the normal school, but perhaps the physical development in childhood was missing. My movements were clumsy and I could never remember the moves. Even though I later attended a weekend dance training class given by my teacher, I was still like a clumsy penguin, unable to find the feeling of lightness and grace in traditional dances that require flexibility of the body. After taking a few classes, I gave up unconsciously.

In my memory, I am a bit clumsy and honest. I was called "Little Fatty" by a seemingly smart friend in my hometown in the southern town. I envy my partners and classmates for their gracefulness, graceful dancing, and confidence. But I also feel that I have no connection with it in this life.

At the beginning of this year, I participated in the "Create 2020 Vision Version" activity of the Soul Club - choose and design your own vision version based on your feelings among the many pictures and texts. I intuitively picked a dancing woman in black and placed her in the center of the vision board. I think dance represents not only dancing, but also living a confident, free and comfortable state of life.

Therefore, during this special epidemic period, I still dance along with online live broadcasts or videos every day to release my emotions, exercise, and feel the vitality of life. When a coach I liked started offering paid courses on basic skills, I signed up without hesitation. Learn the steps and rhythms of each different dance type issue after issue, practice after learning, and record videos and submit homework for the instructor to guide. I was reluctant to watch the videos I recorded at the beginning, but now I am willing to watch them over and over again, and people keep liking them. The coach often affirms my progress while being strict with me, and laughs that I am his "teaching achievement" ( Because he witnessed my clumsiness in the gym), he started to feel a little happy: It turns out that after careful and continuous practice, I can gradually become more and more natural and comfortable in my shortcomings - dance. . It's just that this process doesn't happen overnight. Beautiful moves are all practiced little by little in the audience. Everyone's talent is different. I may be the type that needs to be honed slowly. So why not, the process of practice is also a process of training your body and patience. If you learn slowly, you may remember it more clearly!

The last dance I learned was cumbia, which was a dance that black slaves in South America loved to dance. When dancing, you should feel like dancing in shackles, because this dance was invented by them while working in shackles. They are optimistic by nature, and despite the heavy and arduous labor required, they still dance with enthusiasm. Although the story is a bit heavy, the music of cumbia is very upbeat, and the instructor commented on my video assignment and said that it brought out the joy of cumbia. Therefore, the words "dancing with shackles" have been stuck in my mind these days.

Including this week's reading of Mai Jia's book "The Sea of ??Life", I also had this feeling of "dancing with shackles". Life in the sea means that life is as broad and complex as the sea. Despite all kinds of suffering, "dying is not courage. The real courage is to live well." When the protagonist "I" in the book wanted to give up after experiencing the hardships and sufferings of life, he remembered Romain Rolland's classic life insights: "True heroism is to still love life after seeing the truth of life clearly." ”

I have seen this sentence many times in different texts and quoted it in my own writing. I think it is similar to "looking for hope in despair" and "dancing with shackles".

When discussing my upcoming book "One Hundred Years of Solitude" in the "2020-Meet the Beautiful Book Club" this morning, my friend "Once a Lighthouse" said: "If I want to use a sense to describe Mal I always feel that in his novels, I can read a damp, decaying smell of dead branches and leaves, and feel that the people in the stories are always in an endless and long world. Rainy Season. This feeling includes my other works of his. I have also read his "Evil Hours", "A Pre-publicized Murder", and "Love in the Time of Cholera". You will feel how valuable it is to be clean and refreshed under an inch of sunshine."

My reply is: It reminds me of the book review and the interview with Mai Jia after reading "The Sea of ??Life" yesterday. He said: "Literature is not a major, literature is life. We read novels to understand in advance the love, hate, sadness, joys and sorrows on the long road of life. Literature is the best way to understand life. You know in advance that there will be bumps and sufferings on the road of life. , you will be trapped by love, material things, hunger, or even family ties. Anyone will encounter these. Take precautions in advance at this time, and you will have a way to face hardships and even appreciate them in advance. You are invincible when it comes to suffering. You will never be defeated by life. You will always be the protagonist of life and have the ability to feel the greatness of life. ”

Read yourself, read literature, and jump. Cumbia...all have this feeling of dancing with shackles. “A powerful person is one who can dance the most beautiful dance with restraint.

"Then, I hope you can dance as much as possible in different fields!