I am a monk who has been practicing for many years. My legal name is Shi Guangshou, and I converted to guangde temple. I have had the same wish as you for many years. But it's hard to do. First of all, some laymen don't know that "laymen" (Youposai, Youpoyi) are different from monks (Misha monk and nun). Second, Buddhist practice is contrary to life, such as alienating and rejecting family members. Third, if you are biased and have a Buddha in your heart, you will not tolerate others. I didn't know that Buddha wanted to change all people and all sentient beings. Before the Buddha became a monk, he also had parents and wives, but he turned a blind eye. For these reasons, it usually seldom appears.