Fantasy nonsense

I have never believed that anyone in this world will stay in someone's life forever. The word "forever" is only suitable for sentimental idiots.

No matter what kind of relationship between people, once the bond of connection is broken, it is broken. It is useless to put on a polite face to deal with each other.

I have tried my best within the limits that I should try my best. It doesn’t matter if I don’t have it. As I said, nothing in this world is particularly important to me. I never miss anything between gains and losses. .

I followed the crowd across the road, but was blocked by the flow of vehicles on the other side, unable to find any space to pass by.

It is not a pleasure to rub shoulders with people on a crowded street, especially for people in a certain state of mind, like me. In the noisy crowd, I really feel that there is indeed something in this world. Living a life that comes and goes in a hurry, looking at the busy and nervous passers-by around me, it seems that the pallor and panic in my heart can be filled to some extent. The modern rhythm is far beyond my ability to keep up with. My life is just a habit, which is that I have always lived in an illusion that is out of touch with reality.

The more people there are, the richer the visual content, and the less conspicuous I will be among them, and will not attract anyone’s attention. Passing by those passers-by who only have this one look in their lives, who has no time to take care of themselves and who has the extra leisure to take another look? Within it, I am safe.

Looking at the misty raindrops in the air, I naturally think of the Qingming Festival. The few pedestrians on the deserted road were just rushing along in a hurry, and none of them seemed to be dying. The reason is simple. In modern cities, all roads are asphalt or stone roads, and at least asphalt is poured on them. Where is Du Mu? How difficult is it to walk on a muddy road with shoes so heavy that you can’t even lift your legs? If you walk easily and naturally, you don’t have to die. Is it really easier for modern people to walk than in the past? It seems to be, but it seems not to be.

Can the spilled water be recovered? Can what happened be erased from memory? Will a scratched wound leave no scars after the bleeding stops? I don't know at all, I only know that the words I have said don't count, and sometimes in life you can start over.

I am speechless. silence. Not everything will disappear with the wind. Really profound memories will never change. How many years have passed, even if the box containing the past is touched inadvertently, the thing that was pressed at the deepest and lowest level will fly out. , fills my heart. Now when I bring up the past events that have been buried in the dust for fifteen years, I feel more unbearable pain and sadness than fifteen years ago.

As the ancients said, grudges disappear with a smile. Can everything in life really be laughed off in a magnanimous and open-minded way? I'm confused.

I wandered around this city like a lonely ghost, catching glimpses of my own frightened face on various shop windows, letting the cars speeding around me crush my desolation, it seemed like all the things in the world At that time, they all turned into ashes.

Once upon a time, I also thought that I might be able to nourish my extremely deficient soul with the colorfulness and richness of a foreign land. However, wandering around in this strange place or that place, when the initial freshness and curiosity After it faded away, I didn’t feel that I had gained a solid sense of knowledge. Instead, what came to my mind was aimless confusion and the emptiness of not being able to find a place to belong.