165438+1October 13 At noon, it was drizzling. In a humble private house in Songzi City, 50-year-old Zhang is talking on the phone with his daughter Xiaoyun (a pseudonym) who is far away in Chongqing. "Mom, I still have more than two years to graduate. At that time, I must save a lot of money and take you to the best hospital for plastic surgery. " After listening to this sentence, Zhang looked at the familiar faces in the mirror: most of them were dark, uneven and daunting. She shook her head and smiled gently. Things have to start from the 1950s. 1955, Zhang was born in a village in the old town of Songzi city. One day when she was more than two years old, her parents locked her at home and went to work in the fields by herself. Unexpectedly, when Zhang hit, he fell on the fire pit and burned his face and two small hands. When parents came back, they saw that their daughter was burnt into "black charcoal", so they were anxious to wash her wound with black vinegar to diminish inflammation. After 1 months of earthwork treatment, although Zhang's injury healed, he left a large area of black scar and became a terrible "black-faced baby". Because of his ugly face, Zhang suffered from loneliness since childhood. I didn't go to school until I was 9 years old. Under the discriminatory eyes of some children of the same age, I barely finished the third grade of primary school and then dropped out of school and went home. At the age of 28, with the help of good people, Zhang married a released prisoner who was 13 years older than her. What makes Zhang feel gratified is that after marriage, her husband is not bad to her, knowing the cold and knowing the hot, and always rushing to do the dirty work. Especially the husband got rid of the bad habit of stealing and lived a quiet life. In August of that year, she gave birth to a lovely daughter named Xiaoyun. However, the good times did not last long, and her husband's "old disease" recurred. 1987 After the Spring Festival, her husband claimed to go out to work and sent back 3,000 yuan more than a month later. In late May, Zhang received an official letter from the court: her husband stole the components of the Three Gorges construction site with others and got 1.3 million yuan ... and was sentenced to five years in prison for theft. Since then, Zhang's head has been more difficult to lift. Born in a specific family, hard life and the influence of her father's crime, her daughter Xiaoyun became very cold and withdrawn from childhood. 1993, Zhang finally expected her husband to return from prison. However, the husband once again embarked on the road of crime. One night in June, 5438+February of that year, her husband and others trawled in a private fish pond and stole fish, and was seriously injured by the nursing staff with sticks. He died more than ten days later.

On impulse, my daughter became a bad teenager.

After her husband died, Zhang pinned all her hopes on her daughter Xiaoyun. However, for Xiaoyun, her father who committed crimes many times and her ugly mother became two major psychological obstacles in her life. With the growth of age, Xiaoyun's self-esteem is getting stronger and stronger, and she is always worried that her mother will be discriminated against by others. In order to reduce the harm of the outside world to her mother, Xiaoyun asked her mother not to go to school as much as possible, or to show up in some public places less. If you want to go out or have special activities at school, your parents must be present. Zhang put on a big mask and a towel on his head to attend. 1996, Xiaoyun's third class of Grade Two held a "Students' Parent-Teacher Association" together, and each student must have a parent to attend. The school sent someone to invite Zhang three times, and Zhang had to wear a headscarf and a mask. This is Zhang's first time to attend such a large-scale party. She hesitated for a long time before entering the meeting. When she took off her headscarf and walked into the meeting with her head down, hundreds of pairs of eyes of the students and parents attending the meeting all turned to her, just like watching an "alien". Everyone commented on Zhang aloud. A girl screamed a few times: "This man looks like a serial with blue face and black teeth ..." Xiaoyun turned blue. She violently rushed to fight and was immediately pulled by the teacher. After the meeting, Xiaoyun caught the girl. The girl not only refused to admit her mistake, but also punched Xiaoyun: "Your mother is uglier than a monster!" " In this regard, Xiaoyun was trembling with anger. Without thinking, she picked up a fruit knife and stabbed the girl twice in the chest and abdomen. Suddenly, the girl fell heavily to the ground. After a week of emergency rescue, the girl was out of danger. Soon, the court made a judgment: Xiaoyun was a minor, sentenced to three years of reeducation through labor, and compensated the victim for medical expenses of 20,000 yuan. Hearing the news, Zhang almost collapsed and lay in bed for two days without touching a drop of water. "My husband is a reform-through-labour prisoner, and my daughter is now a minor. Why is my life so bitter? " Thinking about this matter, Zhang can't get out of the shadow of grief. She took out half a bottle of insecticide from under the bed ... Just then, Xiaoyun's class teacher Yang Xiaomei and a policewoman from the juvenile detention center appeared in time. It turned out that Zhang's neighbors saw that she didn't open the door for two days and came to enlighten her. After nearly two hours of heart-to-heart talk, Zhang gained great comfort. In particular, the police who disciplined her told her: "If Xiaoyun behaves well from now on, he can make meritorious deeds and come out early, and he can also study, enter a higher school and find a job in the future. There is no discrimination. " Zhang saw a glimmer of hope. Undoubtedly, educating and reforming people is an arduous and arduous "soul project". It's not easy for a woman who has experienced vicissitudes and is helpless. Before Zhang could figure it out, the injured party came to the door and demanded compensation of 20 thousand yuan. In desperation, Zhang sold three brick houses for 5,000 yuan and a slightly valuable farm tool and a cow for 3,000 yuan. When she paid 8000 yuan, the victim was moved by her honesty and said that she could think of other ways slowly. After selling the house, Zhang packed his bags and went to the city. Every month, 50 yuan rented a house, prepared to work to pay off debts, and visited his daughter by the way. Early the next morning, Zhang arrived at the juvenile detention center. Xiaoyun was surprised to hear that her mother came to see her, and then ran to an empty house to hide. She felt ashamed to see her mother and refused to see her anyway.

A cry deeply touched her daughter's heart.

Zhang knew her daughter's mind and didn't insist. After more than half a month, she was looking for a job in the streets of the city, but when everyone saw her horrible face, they all waved their hands and said they didn't need it. After all kinds of criticisms and supercilious glances, she finally became a cleaner in the infectious diseases department of a hospital. Although Zhang can overcome the difficulties that ordinary people can't overcome, the special environment in the epidemic area has brought great harm to her body and mind. Because of wearing a mask for a long time, the face of the disabled is isolated from the outside world, and the secretions in the body are mixed with sweat, which seriously affects the blood circulation of facial muscles, and then redness occurs. At first, she could persist, but after a long time, she felt very uncomfortable. She knew it would be better if she didn't wear a mask, but she was worried that her face would scare others. She didn't mention it to anyone, only asked the doctor to prescribe some anti-inflammatory drugs for maintenance. In the first month as a cleaner in the infectious diseases department, she won the first place in the monthly evaluation of the hospital's health inspection. During the break at the end of the month, Zhang used the bonus to buy some books about life, a set of underwear and a pair of white sports shoes for her daughter to visit. After coming to the juvenile detention center, Zhang learned that Xiaoyun's performance was not ideal, and he had obvious resistance to taking part in labor and study. When talking to the police, she made no excuses or statements. She always lowers her head and secretly tears. I haven't seen my mother for half a year. Xiaoyun misses her very much, but she always feels ashamed of her mother. After a long hesitation, this just walked into the reception room. Seeing Zhang wearing a pair of extremely large masks and covering her face tightly, a pair of deep eyes were filled with tears. Xiaoyun looked at wait for a while for a long time and suddenly rushed to cry: "Mom, my daughter is sorry for you ..." Zhang was also crying. She held her daughter tightly, and tears trickled down with the blood oozing from her face. Xiaoyun was taken aback. She gently took off her mask, and not only the familiar "residual capacity" was presented to her, but also a face that had been swollen and purulent and severely deformed. "Mom, how did your face become like this? How did this happen? ! "Xiao Yun shouted at the top of his lungs. "Xiao yun, doing something wrong is not terrible. The terrible thing is that you dare not face the mistakes you have made and dare not take the road of the future. " Speaking of which, Zhang held her daughter even tighter. The supervisory cadres and guards present were moved. After this meeting, Xiaoyun was deeply shocked inside. From her mother's "horror" face, she felt the hardships her mother had paid to save her lost daughter. From then on, Xiaoyun took part in labor and study with a positive and optimistic attitude, just like a different person. At the same time, Zhang's ideological accumulation of long-term repression has also been eliminated. Seeing that her daughter was safe, she had new hope. In order to earn more money and pay off debts, Zhang took the initiative to pack the sewage pipes that were left unattended. This 120-meter-long sewer originated from obstetrics and gynecology. After several twists and turns, it flows through the infectious diseases department, leaving a lot of filth in the sewer and emitting an unpleasant smell. In addition to doing his job well, Zhang always spends two or three hours every day dragging a big snakeskin bag into the sewer. It took three months to clean up. The following year, Zhang was rated as "excellent cleaner" and "good mother" by Songzi Women's Federation.

In a game, mother and daughter compete on the same stage.

Encouraged by her mother, Xiaoyun made rapid progress and was also rated as a "model of reform" by the juvie. Farewell to Yesterday, the new prison newspaper she edited, won the "Innovation Award" from the local judicial department, won the second class merit, and won two awards for reducing the period of reeducation through labor. In a blink of an eye,1May, 999, Xiaoyun came out and re-entered her alma mater after three years' absence. When she first entered school, she didn't feel any ideological pressure and studied life with her classmates. But after a long time, some people are whispering, especially some naughty students, who often point at her back and even boo her, which makes Xiaoyun feel depressed again. During the summer vacation, Xiaoyun returned to the house rented by her mother. She is very introverted and becomes more reticent. Bury yourself in helping mom every day. My mother asked her if anything went wrong, but she didn't say anything. Soon, the summer vacation was over. Zhang took out 500 yuan tuition and asked Xiaoyun to sign up, but three days later, Xiaoyun still didn't leave. Zhang asked carefully, Xiaoyun spoke his mind: "I don't want to study, I don't want to work with you to earn money, and I will give you plastic surgery in the future." "You, you, you ..." Zhang was so anxious that he couldn't speak. Finally, he managed to squeeze out a sentence: "You are hopeless!" Zhang lost his temper with his daughter and left because he had to go to work. When she came back from work at night, she found Xiaoyun still didn't go to school, but played games in the opposite Internet cafe. Suddenly, Zhang flew into a rage and ran to hit Xiaoyun. The next day, Zhang rode a bicycle and arrived at the school more than 20 kilometers away. When he learned that Xiaoyun had suffered all kinds of unbearable blows, he felt his heart would be broken. When she went to work in the afternoon, her mind was full of "how to educate her daughter" and her mood was very heavy. When cleaning sewage, a broken cover plate accidentally fell down, and the prefabricated board cut her left face more than 3 inches long. When the doctor rescued Zhang and prepared to dress the facial wound, Zhang only did a simple cleaning and refused. She has figured it out. She wants to educate her daughter, dare to face life and face the past bravely. This ugly face is the best example. She will personally awaken her grieving daughter. Knowing that her mother was injured, Xiaoyun went to the hospital like crazy. When she saw her mother's increasingly disabled face, she cried bitterly. "Although my mother's face was hurt, I decided to stop wearing a mask and face everyone directly. Can you be like your mother? " Zhang taught patiently. "Ah?" Xiao Yun was puzzled, but immediately she understood and nodded heavily. Since then, Xiaoyun has completely awakened. After returning to school, she deeply engraved her mother's disabled face in her heart and studied hard. In July of the following year, she was admitted to Jingzhou key middle school with the third place in the city's senior high school entrance examination. After Xiaoyun went to Jingzhou to study, Zhang took advantage of his monthly vacation to visit, without wearing a mask or towel, and faced the society with his true face. With her mother's encouragement, Xiaoyun's academic performance is among the best in the school every year. In the college entrance examination in 2004, she was admitted to Southwest University of Political Science and Law with 592 points. Today, she has excellent grades and has become the top student in the school.