Only by giving up you can I have the right to be loved

When did you start falling in love with someone? Probably from the first time I saw you, I couldn't help but want to get closer to you, and I was unwilling to be friends. With my own purpose in mind, I approach you step by step. I obviously have a conspiracy, but it seems extraordinarily innocent, because I just want to like you.

What will happen if you like someone? Be more careful, keep all your preferences in mind, choose just the right gift, turn the songs you like into the style I pursue, pretend to be adoring and find the same topic with you, chat with you until late at night, and comfort you Your sadness, listening to you talk about trivial matters in life, trying my best to squeeze into your life, and trying my best to reach a tacit understanding with you are all just because I like you. When I first met you, Mayday was just a popular band to me, but after learning about your love for them, I listened to their songs almost 12 hours a day, just to be hummed by you. The first sentence, I can naturally take over the next one, I did it, more than a thousand songs cycle day and night, Mayday integrates into my life with your arrival, maybe because I have too many same hobbies, I become your favorite Good friends. I try my best to be nice to you. I always reply to your text messages in seconds. I have done this for you so many times while wiping my hands while taking a shower. When I go on a trip, the first thing I do is to prepare souvenirs for you. What do you have? I always want to share the things I like with you, and I always want to give you all the good things, including a better myself. After getting to know you, I started losing weight and working part-time, just to be able to stand upright with you one day. before.

How do you feel when you like someone? Probably your joys and sorrows have become the main theme of my joys and sorrows. I also hate people you don’t like, but I am not always as happy as I seem to be with people you like. You are getting closer to other girls. I am jealous, but I have no legitimate reason to be jealous. I am just your friend, and the best friend can only be a friend. In order to hide the deepest feelings in my heart, and also for the purpose of wanting to get closer to you, I Smile and mingle with the girl next to you, but do you know? I'm so selfish, I want you alone, but you never care what I think.

How does it feel to give up someone you love very much? All the bits and pieces about you in the life filled with you were ripped away by me. I felt wronged and wanted to cry, but also felt relieved to laugh. It’s not that I haven’t thought about leaving you, not replying to your messages immediately, not injecting your joys and sorrows into my life, pretending to be free and easy to say thank you, and attending a concert with you that means farewell, but I really let go. Already? Soon after, I was still involved in your life. I stayed by your side as a friend, telling myself that I was just a friend, but secretly continued to love you in this capacity. Later, when I really let go of you, it was a sunny afternoon. You and my best friend talked intimately. You met through me. It was not that I was careless and let others snatch you away, but that I was too tired to be around you. I have to be on guard against every girl in my life. As a friend, I have to guard against embarrassment and powerlessness. With so many people coming and going around you, I don’t have a strong head and six arms, and I shouldn’t block your happiness, right? It is said that you are most afraid of the other person not knowing you like you, and you are even more afraid of the other person pretending not to know your like. Now I understand that there is no love that cannot be seen, poverty, cough and love, the more obvious things are hidden, I have been with you for so long, you must know me, no matter it is those who are doing the wrong thing in order to deliberately please you The lyrics, or the careful pretense of joy when I was sad, all became my handle and made me freeze in place.

"If you tell me you want a flower, then I will give you a flower. If you tell me you want a star, then I will give you one. Star, if you say to me you want a snow, then I will give you a snow, if you say to me you want to leave me, I will say... I will say to you... I will give you Freedom, I give you freedom, I give you all, all, all freedom." Ashin's voice was filled with tears. I was running alone on the playground and suddenly burst into tears. Now I want to say sorry to you. I thanked you at the beginning. I was not ready to quit your life at that time. I am sorry today because I really decided to leave. I am sorry for staying by your side for so long as an imaginary girlfriend. I am sorry for wanting to monopolize your love. I am sorry that I was so deep. I like you, I'm sorry for the self that always feels wronged, I'm sorry for the you who doesn't like me, I won't bother you anymore, I will give you freedom.

I have decided to give up on you. You should have your own happiness, and I also have the right to be loved.

Music: The Sorrow of Aries - Shi Jin, Suddenly I Miss You So Much - Mayday