Zeng Mengjie is a miserable girl. She was born in Taishun Town, Wenzhou City, Zhejiang Province on January 26, 1984. Shortly after she landed, her father passed away. She had been weak since childhood and soon fell seriously ill. Her mother had no choice but to send her to her uncle's house in Dazhou, Sichuan. After hospital examination, Mengjie suffered from severe pneumonia complicated by abscess. Although her life was saved through rescue, part of her right lung was necrotic.

From then on, the uncle adopted this poor little girl. She called her uncle "Dad" and her aunt "Mom". Every member of this family loves Mengjie very much. She takes many kinds of medicine every day, and in her own words, "takes them by the bucket." In this way, she was raised "bucket by bucket" until she was 12 years old.

In the summer of 1996, my brother, who was studying abroad, went home to visit a teacher at his alma mater. When he returned, he was suddenly hit by a thunderstorm. My brother called home and asked for an umbrella. When Mengjie found out, he rushed into the pouring rain with an umbrella. Unexpectedly, the rain pushed Mengjie to the edge of death. That night, she kept coughing, vomited blood when she coughed, and fainted when she coughed. Her family immediately sent her to Chengdu for rescue. A complete lobe of her right lung was removed, leaving her completely disabled.

At that time, Mengjie was already in junior high school in Dazhou No. 1 Middle School and fully understood what was going on with him. She also learned about her life experience by chance. At first she was despairing and sad for a long time, but as time went by she began to lose sight of life. She knew she wouldn't live long. She was always very quiet, and under the careful care of her mother, she spent most of her time wandering in a sea of ??books.

Mengjie only goes to school for half a day every day, but his grades are surprisingly good. He does not do anything else but strive for his "parents" and live up to their upbringing. As for going to college, she said: "With a body like mine that is constantly changing, I can't pass the physical examination, so why should I talk about taking the exam?" This congenital loss made her often stand on the balcony for long periods of time, looking at her with resentment. Always wet.

Especially after the results of the routine examination in Chengdu came out on August 5, 2002, Mengjie became even more reticent. Her chronic illness had affected her heart, and she knew "that day" was coming soon. She could already hear the ticking sound of the countdown to her life.

Her parents planned to send her to Beijing for treatment, but she firmly disagreed. "Why are you so stubborn? Why don't you want to treat the disease?" "Mom" asked. "If you try to force me to get treatment again, I will die!" The whole family did not dare to say anything. In fact, everyone understood Xiao Mengjie's good intentions: she did not want to trouble the family anymore.

In the last days of Mengjie's life, she could not go to school and had to stay at home. The difficult time was as long as the horizon.

My brother loves his sister very much, and Mengjie's illness is the biggest pain in his heart. Every time he went home for vacation, he didn't dare to face his sister's resentful eyes. My sister was so talented and so loving, but she had no future—she was dying.

He wanted to do something for his sister to make her forget about illness and death. On September 4, 2002, his brother bought Mengjie a computer with the money he earned from his summer job. He told his sister: "There is a colorful world here, go in and have a look."

"What a melancholy flower, a sentimental person"

Meng Jie became a Netizens. Perhaps it was fate that she clicked on Bihaiyinsha Voice Network for the first time on the Internet and came to the famous "Voice of Beautiful Essays" recitation hall. There are many recitation artists and enthusiasts gathered here, and many writers and poets also have columns here. Mengjie fell in love with this place right away, and liked the elegant and free atmosphere here.

Mengjie met Tang Lei purely by chance. At that time, Tang Lei had graduated from Shandong Building Materials Industry College and was assigned to work at Shenzhen Water Group. He uses his spare time to engage in music creation and performance, and is a very influential online singer among netizens. One day in October 2001, he accidentally came to the "Voice of Beautiful Wen" and entered with a random online name of "Luoxue Feihua". It happened that Mengjie was inside, and his online name immediately caught her attention.

Mengjie thought "Falling Snow and Flying Flowers" was so beautiful, and immediately praised: "Your name is so poetic! It is light and free, with a superb meaning!"

Tang Lei was naturally proud. Maybe he wanted to test her and asked deliberately: "Why? Where is the poetic expression? Where is the lightness? Where is the meaning?"

Meng Jie smiled slightly and said: "Song Dynasty There is a saying that "Snow is like plum blossoms, plum blossoms are like snow, both similarities and dissimilarities are strange." From the perspective of poetry, falling snow and flying flowers, the sound is clear and strong, which can shake people's hearts and is pleasant to listen to. ! Judging from the meaning of the word, this name makes people daydream and have good intentions!"

Tang Lei was stunned for a long time and couldn't recover. He naturally understood that there were many "experts" on the Internet, but he had never seen anyone like Mengjie who could easily analyze his pseudonym. He looked at Mengjie and wanted to say hello, but couldn't find the right words.

Mengjie "speaks" again: "I like this kind of sentiment very much - such a sad and beautiful situation. A piece of falling snow is held in the hand. When you want to take a closer look, it has already turned into sparkling water. A drop of pearl. It makes people feel heartbroken and sad." From then on, Meng Jie and Tang Lei became friends who talked about everything.

Once, Mengjie chatted with Tang Lei and talked about his favorite flower. She said she liked lilacs the most, but Tang Lei disagreed. Mengjie told him that it was a small purple flower, very beautiful, symbolizing love. Immediately, Tang Lei said: "Why don't you give yourself an online name, let's call it Dingxiang."

This sentence woke Meng Jie up. In her life, there would often be a dream, in which a beautiful little white pony would appear, calling her all the time. The little white colt ran all the way, passing by the world in a flash, heading westward in the sunset, and its final destination was a cemetery full of lilacs. This makes the name "Lilac" suddenly have a poignant meaning. She really liked the name.

From then on, Mengjie became a lilac with beautiful sorrow and resentment in the online world.

Lilac has become a hope in Tang Lei's heart. He came to the "Voice of Beautiful Wen" almost whenever he had time, and when he saw Lilac, he felt an inexplicable warmth in his heart.

But he never imagined that Ding Xiang was a terminally ill patient, a dying person who was listening to the countdown of his life. He was still joking and laughing with Ding Xiang, making Ding Xiang laugh happily. In fact, her smile was forced. When the pain was unbearable, cold sweat dripped down her pale face, but she still wore a difficult smile. In fact, Ding Xiang passed out in front of the computer many times and coughed up blood on the keyboard many times.

Tang Lei couldn't understand Ding Xiang. She was obviously talking, but suddenly coughed, and then disappeared inexplicably. Once, Tang Lei was very unhappy. A record company agreed to sign a contract with him, but suddenly changed its mind, leaving him feeling "dark". He said a lot of grievances to Ding Xiang, and at the end he asked a dozen "whys" in a row. Lilac kept smiling and listened to his words without saying anything. She just sent him a small poem called "Be grateful for everything": "Be grateful to those who hurt you, because they have tempered your mentality; be grateful to those who tripped you up." Be grateful to the person, because he strengthened your legs; be grateful to the person who deceived you, because he increased your wisdom; be grateful to the person who despised you, because he awakened your self-esteem; be grateful to the person who abandoned you, because he taught you It’s time to be independent. Be grateful for everything, learn to be grateful, and be grateful to everyone who makes you grow!”

After reading this poem, it was like a ray of sunshine shining through the window lattice, and Tang Lei felt a lot brighter. He suddenly had the idea of ????seeing this strange woman who was as "lilac". He quickly asked where she was? Ding Xiang chuckled: "I'm on the Internet." Tang Lei had no idea and asked again: "How old are you?" "As old as you think I am." "Then you are an old woman, 80 years old."

This sentence made Ding Xiang silent and didn't answer for a long time. She was already in tears in front of the computer. She really wanted to live to be 80 years old, even half of it, but fate would not give her such a long time. The doctor concluded that she would not live to be 20 years old.

In subsequent contacts, Tang Lei clearly felt that this girl was unusual.

Often during phone calls, she would suddenly stop talking. Tang Lei waited for a long time. He sent countless messages on QQ and countless messages on UC, but still no reply. And her QQ and UC have never been offline, and they are still clearly displayed there.

Tang Lei vaguely felt that something big had happened. After that, Lilac didn't appear online for a long time, and she disappeared inexplicably like a gust of wind.

During this period, Tang Lei's singing creation has gradually improved. In October 2003, he represented Shenzhen in the National Campus Music Pioneer Original Song Competition, and also held a concert of his personal works at Shenzhen Yuhua Music Western Restaurant. Record companies have frequently contacted him.

"The flowers blooming in front of the grave are the beauty you long for."

On January 27, 2004, Dingxiang suddenly sent a greeting to Tang Lei online, which was very embarrassing. The ground asked him where he was.

Tang Lei was in Beijing at that time, recording new songs in a recording studio.

"I want to see you." Tang Lei felt strange and asked her where she was.

"I'm at Peking University Hospital." Lilac is in Beijing? Still in the hospital? An ominous feeling came to Tang Lei's heart, and he quickly asked: "Are you sick?"

"Everything is clear when you see me." Afterwards, Tang Lei found out that Ding Xiang came to Beijing specifically. Find him. Initially, she disagreed with her parents sending her to Beijing for treatment. Later, she heard that Tang Lei went to Beijing to record songs, so she obeyed her parents' wishes. In fact, when she rushed to Beijing, she just wanted to see Tang Lei in person in her last days.

When they met in a ward filled with the smell of lilacs, there was no hug, no intimate greeting, and no shyness when they first met. They shook hands like old friends reunited after a long separation. There was a faint smile on Ding Xiang's pale face, her eyes were beautiful and her eyes were clear. Tang Lei looked at her with mixed feelings. He had thousands of words in his heart, but he didn't know where to start.

Ding Xiang’s mother quietly told Tang Lei that Ding Xiang was on the verge of death. The doctor issued a critical illness notice, and death would come within a few days. Looking at Ding Xiang's smiling face and those clear and transparent eyes, Tang Lei felt a pang in his heart.

As if talking to herself, Dingxiang comforted Tang Lei: "I am no longer afraid of death. Today, everything is as clear as water. I will enter heaven because I have your blessing and you. Song." This sentence made Tang Lei burst into tears.

In the following days, Tang Lei went to the hospital to visit Ding Xiang whenever he had time. At that time, he was planning his first album, and many plans were unsatisfactory. In particular, the title song of the album was still unclear and he was extremely busy. Ding Xiang felt sorry for Tang Lei and was worried for him. She asked her father to go to the bookstore and buy a lot of books, hoping to provide some inspiration to brother Tang Lei. One day, she found a story in a couplet book. After reading it, she was very moved and hurriedly called Tang Lei.

She told this story in the book: In ancient times, a young scholar fell in love with a shopkeeper's daughter on his way to Beijing to take the exam, and the two fell in love. Unexpectedly, the shop owner was extremely angry and scolded his daughter for ruining the family tradition. The girl cried and told her that they truly loved each other and begged her father to let her go, but the shop owner refused. The girl had a strong temper and died immediately. The shop owner regretted it so much that he buried his daughter on the hillside behind him. Soon, the girl's grave was covered with lush lilac trees, with flowers blooming and fragrance overflowing. The scholar was so surprised that he carried water to water the flowers every day from then on, never stopping, and stayed with the lilacs all his life.

After telling this story, Ding Xiang shed tears: "Aren't you worried about the title song? Just focus on the poignancy, use flowers to cherish people, use acoustic guitar accompaniment to express 'melancholy, express' dreams, express 'Feelings... In fact, simplicity is the best. "

This sentence suddenly made Tang Lei wake up from a dream. Yes, simplicity and simplicity are the highest realms. An acoustic guitar, a school ballad, and a poignant story, how wonderful! He was very excited, grabbed Ding Xiang's hand and shouted: "Ding Xiang is the one who knows me! The title song of my album is called "Lilac Flower". I must write it well and give it to you."

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In the boundless night, Tang Lei forced himself to calm down with the help of a lonely light. His relationship with Lilac was like a black and white film, both clear and broken. He could not imagine a girl "hearing the sound of life" What kind of mentality does she have when the clock counts down? To her, life should be brilliant and bright, but she can only greet death with a smile, calmness, and even a little nonchalance. The arrival of Tang Lei. Thinking about it, Tang Lei's tears rolled down again and again.

At dawn, Tang Lei, filled with emotions, wrote a poignant and sad song "Lilac Flower" in one breath:

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You said you love lilac the most/because it’s your name/what a melancholy flower/what a sentimental person/when the flowers wither/when the picture freezes/what a delicate flower/but can’t escape the wind The blowing rain/A life of floating and swaying/How many beautiful things have turned into dreams/Come in such a hurry/Leave me with a lifetime of worries

The flowers blooming in front of the grave are the beauty you long for. Ah/Look at the mountains and plains/Do you still feel lonely/Listen to someone singing your favorite song/How many worries in the city/You no longer have to worry about it/The days are filled with lilacs/They are blooming to their fullest beauty flowers/I am here to accompany her/protect her all my life

The warm winter sun shone into the ward, Tang Lei gently plucked the strings and sang for Lilac, and the emotions flowed between each other's hearts. At that moment, Music faded the sadness.

"Lilac" was quickly recorded, and its simple and simple orchestration captured the hearts of the audience. Tang Lei put the song on the Internet and it immediately became popular. At that time, the entire Internet was filled with lilacs, and "Lilac" became famous in China.

When this song became popular, it was the night of February 14, 2004. Ding Xiang went into shock many times on the hospital bed. She heard the ticking of the life clock again, and she knew that when tomorrow morning came, the fresh sun she had promised to Tang would no longer belong to her. Brother Lei took her hand to see the lilacs in Xishan, Beijing. She said that the sound of lilacs blooming was the most spiritual song in the world.

But she couldn't wait any longer. After she coughed violently, some blood sprayed on the bed sheets. She felt that the sky was dark and she had no strength at all. She said to Tang Lei: "...I have no strength... ...I can't hold on anymore, forgive me..." After that, she closed her eyes.

There was no wind outside the window, and the whole world seemed to be completely silent. The moonlight was very desolate, and the elegant little white horse in the dream The horse roared towards the cemetery full of lilacs. Lilac once said that he would write a lyric for Tang Lei's album, but he left in a hurry before he could write it. Lei wanted to touch Ding Xiang's pure and beautiful face, and comb her hair. When he finally looked at Ding Xiang, he found that there was still a drop of crystal tears in the corner of her eyes... "Ding Xiang, mine." The album will be released soon, it's called "Lilacs", can you hear it in heaven? ”