Looking back at the past few years in college, the thing I regret most is that I wanted to do something that I had been thinking about for a long time, but in the end I still didn’t have the courage to do it.

I have thought about many things, such as joining the student union and working hard, or having fun in a club, or getting a scholarship, becoming a class leader, etc., and then making some like-minded friends, but the fact is If you don’t follow the script at all, you’ll either miss the mark but still miss it, or you’ll be disappointed in various ways, and your original ambition and so-called ideals will slowly be worn away.

Someone asked me what I think is the most frustrating thing in college. I can’t think of a reason. It seems that there is nothing that can defeat me all at once, but the armor on my body is still worn away. Bare.

I regretted not getting admitted to a better university. Maybe I would have been more passionate, but in the end I still failed. I also worked very hard and went to the library alone to read. I tried to get to know people well, hang out at Xinhua Bookstore, work part-time, and tried everything, but I still felt that I was terrible. Sometimes I wondered if I had any psychological problems, or if I was destined to be so mediocre and dim. .

There are many opportunities that could have been taken advantage of, but I always find reasons for myself to give up. I am really afraid that I will attract attention and become outstanding. I always hide my inner thoughts and let others think that I am safe and harmless, and I am indifferent to the world. In fact, I am just afraid.

It wasn’t until I was about to graduate that I began to understand that I had wasted too much time and opportunities. I was wondering why no one came to teach me a lesson when I was a freshman and let me understand earlier. , However, since there is no one to hold me, then I will always come here by myself, so it doesn’t matter.

I am really powerless when it comes to finding a job now, because I can’t explain how capable I am to a company to hire me, and I don’t even have the opportunity to explain it to others. I don’t even have confidence in myself, so what I regret most in college is that I couldn’t become more confident and become a better person.