Before graduation, she still did not agree to He Yunhan's pursuit. After being classmates for four years, there was only a faint friendship between them and his deep unrequited love for her.

In the past four years, no matter how many things he did for her that would move an average girl to tears, or how much sincerity he gave, she remained indifferent. The meetings she had made, the words she had said, and the promises she had made were all so thin and meaningless to her.

He didn't even hold her hand, but he already felt that his true heart had lived and died in front of her hundreds of times.

If unrequited love fails, is it considered lovelorn? Don’t count! Even the relationship has not officially started, how can it be considered lovelorn? He comforted himself.

When he was studying abroad, he still insisted on packing the thick graduation album in his suitcase so that he could see her photo every day. Under the photo, there were three characters of her name "Zheng Xinyun" and the last word: "Zheng Xinyun". Love's cartoon Snoopy pattern, and her motto of life inscribed in her own handwriting: "If you reach for the stars, you may not get what you want, but you won't get your hands dirty."

Going to London to further study industrial design, he became a lonely man For international students, the only leisure activity after class is to watch the clouds in the sky. When he first arrived in London, he was still not used to the gloomy weather, but the ever-changing clouds relieved his homesickness. The clouds in the London sky are like the "clouds" of his hometown that he never forgets.

It turns out that there is a person hidden in my heart who can take her with her to the end of the world.

Later I learned from my classmates that his "cloud" did not stay in his hometown. Zheng Xinyun applied to a school in Australia and changed her career to information management. When he received the news, he didn't complain about her leaving without saying goodbye, as if he was already used to it. In her mind, he was never someone who had to answer for anything.

He has never hated her, so he can start loving her again anytime and anywhere.

A few days after sending the email, he did not expect a response, but he was surprised to receive a reply from her. In just a few lines, the bitterness of international students is revealed.

[I find that my adaptability is very poor. After a few months, I still want to go home every day, but when I think about spending so much money and giving up halfway, I feel really sorry for my single mother...]

For the first time in so many years, he felt like she treated him as a friend. The most ordinary friend, there is no need to be wary of him everywhere. Is it because people's resistance becomes weaker in a foreign land, or is she deliberately lowering the threshold for him to pursue her? He knew it very well. However, his strong desire to love her had made him temporarily forget the difference between a gentleman and a villain.

"What's wrong with taking advantage of the opportunity?" He said to himself in his heart, full of ambition.

Put on your shirt again and set off on the road to love. From sending her an email every day to calling her to comfort her every night, everything went very smoothly. In order to pay for the huge overseas phone bill, he even secretly worked two odd jobs without telling his supervisor.

That year, one night before Christmas, she cried non-stop every night on the phone from overseas, and she finally broke through her tears and smiled.

"Thank you!" She thanked him for the first time, "These days, if it weren't for you, I really don't know how to survive."

He is good at waiting, She would not miss this opportunity easily, "Actually, I have always been so considerate to you. I believe you must know it!"

"I..." She paused for a few seconds, "I'm just afraid , Fear..."

He understood what she was thinking. During the email exchange, she mentioned her unhappy childhood experiences many times, which made her more worried about happiness than expecting it.

"Give me a chance and let me prove to you that happiness is not that difficult, okay?"

She knew she couldn't escape, "Okay! Let's try it . ”

Hang up the phone and he ran excitedly on the snowy street, shouting uncontrollably. In the world of ice and snow, only he and his newborn love were still awake, alive, and jumping.

On Christmas Eve, the school had a week-long Christmas vacation, and he had two research reports that had to be completed during the vacation. However, this did not dissuade him from visiting her. Although he still didn't know how to overcome the difficulties of schoolwork and money at the same time, he already had a round-trip air ticket from London to Melbourne.

In order to give her a complete surprise, he chose a B&B from the Internet, which happened to be across the street from her student apartment. If the map on the webpage was accurate enough, he could even see the light in her room from a distance. Even if he was in a different room, he could sleep with her and wake up with her.

Judging from the picture, the distance between dreams and reality is not as far as the flight of an airplane. 747, filled with his belief and expectation for love, flew to the place where she was studying alone. However, judging from real life, the distance between two hearts does not necessarily change due to physical proximity or separation.

At dusk, he finally checked into a B&B across the street from her. , he looked at her dormitory. His slanted gaze crossed the street and landed in front of her window sill. Snoopy's pendant made him more certain that his beloved lived inside. However, the tired body and excited heart could not wake up the warmth in the house.

There was no light in her room. Call, no one answered.

At midnight, while doing homework in front of his laptop, he kept an eye on her window sill. The jet lag was just another reason why he couldn't sleep. Another reason that kept him awake was excitement and worry - where did she go?

After staying up until early morning, he shut down the computer, but her doors and windows were still closed.

The landlady prepared a simple breakfast, toast bread, coffee, milk, and boiled eggs. He had no appetite, so in order to pass the time, he slowly ate a tasteless breakfast. He waited until ten o'clock before going to her student apartment to call the door.

When he rang the bell, he naively imagined that she would be the one to open the door. Just as he gave her a surprise, he also gave him a surprise in return.

Unfortunately, there is no response.

Everything was so quiet that it scared him.

Back at the B&B, he hardly left the house and even forgot about meal times. While he was catching up on homework in front of his laptop, he was distractedly keeping an eye on her window sill. I fell asleep on the keyboard due to lack of energy and was woken up by the sound of the computer crashing. It was already noon on the third day.

The slightly neurotic landlady, who was already seventy years old, actually said to him seriously: "I was just going to call an ambulance." He was already exhausted, but he heard the feeling of uneasiness in these words. Everyone knows the desolation and bursts into tears.

"Young man, your eyes are full of sadness." The landlady's words only added to his bitterness.

He explained the purpose of his trip to her, and her eyes filled with tears.

"It is the privilege of young people to waste their lives for love." She said, "Unfortunately, youth and love are the easiest things to disappear in the world."

Her I am familiar with the landlord of the student dormitory and go to help him find out where Zheng Xinyun is. The other party's reply was simple - I went on vacation with my classmates and wouldn't be back until Christmas Day.

"At least you can spend Christmas Eve with her." The landlady's suggestion became his only hope.

The Christmas day is particularly long, and He Yunhan hopes that Zheng Xinyun can come back early, even if it is only an hour early.

Every street is filled with Christmas music; every tree is shining with cheerful lights; every heart is filled with the hope of a lover.

He is the only one, still alone.

As time passed by, his hope was shattered bit by bit. Not only did she not come back early, she also didn't come back on time. The image in front of the windowsill was still dark, announcing the premonition that she might not even come back.

Should I thank her? Two reports have been completed.

A life without love is fortunately filled with schoolwork. And Christmas Eve, without love and no need to catch up on homework, is so long.

At dawn, He Yunhan, who was watching on the window sill, finally saw a car approaching from far away and parked at the door of the student dormitory. Several classmates got out of the car with a clatter, and said: The lingering joy of Christmas is revealed in the eight tongues.

He clearly saw Zheng Xinyun, who was the last one to get off the car. The bitterness of waiting and the warmth of romance turned into two lines of tears at the same time, welling up in his eyes.

In the blur, a scene emerged - Zheng Xinyun and his male companion, who was acting as the driver, kissing goodbye on the street.

Although she just kissed him gently on the forehead, it was enough to make his heart break in an instant.

He sent her upstairs with tearful eyes. After waiting for several days, I finally saw the light in the window sill being lit. A few days ago, he thought that when the light came on, it would be the moment they reunited in a foreign country. He would whisper her name and wait for the look of surprise and joy in her eyes when she looked back.

At this moment, the lights came on, but he could only choose to remain silent.

Life cannot be rehearsed, and love cannot be repeated. The plot performed by two people at the same time did not follow his script. Is it because the tacit understanding is not enough? Or should he and her be on the same stage in the first place? He finally realized that he was redundant and that this was not where he was supposed to be.

After waiting these days and suffering from insomnia every night, he slept very deeply in the heartbreaking night. There is no greater sorrow than the death of one's heart. The heart is dead and the body has lost its vitality.

I don’t know how long he slept, but someone kept beating him in his dream. In a flash of sleep, he realized it was his fist. When I was seventy minutes awake, I heard another knock on the door. When she opened her eyes again, Zheng Xinyun was already standing in front of her.

One of his expected surprises turned into two unexpected embarrassments.

"The landlord said that a friend came to see me and he has been waiting for a few days. I thought it might be you." She guessed correctly.

The answer to the riddle is meaningless to him.

"It was a temporary decision. The school suddenly announced a holiday and I had nowhere to go. I happened to see an advertisement for discounted air tickets. I wanted to come for sightseeing and see you by the way." He lied, not for his own face, but for his own sake. I don't want her to have too much burden on her heart.

She volunteered to spend half a day with him for sightseeing in the city. However, he secretly changed the return time and decided to fly back to London early that night.

"Since it's too late for city sightseeing, at least let me take you to the airport." Half a day of city sightseeing was condensed into an airport send-off. She also breathed a sigh of relief.

After marking the seat, he was about to enter the gate, and couldn't help but ask: "Is he good to you?"

"You saw it!" She should have thought of it earlier. , a parting kiss on Christmas Eve, all in his eyes. "Perhaps you don't believe it, I just got used to it in the past two days. I'm from Beijing, so I'm a senior."

"What attracted you to him?"

"He said he wanted to reach for the stars. Me." Her eyes turned red, "He is very good to me. I know that you are also very good to me. But I can't just fall in love with your kindness. The better a man treats me, the more I want to escape. I don’t even understand why I always feel that the man who can give me happiness is unreliable.”

For so many years, she cried on his shoulder for the first time. He also cried. She cried for her vain happiness. He cried because he couldn't help her.

"Love without worry! Love him well, I wish you all the best! Don't think so much about life! That's it, happiness is the most important thing now."

He turned and left, Never looked back. I would rather shed tears at the end of her invisible love than leave his weakness in her memory.

With the answer, even though it was a heartbreaking answer, he flew into the night sky and returned to his lonely journey. Losing is also a kind of determination. Even if the time you have is so short, being able to give to someone without any regrets is happiness.

He thought: This is the awakening of love, and you will never regret it despite all the hardships.

◎This year, spring came late in London.

If it weren’t for the reminders of several Chinese classmates, it would be difficult for Yunhan, who buries himself in the library every day, to notice that the Lunar New Year has passed and the Lantern Festival has also followed the calendar.

The days of being carefree are a new experience in his life. For so many years, there has been a cloud in his heart. Since she drifted away, his heart and life have become empty. .

Without love, he can only concentrate on studying. Saving the cost of overseas phone calls, the money earned from part-time work is being transferred to another target worthy of investment, not a girl, but a set of sophisticated computer graphics equipment. He planned to further his studies for a Ph.D., and upon the advice of his supervisor, he decided to purchase a set of equipment so that he would not have to queue up with his classmates in the laboratory every day to grab a machine.

On April Fool's Day, an email signed by "Zheng Xinyun" appeared on his computer. The main message was "Your heart is the truest!" At first, he thought it was just an April Fool's Day joke. After opening his email, he confirmed that it was not a prank. After all, love has made too many jokes on him.

I am not afraid of making you laugh, I am lovelorn!

The other party brought it up on his own initiative, but this time the roles were reversed, he thought I was too good to him.

Maybe I am not mature enough and don’t know how to exercise discretion. I have given too much to him and become a pressure on him.

His ruthlessness reminds me of the injustice I did to you. God is very fair and will give me quick retribution.

I don’t know more and more about the meaning of commitment. A man who promised to reach for the stars for me ended up leaving me so easily.

No wonder, my mother said, men are really unreliable!

Are you an exception?

Oh my God! He didn't know whether to thank or complain. Love God, did not give up on him. Is it another time to take advantage of others' danger and sneak in? He had no time to think. Is there anything in the world that is more worth cherishing and needing to grasp than the relationship that is lost and found?

He started writing emails to her again; when the time was right, he also started making phone calls. Long-distance love has never been a problem for him. To him, as long as you know: I love you! That's enough, that's enough.

On the eve of the end of the semester, when he was calculating the cost of air tickets back to Taipei and the budget for purchasing drawing instruments, he accidentally saw a classified advertisement with the title - "Pick a star and get a free gift" To the one you love”.

A private organization cooperates with an astronomical science unit to sell meteorites for charity, and the proceeds will be donated to the AIDS Prevention and Control Center. The price of each gift box is very high, equivalent to about 10,000 US dollars. They will engrave the lover's name and a blessing on the buyer, and take precautions against radiation to make love last forever.

After thinking about it for a few days, he decided to postpone the purchase of drawing instruments, cancel his trip back to Taipei during the summer vacation, and use the money saved to pick a star for her. In addition to her name being engraved on it, her favorite motto, "Reaching for the stars may not always come true, but your hands will not get dirty." is also engraved on it. In order to create a surprise effect, of course it must be hidden from her.

Unknowingly, she lost her temper because he couldn't come back to Taipei for a reunion as promised, and she couldn't let it go for a long time.

Enduring his grievances, he suggested to her in a roundabout way on the phone: "You have never been to London, why don't you stop by during the summer vacation and I will take you around."

"By the way? Did you make a mistake? It went smoothly from Melbourne to Taipei and then to London?" She mocked him angrily.

He was speechless. She helplessly whispered in her heart: "When you receive this star, you will know what happened!"

Unfortunately, she also canceled her trip back to Taipei, and once again she couldn't. Say goodbye and travel to South Africa with a group of friends.

She did not receive this gift throughout the summer vacation. Surprises and touches also have a shelf life! After it expires, everything changes and loses its flavor.

Old things happen again, and the drama is as usual. During her trip to South Africa, she became so close to her male friend that she completely forgot about him in London.

Before school started, she confessed to him on the phone: "I am sorry for you.

”

He thought of Christmas Eve in Melbourne. He has been working hard to pursue his own happiness, but he still cannot escape the fate of losing her. If the desolation of love is a kind of fate, maybe he will be more comfortable.

How he wished that the box of packages destined for the stars was lost in the cargo hold of a certain plane. He no longer wanted to, nor could he, face a life where surprises turned into embarrassment.

◎It was already a year later that Zheng Xinyun received the box of gifts. After completing her studies and returning to China, she worked in an American company and was so busy that she didn't even have time for dates. After a blind date arranged by her mother, she is about to marry an electronics upstart who works in the science park.

A few days before I was ready to leave the cabinet, I was packing up the belongings at home. My mother suddenly remembered that she had signed for this international express package for her when she was abroad. She opened the package and thought it was an ordinary stone at first glance, completely unable to realize that it once belonged to a star in the sky.

After reading the certificate and documentation in the gift box, she looked at the star and was speechless for a long, long time.

What kind of happiness is it for a woman to be deeply loved by a man in her life?

In other words, what kind of regret is it for a woman to miss a man who loves her deeply in her life?

She is about to put on her wedding dress, has experienced this kind of happiness, and also understands this regret.

"If you reach for the stars, you may not get what you want, but you won't get your hands dirty." At this moment, she finally understood: He is the brightest star in the world.

A lot of love requires a pair of discerning eyes to see its shining light like a star. Otherwise, in the eyes of people who don't know how to cherish it, it is just an ordinary stone.

For a long time, Yun Han, who was far away in London, did not dare to look at the clouds or the stars.

The most beautiful love in the world is the courage to sacrifice for someone. Even if he was badly injured, he would have no regrets or complaints.