In 2004, an Internet song called "Lilac" moved China. The author and performer of this song is named Tang Lei. He is an online singer in Shenzhen. Major media hailed him as "China's second

after Daolang The 'bottom-up' pop star." However, did you know that behind this song, there is a story that is more poignant than the lilac flower - "What a delicate flower, but it cannot hide from the wind." "Blowing and raining" Zeng Mengjie is a miserable girl. She was born in Taishun Town, Wenzhou City, Zhejiang Province on January 26, 1984. Her father passed away not long after she landed. She

had been weak since childhood, and soon fell ill. Her mother had no choice but to send her to her uncle's house in Dazhou, Sichuan.

After hospital examination, Mengjie suffered from severe pneumonia complicated by abscess. Although her life was saved through rescue, her right lung

was already necrotic.

From then on, the uncle adopted this poor little girl. She called her uncle "Dad" and her aunt "Mom".

Every member of this family loves Mengjie very much. She takes many kinds of medicine every day. In her own words,

she takes them "one by one." In this way, she was raised "bucket by bucket" until she was 12 years old.

In the summer of 1996, my brother, who was studying abroad, went home to visit a teacher at his alma mater. When he returned, he was suddenly hit by a thunderstorm.

My brother called home and asked for an umbrella. When Mengjie found out, he rushed into the pouring rain with an umbrella. Unexpectedly, the rain this time actually pushed Mengjie to the edge of death. That night, she kept coughing, vomiting blood whenever she coughed, and passed out as soon as she coughed. Her family immediately sent her to Chengdu for rescue. A complete lobe of her right lung was removed, leaving her completely disabled.

At that time, Mengjie was already in junior high school in Dazhou No. 1 Middle School and fully understood what was going on with him. She also learned about her life experience by chance. At first she was desperate and sad for a long time, but as time went by she began to take life very lightly. She knew she wouldn't live long. She was always very quiet, and under the careful care of her mother, she spent most of her time wandering in a sea of ??books.

Mengjie only goes to school for half a day every day, but his grades are surprisingly good. He does not do anything else but strive for his "mom and dad" and live up to their upbringing. of grace. As for going to college, she said: "With my ephemeral body, if I can't pass the physical examination, why should I take the exam?" This congenital loss often makes her take long periods of time.

Standing on the balcony, my resentful eyes are always wet.

Especially after the results of the routine examination in Chengdu came out on August 5, 2002, Mengjie became even more silent

. Her chronic illness has affected her heart, and she knows "that day" is coming soon. She has already heard the ticking sound of the countdown to life.

My parents planned to send her to Beijing for treatment, but she firmly disagreed. "Why are you so stubborn? Why are you unwilling to treat the disease?" "Mom" asked. "If you continue to force me to treat a disease, I will die!" The whole family did not dare to say anything. In fact, everyone understood Xiao Mengjie's good intentions: she did not want to trouble the family anymore. .

In the last days of Mengjie's life, she could not go to school and had to stay at home. The difficult time was as long as the horizon.

My brother loves his sister very much, and Mengjie's illness is the biggest pain in his heart. Every time he went home for the holidays, he didn't dare to face his sister's resentful eyes. My sister is so talented and caring, but she has no future - she is dying

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He wanted to do something for his sister to make her forget about illness and death. On September 4, 2002, his brother bought Mengjie a computer with the money he earned from working during the summer. He told his sister: "There is a colorful world here.

Go in and have a look.

”

“What a melancholy flower, such a sentimental person” Meng Jie became a netizen. Maybe it was fate, she clicked on Bihai Yinsha the first time she went online. Voice Network, came to the famous "Voice of Beautiful Literature" recitation hall. There are many recitation artists and enthusiasts here, and many writers and poets also have columns here. >

I fell in love with this place right away, and liked the elegant and free atmosphere here.

It was purely by chance that Meng Jie met Tang Lei, who had already graduated from Shandong Building Materials Industry College.

Assigned to work at Shenzhen Water Group. He used his spare time to engage in music creation and performance, and was a very influential Internet singer among netizens. One day in October 2001, he accidentally. He came to the "Voice of Beautiful Wen",

he randomly chose the screen name "Luoxue Feihua" and went in. It happened that Meng Jie was inside, and his screen name immediately attracted attention

. Her attention. Mengjie thought "Falling Snow and Flying Flowers" was so beautiful, and immediately praised: "Your name is so poetic!

Light and free, with superb meaning! "

Tang Lei was naturally proud. He may have wanted to test her, so he deliberately asked: "Why? Where does the poetry lie?

Where is the lightness? What’s the moral? "

Meng Jie smiled slightly and said eloquently: "Song people have a saying that 'snow is like plum blossoms, plum blossoms are like snow, whether they are similar or not are both strange

excellent'. From the point of view of poetry, falling snow and flying flowers are like falling snow and flying flowers. When read, the pronunciation is clear and strong, and the sound is clear and strong.

It can shake people's hearts and is beautiful to listen to! From the meaning of the word, this name makes people daydream and has good intentions! ”

Tang Lei was stunned and couldn’t recover for a long time. He naturally knew that there were many “experts” on the Internet, but people like Meng Jie found his pseudonym so easily. He looked at Meng Jie and wanted to say hello, but he couldn't find the right words.

Meng Jie "spoke" again. Said: "I like this kind of emotion very much - such a sad and beautiful situation. A piece of falling snowflake is held in the hand. When you want to take a closer look, it has already turned into a drop of shining water. It's heart-wrenching and heartbreaking. ”

From then on, Mengjie and Tang Lei became friends who talked about everything.

Once, Mengjie chatted with Tang Lei and talked about her favorite flower. She said the most He likes lilacs, but Tang Lei doesn't take it seriously. Meng Jie told him that it was a small purple flower, which was very beautiful and symbolized love. Then, Tang Lei said: "You. Why not give yourself an online name, just Lilac. ”

This sentence woke up Mengjie. In her life, there would often be a dream, in which a beautiful little white pony would appear. Calling her. The little white horse ran all the way, passing by the world, heading west in the sunset, and its final destination was a cemetery full of lilacs. The name "Lilac" suddenly took on a poignant meaning. She loved it from the bottom of her heart.

From then on, Mengjie became a knot in the online world. The beautiful and sad Lilac became Tang Lei's expectation. He came to "The Sound of Beautiful Wen" almost every time he had time. There was an inexplicable warmth in his heart.

But he never thought that Ding Xiang was a terminally ill patient, a dying person who was listening to the countdown of his life. She was joking and laughing with Dingxiang, making Dingxiang laugh happily. In fact, her smile was forced. When the pain was unbearable, cold sweat poured down her pale face. But

Ding Xiang still had a difficult smile. In fact, Ding Xiang fainted in front of the computer and coughed up blood on the keyboard many times.

Tang Lei couldn't understand Ding Xiang either. , he was obviously talking, but suddenly he coughed, and then disappeared inexplicably. Once, Tang Lei was very unhappy. A record company agreed to sign a contract with him, but suddenly changed its mind, which made him heartbroken. /p>

"Darkness".

He said a lot of grievances to Ding Xiang, and at the end he asked a dozen "whys" in a row.

Ding Xiang listened to his words with a smile and said nothing. She just sent him a poem called "Thanks for Everything"

"Be grateful to those who hurt you, Because he has tempered your mentality; be grateful to the person who tripped you, because he strengthened your legs; be grateful to the person who deceived you, because he has enhanced your wisdom; be grateful to the person who despised you Be grateful to the person who abandoned you, because he awakened your self-esteem; be grateful to the person who abandoned you, because he taught you to be independent. Be grateful for everything, learn to be grateful, and be grateful for everything. You grow up!"

After reading this poem, as if a ray of sunshine filtered through the window lattice, Tang Lei felt a lot brighter. He suddenly had the idea of ??meeting this "lilac"-like woman. He quickly asked where she was? Ding Xiangge

Squeaked a smile: "I'm on the Internet." Tang Lei had no idea and asked: "How old are you?" "As old as you think I am."

"Then you are An old woman, 80 years old."

This sentence made Ding Xiang silent and did not answer for a long time. She was already in tears in front of the computer. She really wanted to live to be 80 years old, even if she lived half of it, but fate would not give her such a long time. The doctor asserted that she would not live to be 20 years old.

In subsequent contacts, Tang Lei clearly felt that this girl was unusual. Often during phone calls, she would

suddenly stop talking. Tang Lei waited for a long time. He sent countless messages on QQ and countless messages on UC, but still no reply. And her QQ and UC have never been offline, and they are still clearly displayed there.

Tang Lei vaguely felt that something big had happened. After that, Ding Xiang didn't appear online for a long time.

She disappeared inexplicably like a gust of wind.

During this period, Tang Lei's singing creation has gradually improved. In October 2003, he represented Shenzhen in

the National Campus Music Pioneer Original Song Competition, and also held a concert of his personal works at Shenzhen Yuhua Music Western Restaurant. There are already records The company contacted him frequently.

"The flowers blooming in front of the grave are the beauty you long for." On January 27, 2004, Lilac suddenly sent a greeting to Tang Lei on the Internet, which was very unexpected. Asked politely where he was.

Tang Lei was in Beijing at that time, recording new songs in a recording studio.

"I want to see you." Tang Lei felt strange and asked her where she was.

"I'm at Peking University Hospital." Lilac is in Beijing? Still in the hospital? An ominous feeling came to Tang Lei's heart, and he quickly asked: "Are you sick?"

"Everything is clear when you see me." Afterwards, Tang Lei realized You know, Ding Xiang came to Beijing specifically to find him.

At first, she disagreed with her parents sending her to Beijing for treatment. Later, she heard that Tang Lei went to Beijing to record songs,

So she obeyed her parents. What mom means. In fact, when she rushed to Beijing, she just wanted to see Tang Lei in person in her last moments.

When we met in a ward filled with the smell of lilacs, there was no hug, no intimate greeting, and no shyness when we first met

They were like old friends reunited after a long separation. Shaked hands. There was a faint smile on Ding Xiang's pale face, her eyes were beautiful and her eyes were clear. Tang Lei looked at her with mixed feelings. He had thousands of words in his heart, but he didn't know where to start.

Dingxiang's mother quietly told Tang Lei that Dingxiang was no longer alive. The doctor issued a critical illness notice, and death would come

in these few days. Looking at Ding Xiang's smiling face and those clear and transparent eyes, Tang Lei felt a pang of pain in his heart.

As if talking to herself, Ding Xiang comforted Tang Lei: "I am no longer afraid of death. Today, everything is like water without a trace.

I will go to heaven, because I With your blessings and your songs.

"This sentence made Tang Lei burst into tears.

In the following days, Tang Lei went to the hospital to visit Ding Xiang whenever he had time. At that time, he was planning his first personal trip

A lot of plans for an album were not ideal, especially the album's title song, which was very busy.

Ding Xiang felt very sorry for Tang Lei and was worried about him. Dad went to the bookstore and bought a lot of books, hoping to provide some inspiration to Brother Tang Lei. One day, she found a story in a couplet book and was very moved after reading it.

Hurrying to call Tang Lei

She told this story in the book: In ancient times, a young scholar fell in love with a shop on his way to Beijing to take the exam.

The owner's daughter, the two fell in love. Unexpectedly, the shopkeeper was extremely angry and scolded his daughter for ruining the family tradition. The girl cried and told her that they truly loved each other and begged her father to let her go, but the shopkeeper had a strong temper and immediately became angry. She died. The shop owner regretted it and buried his daughter on the hillside behind her. Soon, the girl's grave was covered with lush lilac trees and blooming flowers. The fragrance overflowed. The scholar was amazed, and from then on he carried water to water the flowers every day, and stayed with the lilacs all his life.

After telling this story, Lilac shed tears. Said: "Aren't you worried about the title song? It is positioned on the poignancy,

Borrowing flowers to cherish people, using acoustic guitar accompaniment to express 'melancholy, express' dreams, express' feelings... In fact, simplicity is the best

. ”

This sentence made Tang Lei wake up from a dream. Yes, simplicity and simplicity are the highest realm. An wooden guitar

A campus ballad, a poignant story , How wonderful this is! He was very excited, grabbed Ding Xiang's hand and shouted: "The one who knows me is Ding Xiang!" The title song of my album is called "Lilac". I must write it well and send it to you.

”

In the boundless night, Tang Lei forced himself to calm down with the help of a lonely light. His relationship with Lilac was as clear as black and white film but also broken and mottled. He could not imagine it. What kind of mentality does a girl have when she "hears the ticking sound of the clock of life"? Life should be bright and bright for her, but she only has it. Smiling, calmly, and even a little calmly, Tang Lei's tears rolled down his eyes as he thought about it. Tang Lei wrote a poignant and sad song "Lilac" in one breath:

You said you love lilac the most/because your name is it/what a melancholy flower/what a sentimental person.

／When the flowers wither/When the picture freezes/What a delicate flower/But it cannot escape the wind and rain/It floats

A shaking life/How much beauty has become A dream/coming in such a hurry/leaving me with a lifelong concern

The flowers blooming in front of the grave is the beauty you long for/Look at the mountains and plains/Do you still feel lonely/

Listen to someone singing your favorite song/How many worries in the city/You don’t have to worry about it anymore/The days are full of lilacs/Blooming in full bloom and beauty Flowers/I am here to accompany her/protect her all my life

The warm winter sun shone into the ward, Tang Lei gently plucked the strings and sang to Lilac, and the emotions flowed between each other's hearts,

At that moment, the music subsided the sadness.

"Lilac" was quickly recorded, and Tang Lei captured the audience's heart with its simple and simple orchestration.

When the song was posted on the Internet, it immediately became popular. For a time, the entire Internet was filled with lilac flowers, and "Lilac

Flowers" became famous in China.

When the song started, it was February 14, 2004. That night, Ding Xiang went into shock many times on the bed, and she heard the countdown of the life clock again. Tick-tock, she

knows that when tomorrow morning comes, the fresh sun no longer belongs to her.

Originally, she agreed to let brother Tang Lei take her hand to see the lilac flowers in Xishan, Beijing. She said that the sound of the lilac flowers blooming is the most spiritual singing voice in the world.

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But she couldn't wait any longer. Late that night, after she had a violent cough, little bits of blood were sprayed on the sheets.

She felt that the sky was dark and the earth was dark, there was no strength in her body, and sweat was dripping from her pale face. She said to Tang Lei: "... I have no strength... I can't hold on anymore, forgive me..." After that, she closed her eyes

Eye.

There is no wind outside the window, and the whole world seems to be completely silent. The moonlight was very bleak, and the elegant little white colt in the dream ran roaring towards the cemetery full of lilacs. Ding Xiang once said that she wanted to write a lyric for Tang Lei's album. It was a love song, but she left in a hurry before she could write it. Before being laid to rest, Tang Lei wanted to touch Ding Xiang's innocent and beautiful face, and comb her hair. When he stared at Ding Xiang for the last time, he found that there was still a drop of crystal tears in the corner of her eyes... "Ding Xiang, my album will be published soon, and it will be called "Ding Xiang". "Lilac", can you hear it in heaven?"