As long as you pursue something positive, there is no shame in it. But according to your current situation, is it realistic to learn music? Although you like it very much and you believe that you have the ability, learning art is ultimately unrealistic. My advice to you is to save your money, learn skills, go to training classes, and start a business. Yes, this does go against your own ideals and wishes, but life is life. If you are a man, you not only have to support yourself, but also your future family. This is an unshirkable responsibility. It is true that some people are engaged in music and become famous, but these are rare cases. To give the simplest example, you only have ten yuan on you. Do you sell food or buy lottery tickets? I believe you will choose the same answer as me.

So, what I want to say is that working hard to do your job, learning more, and improving your abilities and skills are your top priorities now.

Friend, don’t blame me for throwing cold water on you, but this is reality. I also have ideals, but ideals are full and reality is skinny. We must face reality.

I hope this is helpful to you.