I think you are suffering from music obsessive-compulsive disorder. It seems like there is a music player playing music in your head every day and you can't stop it. It really bothers you.

I think the solution is that you have to accept it first, that is, if your mind thinks that when you play music, you completely ignore it, do whatever you need to do, let nature take its course, and don’t have any resistance. If you feel unhappy with music, then do more sports and make more friends. Then you let nature take its course. If you do more exercises and make good friends, your mood will become more and more distracting and your music will play in your mind. The feeling of music will be unconsciously reduced, or even nonexistent. I hope you will be happier in the future.