It’s Chinese Valentine’s Day again. At this moment, is your favorite person by your side?
Unfortunately, my him is still not around...
Unfortunately, the person I like is still him, and the person he loves is still me... ....
Yesterday on Chinese Valentine's Day, my boyfriend's mother sent me a message: "Happy Chinese Valentine's Day. He is not with you. I know you are feeling particularly uncomfortable. This is due to work needs. I hope you understand. I hope you will spend this wonderful Chinese Valentine's Day happily..." At that time, I felt aggrieved, but my heart became more determined. Finally, someone could feel my feelings and understand my experience at the same time.
When I have nothing to do, I always habitually open the recommended song list of NetEase Cloud Music. What a coincidence, every song is played, and the lyrics seem to be in my mood. This is with him. It’s our third Chinese Valentine’s Day, and without exception, we are not here every time. We have known each other for almost 6 years, but it seems that we have never spent any festivals together, and we have not even taken a group photo together. But what remains the same is that he has always been there. While you are firmly protecting me, I will also write this long thought every year. It is good to always have someone by my side!
Growing up, we have experienced various "advices" about love and how to find a suitable partner from many "experienced people", but when we grow up, we will find that we need more than just A person of the opposite sex, but a soul that can communicate with each other, with the same likes and dislikes, vision and structure, and a peace of mind that other people cannot give.
I have a boyfriend, but I still go to work, eat alone, move alone, and repair furniture alone every day. When I encounter difficulties at work or in life, I still face and solve them alone. All kinds of trouble. Not because I don’t need it, or because I am too “strong”, but because he is a glorious JUN person, but when I decide to wait, I will not stop based on a few grievances, we must be unswerving Only by being together can we be worthy of these days of less gathering and more separation.
There is a very popular question and answer on Zhihu: What moment made you feel that your boyfriend really loves you?
Don’t think about it, there are really too many...
It’s the late-night call from outside the country after 122 days of missing contact
It’s the phone call sent every weekend The first words after "I'm here"
It's a rare video of each other smiling into squinting smiles
It's "I'm here" to comfort and cheer each other up after feeling depressed < /p>
It is the 520 that I actively ask to save every month
It is the firm "wait for me to come back"
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< p>One day last month, when I saw a comrade in arms receiving a small photo album from his girlfriend, he began to envy me and began to "beg for photos" from me, saying that he must make it look better than his comrades in arms. He said that he would make them all cry with envy when the photo album was received, and said that if they could see me during the break after training, I would be a hundred times more energetic... You see, liking each other is already an extremely rare thing, so Sui Rui I want to tell people who respond, long speeches should be sent to people who deserve it, and small thoughts that come out of the blue are meaningful to people who can understand them.I don’t know when this year started, but he started to talk about the topic of marriage with me intentionally or unintentionally. One day I searched for keywords in the chat history, and it turned out to be five or six pages long. In fact, this was several years earlier than the time we had agreed upon before, and we had not yet begun to truly understand the situation of both parents, let alone what their attitudes were. I was very worried and panicked.
In March, I once mentioned that the training was very tiring, so I comforted him and told him to pay more attention to rest and not to work so hard, but he said, "I want to come to your house with a military medal." I Instant tears.
In the blink of an eye, June came and he really did it. He took a picture of the shiny military medal and asked me excitedly how I would like to propose marriage. I couldn’t see his expression at this time. , but you can guess that his face must be full of excitement and pride.
In July, he prepared everything and made plans to come back soon. He asked my mother to contact me in advance and get to know me a little bit.
"The boy who decides to marry you will definitely bear all the wind and rain, grow up before you, and then pamper you." This sentence should be what he said. Outsiders don't know how much he has worked hard alone, but I know that even I don't know enough about some things, so how can I let him lose?
The repeated epidemic situation has turned all plans into "waiting for the epidemic to end". It is very likely that the days we will not see each other in the future will be calculated in months and years, but at the moment I don't think so. No matter how lost I am, the best person will definitely come back to me. When he is by my side, I will be more at ease. When he is not by my side, I will be braver. The future is long, and all love and affection will come slowly.
Finally, I hope that this turbulent love can survive every season. The message is fast and the journey is long. We are all persevering and our stories will continue.