For the sake of music, he left home before the college entrance examination, followed the band and drifted from Hubei to Henan.

For the sake of music, he gave up the quota of entrance examination-free in military medical university, but retired from the army to form a band, which ended in dissolution only nine months later.

When Wei Xu retired from the army, he was full of great ambitions for his future. He enthusiastically told the leaders:

"I want to be like Cui Jian. I don't know if I can, but I want to try! "

At that time, Xu Wei didn't know what the gap between reality and ideal was, but he was rebellious and unruly. He regarded music as a trace of his obsession and vowed to shout for life like Cui Jian.

That year, the silk thread of fate was closely connected with him.

Cui Jian's "Rock on the New Long March" concert came to Xi 'an on 1990.

That year, Xu Wei chose to retire. With his dream of "Cui Jian", he entered the karaoke room and became a resident singer.

However, the beginning is always difficult. The gap between the fullness of the original ideal and the sense of reality made him unable to lift his head. Until one day, Black Panther band's song "Ashamed" made Xu Wei, who had no direction, wake up again. He retired and wanted to be like Cui Jian.

Not long after that, he formed a band called "Flying Band", which means: if you don't fly, you will have it, and if you fly, you will soar into the sky.

1993, due to lack of funds, the band was forced to rehearse in a shabby house.

At that time, under such difficult conditions, a group of young people had just created three trendy music works: Back to Dream, The Sun is in the West and Kuafu.

That winter, the flying band performed for the first time in a theater that accommodated thousands of people in An International Studies University, and Xu sang five songs. That year, they became the most popular band at that time. Many people came in the rain, and of course they shed tears of excitement.

It was also the success of this tour that made Xu Wei seem to see hope. But who would have thought that life was extremely difficult and the "flying band" would soon face dissolution. It only lasted nine months.

At that moment, Xu Wei's dream was shattered, and he was once again lost in hesitation, confusion and despair. He wrote "Two Days" and gave it to the disbanded trapeze band.

I only have two days, and I'm never sure, one day is birth and the other day is death. ...

1994, with a gunshot, Ke Ben, the soul of nirvana, fell. The moment the bullet entered Ke Ben's body, it not only took his life, but also cut off the inheritance of rock music in Xu Wei's heart.

Xu Wei came to Beijing with broken dreams and empty bags. Signed a contract with Red Star Production Company to release Xu Wei's dream "Two Days and the Jade Bird". Unexpectedly, it caused an unprecedented response.

The cold and gloomy music style surprised everyone, and people said, I didn't expect that there were such awesome buddies.

Write a song for Tian Zhen called Persistence.

I want to go beyond this ordinary life. Now I am doomed to drift, and the future can't stop my inner enthusiasm and persistence. ...

What touching lyrics! Yes, Xu Wei, as written in the lyrics, is obsessed with music.

Soon, Xu Wei recorded his first album "Elsewhere", which was well received. Dou Wei and Gao were full of praise after listening to Xu Wei's singing in the studio.

However, the first album "Not for Sale" didn't make Xu Wei's life much easier. At that time, he was just a drifter in the north, living in the most partial position, often going to a friend's house for dinner, and continuing to live a life without eating the next meal.

After four years in the North, the cruelty of reality made Xu Wei suffer from depression.

1998, a concert in memory of Ke Ben was held in Beijing. Xu Wei chose Crossing the River Forever, and he sang hysterically:

"My life and hope are always the opposite."

Fate always likes to play tricks on people, and it was in that year that Xu Wei was first called "Cui Jian". That year, his Two Days and Cui Jian's Nothing were selected in Selected Contemporary Poems.

Xu Wei is not happy, because it deviates from his expected life track.

Xú Zhēng released his second album "That Year", which was full of metal percussion and became the pinnacle of his rock and roll period. It is also about Xu Wei's agitation when he is depressed, and his expectation of his own nirvana rebirth. However, the sales volume was not ideal, and it ended in a bleak situation.

I have always wanted to fly, but I can't fly anymore. Someone cut his throat when he wanted nirvana, and then Xu Wei fled Beijing like a bird with broken wings.

Thirty years old, thirty years old, what a heavy word. This year, it should have been Xu Wei with a small career and family. Unexpectedly, he was penniless and accomplished nothing, and returned to Xi' an despondently.

When I first returned to Xi 'an, Wei Xu was afraid to touch the guitar again. He sits on the side of the road with a newspaper every day and watches people coming and going. He said that his depression was far beyond his imagination, and there were 10,000 suicidal thoughts every day.

The greatest despair in life is to die of heart, which is tantamount to sinking into darkness and being imprisoned in a cage. At that time, Xu Wei seemed to have seen his own end. What blood, what crying, what anger, has long been consumed in his heart, and he is only an empty shell of life.

Fortunately, if it doesn't break out in silence, it will die out in silence. Just as Xu Wei was about to indulge himself and be swallowed up by life, he found a good medicine for himself: believing in Buddhism.

An accidental trip made Xu Wei and Buddha have an indissoluble bond. Knowing Buddhism, the law of life, insisting on exercise, and taking care of his wife and friends day and night, Xu Wei finally ushered in rebirth.

Time travel, once released, has been praised all over the sky in the market, making the reappeared Xu Wei overwhelmed. In the streets and lanes, there is the same song everywhere, that is, Blue Lotus.

"Nothing can stop my yearning for freedom." Xu Wei did it. In his own way, he let more people know and remember the name Xu Wei. This time, he finally did it.

However, the ups and downs of life and the influence of Buddhist scriptures have made Xu Wei's attention to fame and fortune less important. His heart only wants to pursue fame and fortune. Therefore, Xu Wei, who pays for fame and fortune first, actually doesn't have much inner turmoil. He just felt that he had a musical direction from then on.

Not long ago, Xu Wei's new song "My Love" went online, and "My Love" was as warm and healing as ever. He seems to be warning all of us who are busy with our work that we should say good night to the world.

Xu Wei found his own way, only his own. Copying others is not the way. Perhaps he wanted to be Cui Jian in the first half of his life, but he told us in the second half that he must be himself.

Maybe someone will ask, after all these years, will Xu Wei regret his decision to become Cui Jian?

I think, everyone will have their own journey, whether flat or bumpy. Only by completing that journey can we meet a better self.

What do you say, friends?