I feel so idle~

Haha, I feel a little sorry for a book that has been in my hands for more than half a year, so I wrote a failing, non-primary school student-style review. Record it. (Actually, I haven’t read it all yet)

I watched the beginning of last summer vacation, maybe because it was mid-August, the weather was very hot, the corridors of the dormitory were empty, and I was the only one in the dormitory, so late at night I laid out a sleeping bag on the floor and left the door to the back balcony open all night. Reading this book, I felt it was a bit strange. There were many plots that I couldn’t understand or explain.

I picked it up again in the afternoon. Fortunately, this book by detective novelist Keigo Higashino does not have much reasoning, the text is relatively warm, and the conflicts in the following story are very close to the conflicts that everyone will encounter in life.

1. The origin and transition of lovers and dreams

At first, I just thought that Miss Yuetu’s letter was a choice between love and dreams, but gradually it seemed like the author’s intention Not only the surface, but also the burden of "lover's dreams" and "own desires" that Moon Rabbit carries on himself. These two sublimate the ordinary lovers' friendship, just like Mr. Yang Jiang obsessed with sorting out Mr. Qian Zhongshu's life. The article is the same---that's what he wanted to do during his lifetime. Until the thank-you letter from Ms. Yuetu at the end, it really surprised me. In fact, all the conflicts were originally due to my cowardice and avoidance, or in other words, because of the bottleneck of my own ability and the need to find someone who could escape unscathed while maintaining dignity. and glorious opportunity.

In fact, there are times when I avoid doing things because I am afraid of not being perfect, and even deny that I have the talent and possibility in that area.

But in the end, Ms. Tsukito did not follow the advice of Naniya Grocery Store. Instead, she asked herself about her inner desires and insisted on her boyfriend’s insistence. Although she ultimately failed to participate in the 1980 Olympics, her boyfriend also suffered from illness. Although she passed away, she thought she had gained something more valuable than a gold medal, the courage to not give up her childhood dream, the last words "Thank you for bringing me the dream" and the satisfied expression before her boyfriend passed away. She grabbed what was most important to her and had no regrets.

Inspiration 1

Things in the world are unpredictable, and sometimes even our efforts may be in vain. But when we need to make choices, we cannot weigh everything on the scale. This is too If you are snobbish, you are likely to lose everything. Just like taking care of family members who need to be taken care of and at the critical moment of promotion and development at work, some people may feel that instead of going home and being unable to do anything, it is better to do something of practical significance; like accompanying children and going to the city to work, I think, I may have been the same before. I would support the latter, but after I came back as a support teacher, I no longer thought that way. Because the crazy play and companionship that children lack in childhood will be found in a morbid and crazy way in their later growth. This is an unbearable sadness for parents and society.

On the contrary, when I returned to Guangxi before the Spring Festival, a fifth-grade girl and her two younger sisters told me while walking in the village, "Our family is a poor household, and we are still targeted for targeted poverty alleviation. So my home is relatively simple, sister, please don’t mind later." Looking at her thin clothes and feet that were red from the cold in the rain, I smiled a little sadly, and at the same time I was surprised at her sincerity. When I got to her house, I felt a little relieved. The six members of the family are squeezed into two small flat-roofed rooms. They sleep, cook, play games, do homework, entertain guests, and store things inside. It is dark and humid, but everyone has many stories and daily routines in their hearts. I believe that they are all enthusiastic and kind-hearted children. They may not be able to achieve a small amount of success in the future, but there will definitely be more sunshine.

I heard Song Chao, the founder of Beichen Youth, say in a sharing that before he gave up his stable and well-paying job at a law firm and devoted himself to public welfare undertakings to help young people grow up, he once asked himself , after making enough money in his youth and middle age, what is the next step? When he thought that he wanted to do charity in his later life, he asked himself: Why wait until later to do it? Isn’t it better to do it now? !

Inspiration 2

What is affection and friendship really like. In my humble opinion, maybe in the first story of this book, Moon Rabbit and her boyfriend think about each other, which is affection; and their efforts in behavior are friendship.

It happened that in the afternoon my father bought sugar cane and asked me to eat it when he came home. I happily "gnawed" it, and my father quickly gnawed out the skin of the section of sugar cane in his hand (one section has three sections) , I was still full of doubts. This was not like the way he usually eats sugar cane, which is to eat one section of the skin. When I was still wondering, he turned around and gave a piece of sugar cane that had already been chewed into the skin to my mother. Ha, I immediately wanted to laugh. A bag of dog food caught me off guard. Thinking back to the story of Moon Rabbit and her boyfriend in the book, I kind of recalled a sentence I had read before: Love is not as great as you think, nor is it as ordinary as you think.

When Miss Yuetu really wanted to take care of her lover for his own good, she was still worried about whether he would feel guilty because of this, which hindered her from realizing her dream, and worsened her condition. . Therefore, what is really good for him is whether it is to stay with him forever or to continue to train intensively for the Olympics for each other's dreams and give him spiritual comfort. In addition to love, there is also righteousness.

"To value righteousness more than to cherish life, to conquer the world several times." The cultivation of righteousness requires experiencing many hardships together and understanding each other's worries and concerns. It starts from friendship, but it does not end there, and it must transcend it.

Second, the conflict between family expectations and personal pursuit

Katsuro pursues music but has not met a musician who appreciates him for a long time. He does not know whether he should return home and continue what he has done since his grandfather's generation. After coming down from the fish shop, he continued to hold on to his music dream. Facing his father's deteriorating heart function, his uncle's cynicism, his mother's expectations, etc., he became even more confused.

According to today's perspective, at this time, whether it is for the sake of my aging parents or for the social expectations of myself when I am thirty, it is more sensible to go home and inherit the fish shop.

Impression 3

Oh, it’s a bit ironic to think about it. Growing up, I have always been a sensible child in the eyes of others, so I have always been like the premise assumed in many economic principles: The downside of “assuming everyone is a rational consumer” is that I might regret something now. If I had made a fuss, I would not have been so "sensible" and I would not only be thinking about others, maybe, now I have more possibilities. So now, when my brother says what he wants to do, the first thing I consider is not that this talisman does not conform to rational thinking or that it does not fit the current situation, but more, whether this is an idea he had on a whim that only lasted three minutes. What does this mean for his personal growth, what support does he want from me, what should I downplay and encourage him... Fortunately, I can find out in time and avoid the failed lessons learned from my experiment from happening around me. Important and close people.

Fortunately, Katsuro’s father is a rare good father. He seems to be forcing his children, but he has always supported him to fulfill his music dream. Although from his father’s perspective, it is difficult to understand how to treat music as a career. Make a living and love it at the same time. He made a "promise between men" with his son on the hospital bed. This family and this fish shop don't need his help now, and Katsuro will work hard in music until he achieves success before coming back. Therefore, when Katsuro finally died in the fire while holding Xiaochen in his arms, he thought to himself, "Dad, I have left footprints, right? Even though I lost the battle."

This is not a story with a happy ending like a fairy tale, but it has a unique meaning. Before Katsuro and his father reached a man-to-man agreement to leave the town and go to Tokyo to continue developing music, the last letter from Naniya Grocery Store to Katsuro read:

Thinking about the whole story again, it really makes sense. Will want to cry. Not because of sadness, but because of emotion. Katsuro pursues music, but there is only one classic song in his life, "Rebirth", but it is of great significance. At least to a little girl in the orphanage, it gave her strength and determination. Maybe when everyone is growing up, there will always be someone who gives you the motivation and determination to move forward every time you pursue your dreams. This may be your benefactor, or someone you like.

Impression 4

I was riding in my cousin’s car a few days ago, and the song "Really Love You" by Beyond was playing in the car. My dad said that he still likes it after listening to it for many years. , my cousin said that their generation also grew up listening to Beyond’s songs, and they still like them very much now. At the same time, he also asked me, "Do you listen to these songs?" In fact, not only can I listen to it, but I also like it very much. If I set it to a single loop, I can still hum the melody even if I don’t understand all the Cantonese lyrics. "Broad Sea and Sky", "Glory Years", etc., as well as other singers such as Luo Dayou, Cui Jian, etc. Their songs have accompanied many different characters and people of different ages, and they are still classics.

In fact, this is also normal. In the past, when there were not many singers and songs, everyone would wait for the tape and queue up to buy it as soon as it came out. After listening to a song many times, I could understand the lyrics and hear the power of the song. When I was young, I encouraged myself to move forward and improve. The songs will definitely withstand the precipitation and filtering of time! Now, even though there are many singers, musicians, and songs, everyone still pursues the classics, because at that time, the slightly rock songs, the slightly hoarse throat, the straightforwardly repeated words, the innocent but tearful friendship, etc. made everyone The things that all human beings yearn for are certainly still as elegant and even more attractive today.

Conclusion

I have read about 2/5 of this book, and I roughly guessed that it is about the bonds between people, and these stories are very important to me. The meaning is to help me realize what kind of person I want to be. What has been lost in my past 20 years, and what do I want to grasp in the future? That's probably it.

Letters and diaries are an excellent way to talk to yourself. When you write when you are confused, you will gradually understand what you actually want, and conflicts will naturally fade away.

That may be true.

Many times when we are entangled and confused, we actually already know in our hearts what the answer we want is, but we just lack the courage, perseverance and certain ability to make choices. Everyone has a map in their hand, with the starting point and end point marked (choose which state to die in), but I don’t agree with the book’s statement that “because it is a blank piece of paper, you can draw the map as you like” because it sounds a bit unplanned. .

Wait until next time and read the next 3/5, maybe you will be able to find the answer.