When Qu Feng came to see me, his hair was disheveled and his clothes were sloppy. For a beautiful girl to ruin herself to this extent, it shows that she has encountered serious difficulties, is discouraged, has abandoned self-love, and no longer values ??it.
She sat down, took out something from the depths of her inner pocket, held it in her hand, and said to me, it ruined me!
I thought that It would be a piece of jewelry or a token, or simply a letter of breaking off friendship. Unexpectedly, in the palm of Qu Feng's pale and slowly unfolding palm, there was an ordinary small plastic eye drops bottle. Go to the drugstore on the street and you can buy three of them for one dollar.
I observed the medicine bottle carefully. I wonder what kind of magical power it has that can make a female college student in her youth so haggard and emaciated?
The medicine bottle is basically empty, with some dark red dregs settling at the bottom. Looks like chips of paint. The seal at the neck of the bottle has been cut. The reason why this is mentioned in particular is that the position where it is cut is abnormally downward. Most people are afraid of large amounts of potion dripping out, so the opening at the tip of the bottle is usually very small. But this eye drops bottle was almost disconnected from the shoulder, and the neck of the bottle was shortened, just enough to fit the bottle cap.
I looked at Qu Feng. Qu Feng also looked at me. For a long time, silence was like a black curtain, blocking us. Finally, Qu Feng said, why didn't you ask me?
I said, I'm waiting for you.
Qu Feng said, what are you waiting for me?
I said, you come to me because you trust me. I'm waiting for you to say what you want to say to me.
Qu Feng continued to be silent again. When I had almost given up hope, she suddenly said, okay, I'll tell you everything.
I fell in love with Shen Bai, a boy who is not tall but has great connotation. Some classmates said that depending on your conditions, you can find a boy with a cooler appearance than Shen Bai. Shen Bai is shorter. You know, height is a man's sexiness! I said, what I value is Shen Bai's inner appearance. Paying attention to a man's height is a habit of farming societies and nomadic peoples. When machinery was underdeveloped, a man's strength was his capital, such as carrying sacks and burdens. Of course, big men took advantage. Now in the electronic age, business decisions and typing on the computer have nothing to do with height. Whether a man can give a woman happiness does not depend on his height, but on his inner quality.
My friend’s eyes were like a dead fish because of my refutation, and his mouth was open with nothing to say. Shen Bai understood my point of view and was even more caring and considerate towards me. He said that I was his first girlfriend, and I said that you are mine too... Our relationship quickly developed into an inseparable bond. One day, I invited him to my house to play. My parents happened to be on a business trip out of town. Late at night, he hugged me and said that he couldn't help it anymore and wanted to get me completely and completely. I hurriedly pushed his hand away and said, no...can't...
I saw him retreating, feeling very sad and feeling that I didn't trust him. I quickly comforted him and said, it's not that I don't want to, it's that I'm not ready yet. Let’s do it next time, okay?
He respected me very much and let himself gradually calm down. That day, we broke up easily.
Unexpectedly, the next time he was looking forward to would be so soon, the next day. Maybe I'm afraid that my parents will come back soon and it won't be easy for us to find such a safe and undisturbed place. It was my cabin again, it was midnight again, we were chatting, but we were both a little absent-minded, looking forward to something, fearing something, welcoming it, and wanting to avoid it...
He suddenly hugged me and said , today, are you ready?
I answered tremblingly, "I am ready."
I put out the light. In the dark, we took off all our clothes and restored each other to the way we were in the Garden of Eden. I was lying on my little bed and looking out the window. I felt that my bed was so strange. I was going to become the bride I wanted to worship on this bed. I saw Shenbai's body turned bronze by the moonlight, and knew that a critical moment was coming.
The passion for Shenbai became more and more vigorous, and I waited in a daze.
Just when the arrow was about to leave the string, he suddenly raised his body and said, Qu Feng, you are right, we are not ready yet. Since we are going to love forever, why can't we wait for a few more days and nights? I will preserve and respect your territorial integrity until the wedding night...
I hugged his body desperately and refused to let him go. He left me and shouted at the top of his lungs: No! Shenbai, you can't do this! No! I want you!
But it was useless. Shenbai is a person with very strong self-control. Once he makes a decision, no one can change it. So I watched him get up in despair and turn on the light... Then, under the light as bright as day, he saw - on my snow-white sheets, there was a bright red blood stain...
What is this? He was shocked.
Just now, there was nothing on the sheets... What did I do? I didn't do anything...
Shen Bai beat his chest in shock. Knowing that, inside his chest, a pure heart was shattering.
He grabbed me like crazy and shouted hysterically, you did this, it was you! Really?
I nodded sadly with tears in my eyes. There is no one else in this room. If I didn’t do it, who did it?!
This is what you said to prepare, right? You want to pretend to be a virgin, your tool for committing crimes Where? Where?! Shenbai's eyes were burning with contempt, and his lips were trembling.
I won’t say. I don't say anything. Silently put on my clothes. I looked at Shen Bai like a passerby. Just now, we were still having a skin-to-skin kiss.
Shenbai searched frantically in my house, and soon he found this eyedrop bottle under my bed, with a few drops of remaining blood in it.
Shenbai said, are you a virgin?
I said, I am not a virgin anymore
Shenbai said, who is that person?
I said, I had a boyfriend before. I don't know why men use sex to let women prove their love. When I was little, I didn’t know how to say “NO”. When I found out he couldn't be trusted, I left him.
Shen Bai held the eyedrop bottle and said, is this your blood?
I cried and said, no. There is no way I can put my own blood into this vial. If I can do it, I am willing to use a thousand times of blood to prove my love.
Shen Bai was unmoved and asked coldly, whose blood is this?
I said, it's not who, it's a chicken. I killed that chicken and its body was in the trash can.
Shen Bai said, I can’t believe that you have such a thorough plan!
I cried loudly, I don’t want to lose you! I know you care! I had no choice but to come up with the idea. This idea. I originally wanted to use ready-made pig blood tofu but it was solidified and not runny at all. Later, when I went to the market, I wanted to ask someone for some eel blood, saying it was for medical treatment, but I still couldn't put it into a small bottle. Later, I bought a live chicken. The vegetable seller said, little girl, I will kill it for you, I won’t charge more. I said, no, I will kill it myself!
I have never killed any living creature, including a mantis or a butterfly. However, for my love, as soon as I got home, I chopped off the chicken head with a knife. Chicken blood spurted all over the place, like a murder scene. I poured cold water into a bowl, added some white vinegar, then poured the chicken blood into it and stirred it as hard as I could. I found out from the book that this way the blood will not clot. Then I went to the street and bought some eye drops. First, the opening was cut too small, and the blood was sucked in but couldn't be squeezed out. In short, it was very unsmooth. I figured the time left for me to operate after lights out wouldn't be too long, so I had to make a quick decision. Later, I cut the mouth of the medicine bottle too big and the bottle cap couldn't cover it. It took a long time to get it right, and after the blood was sucked in, not a drop was leaked. When needed, it can quickly gush out. Everything was calculated, but I just didn't expect...
Shen Bai crossed his arms and hugged his shoulders tightly, as if he was in a violent storm.
He sneered and said, what didn't you expect?
I said, I didn't expect you to have such strong perseverance, and I didn't expect you to cherish me so much...
Shenbai said, cherish? Unfortunately, that was in the past. If you hurt me, nothing will exist anymore. Keep your secret weapon!
As he said this, he threw the eyedrop bottle onto my bed and walked away.
From then on, no matter how many times I called him, he never answered. I blocked him, and finally saw him, without even a look... I was in too much pain, and life was worthless... Qu Feng tore his hair desperately, without feeling any pain, as if it was a pile of broken fish nets.
I looked at the gloomy Qu Feng, and then looked at the eye drops bottle. The medicine bottle is like a murderous bullet casing, ugly and filthy.
I said, Qu Feng, you regret it very much. You want to make things right, but you don’t know where to start? Right?
Qu Feng said, yes, yes. Please teach me what to do.
I said, tell me first, what hurts Shen Bai the most?
Qu Feng said, he thinks I am no longer a virgin.
I said, if this is really the reason, the matter is irreversible. Even if you perform repair surgery, unlike this exposure, his heart has become as cold as iron, and you cannot repair his memory.
Qu Feng thought about it and said, he thought I had deceived him.
I say, a dishonest person is indeed feared by everyone. How can you make Shen Bai think that you have changed your past and become sincere?
Qu Feng said, I found him and told him my painstaking efforts and repentance. If he can forgive me, I will start over with him. If he can't forgive me, I have no choice but to accept my fate. However, if I have a boyfriend again in the future, how should I explain that I am not a virgin?
I said that it is understandable that both parties in the friendship can keep their privacy. It's just that you have used all your tricks and directed a farce. You are trying to fabricate a reality. This is deception. Between lovers, lies are destined to destroy happiness. Qu Feng, you have paid a heavy price twice, but you have not yet thought about it after receiving the price. True love must be built on the basis of sincerity.
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