It seems that you should strive to improve yourself and find a suitable circle in the process of improvement. I believe there is always a place where you can exist and where you can play a role. In my opinion, it is the most unwise to squeeze in knowing that you can't squeeze in. Why force yourself? Is it not good to do what you like? There are always like-minded people in this world, and you will form your own social circle. You don't need to force yourself to enter the social circle that you are not suitable for. Don't force yourself to enter other people's social circles, and don't force others to accept you and make friends with you. Understand that different aspirations will eventually lead to different paths. Everyone is an independent individual, others, others don't need to tolerate you, and you don't need to please him in order to integrate into others.
Make a friend for me. Make a friend if you like. If you feel uncomfortable with him, don't like him and don't blend in with his circle. Why insist on it because it is not suitable? Life is so short, you should make friends with the right people, find a circle that suits you and spend a bright future with them.
Life is so short, don't waste it on the wrong person. Every beautiful moment in your life should be shared with people who share your interests, so from now on, find someone who shares your interests.