I have been at the same table with him for half a year. I like him and often fight with him or something. He is also smiling. But the graduation season is coming, and we are all going to separate, so I still don't have the courage to confess.
I watched his deer bump around every day, and then I specially read the related posts. Everyone is saying that if a boy seems to like you, but he doesn't confess to you, he either can't let go of his face or doesn't like you so much. And that's just your wishful thinking. But I still want to confess to him, and I don't want to regret even if I fail.
My best friend and I discussed for a long time how to confess, and decided to say at the graduation ceremony that even if we failed, it would be difficult to see it in the future and it would not be so embarrassing. I have prepared for a long time, and even simulated what I want to say many times.
But the graduation ceremony, probably the last time, I thought about it, and I don't know why, but I swallowed it. I looked at him and still couldn't say it. As usual, so is he.
Maybe I feel inferior, 1.6 meters, nearly 140 pounds. I'm not white and I'm not that beautiful. When I finally rolled out of school on the red carpet, I deliberately walked behind him. I said the last few words to him, but it was all a joke. He looked at me and smiled. He left without looking back.
I ran into him on the bus a few days ago, probably because I haven't seen him for a long time. He didn't recognize me and I didn't say hello to him, so I came back with all kinds of regrets. Because I was not in a city, it might be the last time, but even if I said hello, I might not be able to change it.
I haven't talked about anything except an online dating. Because of my own reasons, I have been afraid to confess. That's why I used to like boys.
Fortunately, my constitution is special, no matter how heartbreaking I liked it at that time. After the baptism of time, I will always bow my head slowly. But I don't want to do this anymore.
I want to find my favorite little brother next time, don't be so timid, and be brave enough to confess. I want to study hard and try to lose weight. So as not to be hated by others.