A holy camellia quietly blooms in the dark corner, and the branches are broken by the ruthless wind, and then it is dim in the wind. ...
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Time goes by. I have read the book La Traviata twice. Perhaps in the near future, I will open this page with a sad love story and re-taste the long-lost touch in my heart. When I suddenly look back and see through my heart, there is always a memory that leaves a deep trace in my life. Oh! -is la Traviata.
A camellia, fragrant, pure white, dazzling red and heavy makeup, can't hide that beautiful body. I don't know why Margaret has a soft spot for camellia. Think back carefully: there are so many different kinds of flowers in the world, and there is a kind of jasmine that "one flower can smoke a room"; There are apricot flowers with "enchanting shadows in spring"; There is a sunflower that "has experienced rain and dew, but never changed its mind to the sun" ... perhaps it is a deep yearning for purity and nobility!
Close the book, suddenly speechless. I never thought that the shock this book brought me was actually a kind of pain, a kind of sadness and an unforgettable silence! One is a prostitute in Yanhua Lane, and the other is a charming gentleman with family education and status. In the materialistic society at that time, Margaret was just a doll used by dudes to show their identity and status. She spends tens of thousands of francs a month, lives in a dark castle, and has money, body and desire. People around her will only buy her short-lived love with money. In people's eyes, she doesn't deserve a complete and sweet love. However, she never imagined it herself.
However, everything is so abrupt. Armand fell in love with her at first sight. After two years of waiting, Margaret was moved by a sincere heart and fell in love with each other deeply. She resolutely decided to abandon all vanity and luxury, sell all her property and pay off her debts. I live a happy country life far from Paris. However, Armand was hypocritical and suspicious. After hearing the news, his selfish father blocked the news, forcing Margaret to sever contact with Armand and shattered her beauty. Armand didn't know the truth, mistaking Margaret for a change of heart and constantly retaliating and humiliating her. But Margaret did not regret her choice. She is convinced that when Armand knows the truth, she will look particularly noble in his eyes. However, all this happened after her death. So Margaret was exhausted and died under the torture of injustice and disease
Maybe she shouldn't open this flower, but once she does, she is doomed to face the wind, frost, rain and snow. Camellia is still fragile after all. Even if she used to be fragrant, she still had a depressed day. This is because she will never get rid of the fate of blooming alone in the dark corner. Perhaps the love between Margaret and Armand is not entirely a tragedy. At least, Margaret got true love and her soul was purified ... At the moment, I don't want to talk about the excessive love between Margaret and Armand, because there are not many words to describe it. In fact, while they are distressed, they are also mixed with envy. After all, they once loved each other. Margaret's fate is tragic, but she is also lucky, because she has Armand's love.
I wonder how armand will go on. Looking out the window, imagining the encounter in the afterlife. In an instant, I stopped thinking, I couldn't and didn't dare, I didn't have the strength … I don't know how many times I wanted to cry, but I didn't shed a tear.
However, I only hope that when the dead flowers are reborn from the soil again, they will stay away from the dark corners and keep company with the sunshine. Even if they are no longer so beautiful and brilliant, they will become strong and will not repeat the tragedies of past lives.
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Looking back suddenly, the scenery remains the same.
-Thoughts on Reading Charlotte's Web
Who can have no friends?
At the beginning of the story, a little pig said this.
So Wilbur said, "Who can play with me?"
So, the warm and dusty Okumo said, "I want to be your friend."
In fact, the story can have another ending-if Charlotte didn't make friends with Wilbur when she was in the barn; If Charlotte didn't say "I save you" so firmly when she learned that Wilbur was about to be killed; If Charlotte doesn't accompany Wilbur to the grand rally, ...
But the ending seems to be an unbreakable fate, which has already been arranged-
Charlotte's departure, Wilbur's pain.
Some people are doomed to be lonely. As an ordinary grey spider, Charlotte's fate seems to be the same: she does the same thing on her own internet every day alone until she can't make a net anymore, and then she dies. Although they are not human, they are more lonely than human.
But Charlotte is not alone. It has broken its own destiny: it is flesh and blood, it has something to do for friends, it has Wilbur's love, and it is "noble, beautiful and loyal to death". Not only Wilbur, sheep, geese and sheep teeth, but also people outside the story are moved by the warmth in the book-this kind of happiness, once tasted, is a lifetime.
Who can believe that ordinary spiders will not hesitate to save a pig's life?
But Charlotte did it. With its love for Wilbur's life, it weaves a web that is regarded as a miracle by human beings.
I have never understood why Charlotte, who brought us countless shocks and feelings in Mr. White's works, disappeared so lonely. It was not until Wilbur returned to the fertilizer pile in the barn that he really understood-perhaps, only in this way can Charlotte stay in everyone's heart forever; Only in this way will Wilbur's memory of Charlotte be more unforgettable.
The beauty of a meteor lies in its early disappearance. Although the happiness it brings is not eternal, it is more cherished and missed. In Wilbur's mind, Charlotte in another world is as beautiful and holy as a meteor. "Charlotte is irreplaceable."
In the ancient warehouse, there will be many happy and uncontested days, and all animals will always miss Charlotte; Outside the old warehouse, Mr Zuckerman, the Arabul family and more people are fighting for power and interests. But they don't understand that they could have been happy, as long as they were more loyal and innocent ... sometimes happiness is really simple.
At the door, Charlotte's net seems to be still shaking gently, with crystal dew on it. We also miss a spider who was so loyal and unique at the door and said with a smile, "I want to be your friend."
Charlotte's net, under everyone's touch, has drawn deep net marks in the past years.
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Thoughts on Reading Oliver Twist
Oliver Twist tells the tragic story and experience of an orphan, with London in the fog as the background. Oliver, the protagonist, grew up in an orphanage. After an apprenticeship, he fled hard, strayed into a thief's den, and was forced to associate with vicious murderers. Finally, with the help of good people, he found out his story and got happiness. The novel describes the struggle between good and evil, beauty and ugliness, justice and evil, praises people's innate integrity and kindness, and at the same time exposes and criticizes the hypocrisy of British charities and the arbitrariness of public security police at that time. At the same time, the works have a strong romantic sentiment and are full of humanitarian feelings.
When Dickens wrote, he always had an "empathetic imagination", even for heinous characters. At the beginning of the book, Fagin, an old Jew, is tried from Fagin's psychological point of view. He looked at the floor from the ceiling and saw his eyes staring at him. He heard an account of his crime. He looked at the lawyer imploringly, hoping to defend him. Dickens carefully chose a series of details, which not only described the objective things, but also cut into the inner world of the characters, showing his extremely rich imagination.
After reading Oliver Twist, I can't help feeling sour. What impressed me deeply was the noble quality of Oliver, the hero, who persisted in life to the end. He spent his childhood in the workhouse, but he refused to accept his fate. He yearns for a better life and strives for himself.
In contrast, what is the current situation of our college students? After 2000, college students have become synonymous with garbage, fallen defenders and targets of public criticism. In today's materialistic world, a considerable number of college students have shifted their focus from study to material competition. Our current college students oppose "three no products", just as they have become "three no products"-mobile phones, computers and girlfriends! Major shopping malls and busy streets are crowded with college students, and the campus is full of lovers' back gardens. I saw such a sentence in Desk Culture: "Childhood friends can't match the prosperity of the city." I think this is a portrayal of the essential changes of college students. There is also a saying that describes modern college students like this: get up without folding quilts and never tire of reading; It doesn't matter if you don't join the student union, it's a group of heroes; I often can't sleep at night, thinking about who is the best match; Appropriate pairing of men and women, youth can not be wasted; Knowing that learning is wrong, I still drink and party, stay up late, and touch my tears in class; If you don't recite the final review, you won't know anything in the exam. If you don't pass the exam, you will drop out. Can this passage make us think a lot? Are there many scenes still vivid? While we are enjoying ourselves, many people can't go to college because of poverty. In CCTV's "Concerned about * * *", the tears carried forward by poor students made the audience heartache. It is understood that Fan Hongyang's father not only has to support him and his sister, but also his elderly grandparents. Last year, Grandma Fan Hongyang was seriously ill and spent more than 30,000 yuan. Father borrowed from the east and the west, but he still couldn't erase the debt, so he had to have the heart to let Fan Hongyang's sister drop out of school. This year, Fan Hongyang was admitted to Northeastern University with a score of 587, but the tuition fee of 10,000 yuan a year made the life of this poor family very difficult. The experience of Wang Ruirui in shilou county also sounds sad. Six years ago, my father was accidentally electrocuted while watering the farmland. Later, my mother and her sister remarried, and Wang Ruirui lived with her elderly grandfather. Her test score was 528. If there is no accident, she will be able to enter the university smoothly, but the tuition fee has also stumped her. Wang Limin of Pingyao was admitted to Jinan University with a high score of 566 points, but his father died for many years and his mother was unable to support him to continue his studies. Chloe Wang of Hequ County got 530 points. Because her father is mentally ill, her mother is going to sell five old houses for him to go to school. Zhu in Pingding County, Cui Baoqin in Yuxian County and Liang Jie in Xiyang County ... Among the more than 200 poor students who passed the college entrance examination, 92 were poor because of disasters and family diseases, and they faced difficulties in going to school.
Are we a little heartbroken to see the above example? For what we have done in ignorance, because we are still playing with things, because we don't know what our blessings are, and for us … all this is enough to make us awake, no longer confused, no longer hesitant, no longer dependent, no longer addicted. We should act at once, from now on, from ourselves. Don't be arrogant, don't waste time, and cherish what you have now.
Many people say that this is an era of lack of faith. College students' lack of faith, moral decline, loss of humanity, and crisis of honesty ... and all these are inseparable from a big environment, that is, society. We are all about to enter the society, so we should exercise our abilities well and lay a good foundation for our future.
College life is real, so we should treat it with care and find our own existence and value. When we get the diploma, when we walk out of the university gate, we want nothing but a clear conscience! The corruption in life, the dwarfing of reason, the apathy and speculation in politics, the loss of academic spirit and the low moral quality are all inconsistent with our college students, so we should feel inferior and guilty about it!
I am proud of pride of chinese today and China will be proud of me tomorrow. I think this is the best ending!
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Thoughts on the gadfly
After reading The Gadfly, I also read some people's comments on this novel. Everyone reads different things from the same novel or story, because everyone's experience is different. But some things are interlinked, for example, some things can't be said to others or can only be said vaguely-if you can only understand them but can't express them in words, what is interlinked with your own heart can be expressed through novels or other people's stories. Whenever I find out, I can't help clapping my hands.
Let me start with some people's comments on this book. He used such a poem to express it, and I also feel very good:
Money is precious,
Love is more expensive.
If it's for freedom,
You can throw them both.
Arthur, the hero of the story, is set as a hero. For the revolutionary cause and freedom, he would rather lose his rich upper-class life, and he would rather lose those who love him and those he loves. This is that money and love can be abandoned in the face of freedom. I wonder how many people will think Arthur is a hero after reading this book. I don't feel this way.
In my mind, heroes often appear at critical moments. Now no one wants to finish this task, but they have to do it, but the hero stands up and doesn't care about the consequences (including sacrificing his life). But Arthur didn't die of it. He was arrested under the condition that he could escape completely, that is to say, he was arrested willingly by the enemy. So I said, Arthur has no hero image in my heart.
As an atheist, or as an atheist of China type, when reading Montelini, some people will think that he is nothing, a person who is wearing a false coat and uses religion to deceive people for politics.
The gadfly I read seems to be completely different from them. Let me talk about my understanding.
This book takes Arthur as the main character and Montelini and Qiongma as two important characters, which are divided into two main lines. They represent affection and love respectively. Montelini and Arthur's mother fell in love when they were young, but Arthur's mother died in name only with another person for some reason, so they had to secretly love and gave birth to Arthur. After the accident, because Arthur's family is upper class, he didn't divorce Arthur's mother to save face, but let Montelini and Arthur's mother never meet again. But Arthur was allowed to study or repent in Montelini. Montpellini was always full of love for Arthur when he was around, but this special love did not make Arthur doubt anything.
Arthur's later great changes always make people feel foggy. For example, what made Arthur suddenly change from a very devout Christian to a person who hated the church? What made Arthur become a famous speaker and satirist from a timid and shy person? Perhaps knowing Arthur's psychological changes will solve these problems.
Arthur, who was educated in Christian thought since childhood, never doubted the existence of God. In his mind, God is inevitable, just as it is natural for him to pray every day and go to the priest to confess regularly. His heart is as pure as water. But when he suddenly found that the whole world had changed, no one around him could be trusted-even his favorite mother and the most trusted priest had been deceiving himself, and he could not accept this reality. If God exists, he can't understand why God does this to him. He has done nothing wrong. So he felt that God was deceiving himself. He broke the cross like crazy and never believed in God again.
When Arthur was deeply in love with Qiongma, Qiongma slapped Arthur for another person he was jealous of. Although Arthur didn't blame Qiongma in his heart, it also made his heart cold to the extreme, which was also a reason why he wanted to end his life. It's true that love can make people dizzy.
When Arthur experienced all kinds of hardships, he saw more and more social ugliness, but the church was committed to maintaining these ugliness, so Arthur became more and more hostile to the Catholic church. Of course, what he hates most is the false and unforgivable father Montelini who cheated him.
If you are hurt by your favorite relatives, how much will it affect you? Perhaps Arthur's abnormal reaction can tell us that this kind of injury is difficult to make up. But think about it, is it really necessary for us to dwell on the mistakes made by our loved ones in the past? Forgiveness is like a hurdle. In fact, this hurdle is easy to cross, but we don't want to cross. Let them repent for their small temper and their mistakes? From Montelini's painful confession, we can feel how sad he is about hurting Arthur. Although he has done nothing wrong, he is willing to bear all Arthur's misunderstandings, attacks, insults and difficulties. I think he can only tell Arthur in tears how much he loves him, how much he wants him to live a happy life, and how much he doesn't want him to be so sad now. Arthur just hasn't learned to forgive. This reminds me of the TV series "Flowers bloom with sound" I watched some time ago. When the single father was about to commit suicide by jumping into the river in despair, he gave his precious biological daughter he didn't remember to an aunt for support. But his suicide failed, and he lived well. Years later, when he saw his daughter again, she couldn't forgive him for abandoning her. Father has to live in Lacrimosa all day. Later, the daughter figured it out and forgave her father. Living with her father made her happier than before. This ending made me see the beauty of jumping over that cut. After watching the conversation between Arthur and his father at last, although Arthur didn't listen to Montpellini and didn't stay with him, we can feel that after so many things, Arthur really found himself deeply in love with Montpellini. He was willing to forgive his father and accept this reality in words, but they didn't "talk it over" because of their faith. Arthur realized that God did not exist, which made Montpellini betray God. I don't think every true Christian would betray his faith like this. So, the result made us feel dissatisfied. But between Arthur's words, it can already be felt that he forgave Montpellini's mistake of hiding from him and accepted the reality that Montpellini was his father.
After reading this book, I always think that this family context is the most important. Montelini could recognize Arthur from his unrecognizable eyes. I don't think this kind of affection can be deceived. Just like another emotion-love, it is sincere from the heart, and there is no way to deceive your feelings.
Love is not much written in this book, but it is also a very important clue. From the time when Arthur was slapped by Joan Ma to the time when Arthur and Joan Ma met again, from the painful memories of Joan Ma to the heartbeat doubt in Arthur's eyes, we can all feel that Joan Ma's love for Arthur is like a flower in bud, but it didn't bloom in the end. But why didn't Arthur tell Joan the truth when we met later? We can see from the description of several fragments that Arthur is very inferior to his present physical appearance and is a little morbidly sensitive to other people's evaluation of his appearance, so it is not difficult for us to understand why Arthur didn't say his passionate love until he confirmed that he was going to die. Is this fair to Joan? I think if Joan knew it was Arthur, she wouldn't care too much about Arthur's appearance, but Arthur's inferiority complex made the story so sad and beautiful.
In the face of love, for that little self-esteem, or because of that little inferiority in my heart, what kind of psychology is it to watch my beloved leave me or never be together? People who want to understand can understand each other. Hehe, people with this personality can't do great things.
Finally, why did Arthur choose this way to die?
I think Arthur chose the way of death rather than the time of death. Because he didn't have any reason to die at that time, because the revolution was not successful, and the organization needed him very much, his death at this time made me feel that it was not the standard of a hero. He can rationally escape for the revolution and strive for greater success next time. He chose this time to die. I think it's mainly because he got what he cares most about in his life-affection and love. Family, he can already be sure that he has it all. Love, he confirmed that Joan's mother loved him, but he felt that this life was no longer worth being with her because of his appearance, which was enough to confirm that Joan's mother loved him. Affection and love can be felt, but we can't get any closer. So there is no need to ask any more questions. And so many years of pain, both physical and mental, made him feel too tired. There are still many people working hard for the revolution, so he wants to have a rest. In this way, Arthur finished his life. It can be said that he finally left this world with a smile.
This book is about religion, affection, love, revolution, hypocrisy and meanness of high society. , reflecting a lot. Maybe we have different emphases and tastes.
The most important thing in life is nothing more than affection and love. No one is imperfect. And career, just enjoy family and love, a little important adjustment after dinner. You can't switch places.
Happiness is not given by others, but earned by yourself. Only by understanding happiness can we get happiness. You got it? Are you pursuing happiness?
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Remarks: The first La Traviata I read was my work, absolutely original, and I extracted everything else. I hope I can give you some inspiration. Come on ~