Every person with a story has an out-of-reach person hidden in his heart.

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Recently, I have received many private messages from readers, and the first sentence is mostly like this, "I really want to find someone to talk to." I know the meaning of it, and it is indeed true. Now It's so hard to find someone to chat with.

Have you ever felt like this, full of grievances and sorrows in your heart and not knowing where to express your feelings?

Have you ever had this kind of dilemma? How many nights have you held your mobile phone and stared at the screen, but you couldn’t find anyone to talk to?

There are many friends in WeChat, maybe even thousands, but there is only one person who can listen to what is on your mind.

There is a bottle of sake on the table, two or three glasses of wine, the moon is dark and the wind is high, and I lament in front of the lonely light: "Why can't I find anyone to talk to?"

I have a jug of wine, do you have a story? But who would have thought that I could only taste wine alone and feel dejected, so why would I have any drinking companions? How many times have I wanted to get drunk? Even if I say random things and pretend to be drunk, it is much better than "wearing a mask" and forcing a smile in the world.

When I was a kid, when I had something on my mind, I always liked to meet up with two or three friends to talk about daily life and laugh out loud. But now, we gradually don’t want to talk about our concerns to the people around us, because we can no longer find anyone who can understand you.

I really want to find someone to talk to, even if I am drunk, laughing or crying, I can still comfort myself. "Who knows, what have I experienced?" After drinking, he fell into a state of madness and muttered to himself for a long time.

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I think: Humans are emotional animals. It is precisely because of feelings that we can feel the warmth and coldness of all things in the world, and we are human beings.

You have a story, he has a story, everyone has a story, but not everyone can have someone who understands him.

"A thousand cups are too little when drinking with a close friend". It is true. If you can find a close friend in the world, talk about everything, see the same things, share the same sorrows and joys, you will laugh your heart out. , no longer isolated from the world, and less lonely.

A lot of things have happened to me in the past two years, and every time I think deeply about them, I feel so painful that I can’t help myself. I can cry unconsciously while listening to music, or I can cry wantonly while writing articles, feeling so deeply that I can't control myself. Unlike many authors, I write with true feelings.

In June this year, I started walking alone for a month and a half. The world is so big, but I am really just a tiny speck of grain. I am wandering around with my bag on my back, not knowing what I am looking for. Many people envy my open-mindedness, but not everyone can match the helplessness I feel deep in my heart.

When your relationship is not going smoothly or your career is not going smoothly, and you wander around and lie about letting yourself go, in fact, you can no longer find a reason to stay. Tossing and turning, the world is full of vicissitudes.

I once met a group of people with stories in Dali, a group of people who longed for poetry and the distance. The guy who stayed in the same inn as me has been coming to Dali to relax for two years. One day, we looked at Cangshan Mountain and drank tea. "Let's talk casually, whatever you want to say." I was very embarrassed. I didn't know where to start. I told about the embarrassment of feelings, the helplessness of letting things go. When the love is deep, I only look up and bite the bullet and don't let go. Tears flowed down.

I love crying, but I don’t want to cry in front of strangers. No matter how much sadness there is, drinking a cup of tea will make you drunk even if it is not wine.

In the decades that you have been in this world, have you ever had someone who listens to your concerns?

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One night in 2014, I was drunk and dizzy after drinking a bottle of red wine. When I'm unhappy, I like to drink. Even if I'm not drunk, I can take advantage of my red face and get drunk unscrupulously. Wine does not intoxicate people, people intoxicate themselves.

That night, I was wandering around the room lightly. How wonderful, I no longer have to pretend to be strong or serious, I can freely speak out about any pain I have.

You are drunk anyway. If people say you are drunk, just admit it.

Actually, my consciousness was very clear and my head was slightly dizzy. Every seemingly absurd action I made was in an extremely sober state. I knew what I was doing, but I just didn’t want to stop.

Dancing absurdly, his whole face was unusually red. After being tired for a long time, I sat on the ground and cried. Suddenly sadness came over me and I couldn't hold it back no matter what. Just let me cry, pretending to be strong is really tiring. My boyfriend was right next to me, listening to my drunken chatter.

"Do you know what I am thinking? I have reached this point all because of gambling." I cried and wiped my tears, and the lights were dim and blurry.

"I understand, but I didn't know you were suffering so hard. I thought I was protecting you, but it turned out that I was wrong." He just squatted down next to me and took out tissues for me.

When there is a misunderstanding between two people, it is easiest to become cold if one ignores and the other does not ask. I hate the cold war and am used to talking about everything on the face of it.

After two hours of gaffes, I told all the bitterness of the journey while crying. "Who knows what I've been through." The pain was so hysterical that I really wanted to scream. However, in the quiet night, I couldn't shout. I could only open my mouth, close my eyes, and let a lot of tears fall down, leaving my mouth salty.

Drunk by alcohol, all the words in my stomach were emptied, and my body felt light and comfortable. A bitter cry freed everything. Even after crying, I still have worries, but now that I have spoken out, I have someone who can relate to me. Even if it hurts, you are no longer alone; if it hurts, you are not alone, there is someone beside you who really loves you.

"Do you know when I fell in love with you? That night, you lost your temper while drunk." A few years later, when I talked about the past with my boyfriend again, he said this, and I knew it was real.

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When you are a child, you talk to your buddies or best friends about your concerns; when you mature, you find that there is no one who can listen to your concerns.

You are afraid that your nagging will become a joke in their eyes. Right or wrong, who can you trust? So what if you tell me, who will understand you? He was about to speak, but the words came to his lips but nothing came out.

When I was in college, I had a best friend who is still a very good friend today. It's easy for girls to make friends. They just talk to each other for comfort, and then they become friends and fate. She and I hit it off very well, and she is the one who understands me best. We would get together occasionally, eat and drink, step on the snow, sleep under the same quilt, and walk on the road at three or four in the morning.

When they first graduated, the two of them had more contact and would talk about things in their lives. Occasionally make phone calls and chat on WeChat. Today, we have become people who pay attention to each other silently. We haven’t seen each other for three years. We are still important people in each other’s lives, but we are no longer the only ones.

We haven’t called each other for a long time. We haven’t made a single phone call for seven months. We haven’t sent WeChat messages for a long time, and even likes are occasionally given in WeChat Moments.

Are you too busy? We have become people who secretly look at each other's friends, and we have reached the state of "talk about something when it's important, but don't push it when it's okay".

I used to tell my best friends or buddies what was on my mind, but now I would rather talk about boring daily life than open my heart easily. Telling people around you what is on your mind may seem like a normal thing, but it can easily push yourself into a dead end. He simply kept his mouth shut and said nothing. Occasionally I can't stand it anymore and get drunk.

Nowadays, I am used to saying everything in words. If I am unhappy, I write it in words, especially if I am happy in daily life. Gradually I became accustomed to recording my daily life in words, even the little things around me. When I write about heartache, I shed tears, I can’t help myself, and hide my face in tears; when I write about happiness, my whole body starts to dance wildly in the room. When it comes to words, I don’t need to pretend and write casually. Don't worry too much about the style of writing, but write what you are thinking at the moment.

Good writing must be filled with the deep affection of the author. Without affection, if the writing is dry, how can it have aura?

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A reader asked me: "With so many people chatting with you and listening to some annoying things every day, will it put you in a bad mood?" I looked at my phone screen, smiling rather helplessly. If this is not channeled out, he will definitely become a somewhat depressed person.

Long-term acceptance of suppressed and complicated thoughts will also be affected subtly. But I just don't know how. The readers told me, and I told them in words. How many thoughts have come to me, and most of them are conveyed through words. Once I got used to chatting with words and writing out what was on my mind, I gradually got used to it in my daily life.

I like to chat with different people, casually and unstructured. People are spontaneous, why should they always restrain themselves? We don't know each other and have no connection in life, so it would be easiest for us to feel empty. Anyway, he is a stranger, and I may be the one who understands you.

"YIBAO, can I talk to you? But I don't know where to start." Many readers will tell me this, but they will also be very reserved and don't know how to say it. There are worries and doubts in their hearts, but they don't know how to speak out. Some people are still entangled in their feelings and just want to find someone to scold them awake.

What I can do is to analyze it for you in the most candid way, listen to you, and say what you want to say. But how to solve the essence of the problem is ultimately up to you. Everything is always like this. The road is made by people, not by others.

Many times, when I think back to the ridiculous things I did before, I laugh as I talk and cry as I talk. These things flash through our minds like a movie. In fact, many things we want to forget cannot be forgotten. Then why do you have to say it, pain and happiness, only by saying it, you will feel better.

"I really want to find someone to talk to, but I can't find anyone who can listen to your concerns." I don't know who I can contact, I don't know if it will bother others, I don't know if I will be Jokes, I gradually learned to tolerate them and simply stopped saying anything.

"I have a story, do you have a drink?" I have heard many jokes like this. Instead of wine, I had patient listening and candid words.

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