I turned over a dozen times in bed and forced myself to close my eyes and sleep, but all this didn't help. I just sat up, put on my coat, turned on the desk lamp, opened my diary and began to write. Suddenly I found that this person had appeared in my diary enough times. Why should I write about her? Why am I so reluctant to leave at dawn? When did I become so melodramatic, I hesitated for a long time and simply buckled my notebook, turned off the desk lamp, and pulled the quilt away to prepare for the second sleep. At night, it's quiet. I can hear my roommate's breathing and the dripping sound of the broken faucet, but I am silently torturing myself here.
This person is Sister Fei. She will leave at dawn, unlike last year, when she leaves, she will come back. Today, when she left, she really left. Maybe from today, Wuhan will be a memory in her life. I hope there will be laughter, emotion and me in her memory.
"Dude, you poisoning is too deep, loathe to give up her. Look at the way you didn't wake up, I know you lost sleep last night. " My deskmate patted me on the shoulder and said to me earnestly.
"Fortunately, my sister's love is not fun. Otherwise, I will say it later, and Tian will be hurt by love, which is enough! "
"Tian, don't tell me you have homosexual tendencies." In the canteen, my friend stirred the porridge in the bowl with chopsticks and looked at me with worried eyes.
"Fuck you! You are gay! " I gave her a hard look, just put the bowl in my hand directly upside down on her forehead.
Who is Sister Fei? It's a friend of mine. Others don't understand why I am so reluctant to part with a friend. Want to hear a story? Please boil a pot of wine for me and listen to me in detail.
one
That year, I just finished the senior high school entrance examination, and when I fantasized about where to travel and who to visit, my mother gave me an order and broke all my fantasies. "You're not going anywhere this summer vacation. I'll find a tutor to help you with your math and physics. I will be promoted soon. If you want to travel, wait until the college entrance examination is over. Also, you have to run in the morning from tomorrow, and I will run with you. "
Mother's life is inviolable. I always said yes, but I don't want to. Don't ask me to travel, even if I have to make up lessons, even if I have to make up lessons, even if I have to run in the morning! Even if you run, you should sleep at night. Do not lock the door!
I forgot to mention, my mother asked me not to lock the door, so that I could go straight back to my room and wake me up from bed every morning!
Every morning run starts like this. I ran lazily in front, followed by my mother. I thought it was just me and my mother who got up so early to run every day. Later, it was found that there were more than two people running in the morning, as well as Fei Jie and several other brothers and sisters. We meet halfway every day, but everyone runs back, and I have just started.
"Mom, what's the name of the new sister? She went to our house a few months ago. I have seen her. "
"Her name is Luffy. She has just come to Wuhan and doesn't know many people. Go and make friends with her. "
"Don't don't, don't know, how to make friends." At that time, I was still an introverted person, and generally did not take the initiative to make new friends.
Oh, this pot of wine seems a little cold. Please help me heat it up and we will continue our story.
My mother ran with me for two weeks and then stopped running.
"Girl, your mother and I got up early with you recently, and I have no spirit at work. Go by yourself. Have you ever run seriously? I can tell when you will come back by your clothes. "
This mother is really smart. She knows that the only criterion to judge whether I run seriously every day is whether my hair is soaked with sweat or not, and whether the clothes I take off can pull out water, which makes it difficult for you to be lazy.
"Sister paper, where is your mother?" My brother asked me.
"My mother stopped running, let me run by myself."
After hearing what I said, several brothers and sisters were anxious to run with me. The last few people discussed it and decided to run with me for a day. After the others ran, they had to go back to work quickly.
It's sister Fei's turn to run with me today. The first time I had such close contact with her, I was particularly frank. I changed the performance of playing tricks in front of my mother a few days ago and rushed to the finish line.
"Well, I ran well today and didn't stop to have a rest."
"Hey, I'm used to running this time, and I feel less laborious." I smiled shyly.
"What's your name?"
"My name is tian. They all call me Tianan. "
"Oh, do you know my name?"
"Yes, I heard my mother say that I will call you Sister Luffy in the future."
"Ha ha, good!" Fei elder sister answered with a smile. The girl's smile, like dew on the lotus leaf in the morning, reflects the warm light in the morning, bright but not dazzling.
Later, I don't know why. Running with Fei Jie every day has become a habit. My brother and sister who run with me no longer switch left and right. Every morning when I go downstairs, I can see Fei Jie waiting for me on the roadside not far away. The two of them ran to the finish line with high concentration, and then came back for a leisurely walk. On the way back, I told her all kinds of interesting things about myself, and she would laugh in interesting places. Sister Fei and I are eight years apart. She has her own.
They say lovers believe in love at first sight. I don't think there is love at first sight between friends, but once you have a good impression, you want to be friends with each other. If you ask me when I began to have a good impression on Fei Jie, I think it started when I was running.
two
Others quit smoking and drinking, greed and alcoholism, and I quit dependence.
It's time to run every morning, in exchange for carrying a bag and dragging your luggage to start your high school career.
The night before school started, Fei Jie was on duty in the office. I sat silently at another table and hung my head on it. I don't know what I feel in my heart.
"Ann, school will start tomorrow, and I can't bear to part with your sister Luffy!" An uncle came in from the outside and smiled at me while talking. I don't know why my face turned red at once. It feels like someone has revealed something hard to say.
"I will accompany you to school tomorrow, ok?" I don't know when, Fei elder sister came up to me and smiled with malicious intent.
I gave her a white look and ignored her. I thought to myself, this is impossible. I haven't known you long. Less than two months. I can't rely on you so soon. Even if I miss you for a few days after school starts, I will come back to see you after a half-day holiday on Sunday. I'm sure I won't come back for you again after a while. I've already played with my classmates!
However, my idea was naive and I lost myself to myself.
"Tian, come on, let's go out to play this afternoon." My classmates warmly invited me.
"No, no, I have to go home."
"Annie, it's raining today. Why don't you go back?"
"Nothing, even if it snows, I will go back."
I agreed to stay at school honestly next week after I went back this Sunday, but every Saturday night, my heart that I had made up my mind not to go home began to waver. Forget it, I'd better go back and meet her, or I won't see her for another week.
Therefore, from the first year of high school to the third year of high school, the idea of going home every Sunday has basically never broken.
"Sister Fei, please be kind and take me out to rest for a month." At that time, my relationship with sister Fei was already very good. If I were someone else, I wouldn't make such a brazen request.
"Ok, ok, I'll take you out to play after I finish my work, ok?"
Fei Jie is really busy. As an accountant, I have to calculate the bill of the whole factory, and I have to pay the wages of hundreds of workers. The brothers and sisters who ran with me last year jumped ship and resigned. Only Fei Jie didn't leave, although I knew she would leave sooner or later, although I knew I shouldn't rely too much on her. However, every time I want to go out to play, I will be the first to rely on her to charge my phone bill at school.
Fei Jie is very busy, but every time she promises to take me out to play, she never breaks her word. So Wuda, Moshan, East Lake, Jianghan Street ... these places saw me and her stop. In thousands of worlds, there is a girl who is leading the little girl around to play around. She doesn't know how grateful the little girl next to her is, because few outsiders can take herself out to play like this except her. Oh, it should be said that in the little girl's heart, she is not an outsider, but her sister.
three
That pot of wine should be running out. A sip reminds me of one thing, which is also about wine.
Once, I went to the company for dinner with my father. Yi Lan is sitting next to me. She patted me and motioned for me that there was wine on the table with her eyes. I gave her a bad smile and understood what she meant.
Yi Lan is an old friend of mine. After 78 years of friendship, our feelings for each other are still very deep. Among so many old friends, they can treat me wholeheartedly for so many years, help me when I am desperate, drag me on the highway regardless of the image, and sometimes ignore you after I make new friends, but she kills you thousands of times with sharp eyes. As always, she is good to you and can be in front of others.
"Do you want to do it?"
"dry! Bring the cup! "
In fact, neither she nor I are alcoholics, just having fun.
The first cup is dry.
The second cup is dry.
The third cup, not dry, I was kicked.
"What are you doing? Drink so much! " Fei Jie is looking at me with murderous eyes.
"I, I, I play. . "I was so scared by her eyes that I couldn't speak for a long time.
"Stop drinking, do you hear me?"
"Oh, I see."
Fei Jie looked at the wine in my glass, and there was more than half left. She immediately picked up my cup and put the wine in hers. She also took two cans of beer that had been opened in front of me. She took all the wine and drank it to toast her colleagues.
In fact, she is not very good at drinking. After one or two drinks, her face will be redder than that red Fuji apple. After a few more drinks, she should go to the bathroom to throw up, but Sister Fei is so generous. She never refused to be invited to drink, and finally she felt sorry for herself. This time, after she finished my little wine, she was also very uncomfortable.
"Elder sister, are you better?" Dinner was over, so I went to see her in her room with apologies.
"I don't want to talk to you!" She turned away and didn't even bother to look at me.
"Fei elder sister, I was wrong. I will not mess around in the future. "
"You must know that no matter what you do in the future, you must think well and be responsible for what you have done."
I will never forget that night, when a drunk girl was telling a little girl what responsibility was.
four
Well, stories between friends are always endless. I'm going to be excused. I send you a bottle of Tettinger Brut Reserve, which means "love is fruity from the beginning". I heard that you can taste love.
Yes, Fei Jie met the other half of her life. They fell in love and got married. Whenever I see her again, her face is always filled with a happy smile belonging to a little woman. She has changed. At the beginning, the straight hair perpendicular to the waist was permed into curly hair, and more and more high heels belonged to her. A ring named "Eternity" is also worn on the ring finger of her right hand. Then I heard the news that Sister Fei was leaving, leaving Wuhan to go where she and he belong.
"You are so dependent on me, I have to go, and I am worried that you have a small mood."
"No, it's almost over. I was cheated four times just because you were leaving. I believe it every time, and I have emotions every time. You really want to go this time, I have a bottom in my heart, and I won't be emotional again. "
"Well, you can come to me later anyway."
The Sunday before Fei Jie left Wuhan, I went back to say goodbye to her, but finally I couldn't hold back and my tears ran wild.
On 2016 65438+1October 3 1 noon 12, Fei Jie left Wuhan, and the time I spent with her in Wuhan officially ended.
five
Sister Fei, I promised you that I would write a diary for you seriously after you left. You said you were looking forward to reading it. This diary really took me several nights. I wrote it, revised it and recalled it. Halfway through the writing, I was wondering whether I would be embarrassed to show it to you at the end, or whether the more I wrote, the more I loathed you. But to my surprise, the more I wrote, the calmer I became. Without you, I just left. You and I met by chance for three years, but friends can't stay with us forever like relatives. After all, we all have different lives and pursuits, and one day we will go our separate ways.
I once joked with you that I would drink with you like a man on the day you left, but now, there is no wine and no manhood. Then here, I can only use literature instead of wine, for you, for myself and for our memories.
I have been with you for thousands of days, so say goodbye now. If it is fate, we will meet again one day.