Being relatively introverted, I actually have 8 girlfriends at the same time, which I would never have imagined 3 years ago.

But now I feel that this is not something to be happy about. Don’t doubt it, this is a true story.

Looking back, it was already 6 years ago when I first came to Shanghai to do business. I often get dumped by my girlfriends in Bay, and falling in love is like a nightmare to me. I worry every day that my girlfriend will change her heart, that she will be taken away from me, that I am not good enough, and that I am not attractive enough.

I came to Shanghai to do business. My career is fairly stable and I have a lot of free time. However, I am not like other Taiwan compatriots who like to go to hotels (nightclubs). Later, a friend who came to the local area said that I could make a girlfriend online, so I tried it too.

There are really many dating websites in China, and I have spent a lot of time on them. I've seen countless girls. Most of them are worse than the photos, and some are from salon photos from 10 years ago, photos before gaining weight, or other people's photos. Everything is there. Later, I also interacted with two or three girls at the same time. In fact, this was normal. I spent a lot of time comparing each other, just like shopping.

Maybe like many young people who make friends on the Internet, even if they have already found a partner, they still want to take another look and compare. Anyway, look more and compare. This may also be due to your own personality. I don’t want to get rid of others. It’s best if others get rid of me. It will be less burdensome and magnanimous mentally. Maybe it's because I got used to it when I was young, and I'm afraid that my girlfriend will dump me.

So I just make friends but don’t dump them. Counting on my fingers so far, I really have 8 girlfriends, and each of them has a close relationship. Fortunately, at the beginning of the year, one of them wrote a letter saying that he couldn't stand my busyness and broke up with me. Another one was very short of money, and her life was very strange. I didn't want to continue with her, so I took the initiative to break up with her. Otherwise, I would really have enough to have 10 girlfriends.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t feel proud of this kind of thing. It’s just that when I think back on that period, it was really a time of dire straits.

From Monday to Sunday, I am busy eating, meeting, dating and trying to figure myself out. I have no time for myself at all, I am running around for my life, and it is even more difficult when we are in a close relationship. If it happens to be Valentine's Day or a birthday, it will be even worse.

In the end, I couldn’t stand living like this anymore, so I gave up. I picked someone I really liked, and she really liked me. The others slowly got lost, and this ended. A kind of life that I don’t know what to call. These were all over a year ago, and I also got married. But I don’t dare to tell my wife these trivial things about me. I can only hide them in my heart, or write them out and let everyone scold me. The psychology will be better.