She said that youth is a huge unrequited love.

When did youth begin? As I remember, it started in high school. It may be a little late, but I think it's just right.

I am a person from a small place. I have just arrived in this bustling city. For me, everything is new and attractive. Sometimes it is a twisted skateboard played by street children, and sometimes it is a plush toy that can make a sound. Sometimes the chicken legs automatically rotate for barbecue. Even the clown's red nose.

I completely forgot the purpose of studying hard here. Play all day and all night, sleep in the classroom during the day, and play online games quietly over the wall at night. Fighting, smoking, drinking, skipping classes. In the teacher's words, it is evil.

The first exam is the mid-term exam of senior one, ranking seventh from the bottom in the class. Ranked in the bottom of the school 100. I felt a sense of crisis for the first time. People are so cute. Only when a crisis comes to you will you regret it. Trying to make amends, but only temporarily. Then continue to eat and continue to die.

After two days of hard work and strength, I changed back to my original appearance. Skip class, fight.

One night in the second semester of Senior Two, I climbed over the wall and went out to surf the Internet alone. In order to avoid the off-duty teachers, I chose an alley. The lights are dim and many people have gone to bed. The driveway looks a little sad and scary. Light a cigarette to be brave and walk carefully, still a little scared.

Not out of the alley, at a corner. I really haven't encountered such a scene in reality. Four boys are bullying a female classmate. Okay, it was bloody, but I met it. What should I do? We pretended not to see it go.

However, the girl obviously cried and heard clearly. None of my business, none of my business. Mom told me not to fight. It doesn't matter.

I told you to study hard. Why don't you study hard? In the mind angry let out a cry. Summon up the courage to find them.

The light was too dim, so I stood behind them and said, "Brothers, this is not good!" " "

They just found me and turned to look at me. But ... careless friends.

"elder brother! How are you? " It's a social gangster I met when I was fighting outside. I didn't go to high school, and my age is the same as ours. I carried him to the hospital when he was injured.

"How is your boy?" Brother Sheng looked at me and said.

I took out my cigarette and handed it to them. He said, "Brother Sheng, when did you leave the hospital? Don't leave a message, I'll buy you a drink. " I gave him a lamp and lit a cigarette.

"Have a plenty of time. Why are you here? " Brother Sheng asked smoking a cigarette.

"I'm not about my little girlfriend waiting here. It is dark and windy this month. " I pretended to be a little shy.

"What about the younger siblings?" Brother Sheng asked. I pointed to the girl curled up in the corner.

"Sorry, brother. We don't know. I am really sorry. " Brother Sheng said awkwardly.

"This is not all right. Brother Sheng, can I buy you a drink another day? " I motioned. Put your cigarette in your pocket. Obviously, Brother Sheng still knows what I mean. Make fun of me and take it away.

I was relieved to see that they had gone away. Fortunately, I know them, otherwise I would probably go to the hospital tonight. But I'm still a little happy. It's good to skip class and fight. It's much easier to do good deeds.

I looked at the girl curled up in the corner and said, "Are you okay? They are all gone, you can go home. " Pass her a pack of toilet paper.

The girl took the paper and said, "Thank you." After a while, I was in tears and caught off guard.

What kind of person didn't cry just now, but began to cry when the danger was gone. That's what I think in my heart. People like me are most afraid of people crying. Forget it if the voice is bad. The appearance is not good. Besides, in this environment, if someone passes by here, they will think that I have done something to her. Maybe even beat me up.

"Why are you crying? If you cry like this, I may not stay any longer. " I said.

"Why?" The girl looked up and asked tearfully.

If you cry again, people will think that I have done something to you. I can't wash this environment even if I jump into the Yellow River. "I said some jokingly.

She looked at me and wiped her tears. Smiled and said, "well, I won't cry." Thank you. "

"No, besides, you just said. Leave first. " I said.

"ok." She stood up trembling, and I quickly helped her up.

"Why are you here alone? Is your home near here? Let me take you home. " The scene was awkward and a little quiet. I asked.

"I escaped from school quietly." She said, expressionless.

I don't know why a person came out of school, almost had an accident, and was so careless. What's wrong with girls nowadays?

"What are you doing out?" I asked.

She didn't speak. Get out of the alley and sit in a chair by the river. I went to buy her a cup of milk tea. It's a little cold at night, but it's even colder just sitting and doing nothing.

Come out to play games. Today's copy seems useless. Looking at this girl beside me, I don't panic at all. I asked tentatively, "classmate, are you going to sit here all night?"

"Otherwise? Do you want me to be a girl and play games with you? " She said with some coquetry.

I am completely speechless. "How did you know I was going to play games?"

"I ... I ..." She stammered for a long time without saying anything.

"Why don't we get a room!" I lit a cigarette and said.

When she heard my words, she quickly tightened her clothes and looked at me with strange eyes and said, "So you are one of them. This plan is really bad. "

"I ... I ..." It's my turn to say nothing this time.

"I what I, now think of you and their performances, is really rubbish. Why didn't I see it then? Beast! " Her clip suddenly opened and she couldn't stop. Why was it so quiet just now? What's wrong with girls nowadays? I have nothing to say and I don't want to say anything.

I didn't leave out of humanity. Just sit there, smoke your own cigarette and ignore her. She looked at me a little angrily. I don't know if it was a conscience or something. I smiled and said, "You look so cute when you are angry. Don't be angry. I'm just teasing you. "

Wocao, what is the word "cute"? You can also use it on me. But I'm not as angry as she said. Pretend to be angry and say, "aren't you afraid that I will have sex now?"

"I'm joking with you, don't be angry." She said coquetry. I'm really not used to girls coquetry.

I still didn't speak, just smoking a cigarette and pretending to be deep. This time, she didn't speak, with milk tea in her hand.

The night is getting deeper and deeper, and the moonlight shines on the river. There are fewer and fewer cars on the street, and the city is getting sleepy. Shops have turned off the lights and hid behind heavy shutter doors. The breeze blew slowly, and the willows touched the river. Unfortunately, there are no stars in the sky, only a full moon.

"Chen Chen. Tomorrow I will leave the city where I have lived for seven years. " She suddenly said. I don't know why she knows my name.

"You must be thinking, how do I know your name. I also know that you are 17 years old, Capricorn, Grade 1 19. Now Class 28, Grade Two, sit in the last row, by the window. I only like to drink good coke, but I don't like drinking, but I always look like a heavy drinker. Senior one began to smoke, and often smoked hibiscus king. I like to eat scrambled eggs with tomatoes. Tianya Island, go to the Internet cafe every three days. Avoid smoking in the pavilion every break. Love reading novels, regardless of category. Now I wonder why I know you so well. "

I looked at her strangely, maybe I don't even know myself very well. But I still don't know her. I'm sure this is the first time we met today.

Without looking at me, she stirred the remaining milk tea with a straw.

"I know you don't know me. Although I am in the class next door to you. Maybe you don't remember, when I was a freshman. Once you were fighting on the bridge, my mother was looking for my brother, and I happened to pass by. You stood there and dared not move. You take my hand and get me out of there. I know you're just afraid of hurting innocent people. But I remember you from then on. I didn't go away that time. I watched you finish playing, and then you were taken to the hospital. I followed you quietly, and then I often went to the hospital to see you. But you don't know. I began to quietly inquire about all your news and pay close attention to you every day. But you never care. "

"On one occasion, I plucked up my courage and wanted to tell you that I like you. But I dare not, because I am the best in my family. But I'm leaving tomorrow. My account is not here. I have to go back to my hometown to prepare for the college entrance examination. But if I don't say it, I will regret it for the rest of my life. I'll tell my brother that I have plans for tonight. Your brother Sheng, this is my brother. Brother said, you don't care what to do? I said, you will. Finally, you did it. I am very happy. Later, I cried, because I believed that what I insisted was right. At that time, you told my brother that I was your girlfriend. I was really happy, very happy. Although it is a lie. "

"In fact, I dare not say at first, just want you to play with me. Spend the last night with me. Just sit quietly, sit until the sun rises from the river. Just fine. "

Her eyes were dim, so she moved to my side and leaned on my shoulder.

I don't know what to do. I try to keep fit and make her feel more stable. I didn't know there was such a girl who once cared so much about me.

No more talking. Quiet night, Bai Yueguang, weeping willows, stubborn river. Two people snuggled up to each other.

I put on her coat and she said thank you.

Unconsciously, it was already dawn. But she's gone. Her coat is on me. There was only a piece of wicker left, and a piece of toilet paper said, "Good morning, I'm sorry. This is my youth, this is my huge secret love, it has nothing to do with you, you don't have to mind. Live well, take good care of yourself and study hard. I'll be fine. I will remember meeting a teenager like you. Thank you, goodbye. "

Brother Sheng seems to have left, but there is really no news at all. I didn't even add a WeChat. Going to the next class, she said, take her phone and dial it, but it has been turned off. No one knows her micro-signal, as if she really left, taking everything about here, including memories.

I don't know why I asked her. I never knew. But I remember her name-Guan.