That's because you live in a fantasy world, you read too many novels, and you pursue perfection too much. You should get back to reality. Communicate more with people at ordinary times. More interaction. You can't stay at home all the time, or immerse yourself in the game world, let alone blindly pursue perfection. Make some plans according to your own situation. As for the disintegration of the mind, you should do more things that need to be focused. You can't be distracted. And in the process of communicating with others. You wouldn't be so unreasonable. Everything has a process.