? My personality, due to my past growth experience, has always been a bit withdrawn. I am always cautious when getting along with others. I am afraid of getting too close to others. Being too close will mean friction and trouble.

I have no friends, and I don’t want to make friends. A casual acquaintance of nods is enough.

When I was a teenager, I was taciturn. I once made very good friends, but there were very few people who were so easy to talk to and had the same temperament. Time passed by, and later, such a good relationship was diluted by time and distance, and they became epitaphs in each other's address books.

? I hate people who are too thoughtful and care about everything. After all these years, I finally understand that some people always like to use the word friend to restrain their friends. It’s not too much, but it’s enough to understand the complexity of human nature. I think I am only suitable to live alone. The world is so rich and I will not die without friends.

I think back to the reason why I was disappointed in making friends. When I was still relatively ignorant about the concept of friends in junior high school, I became good friends with A and B. The reason is very simple. The three of us are in a class and a community. We go to school together and finish school together. It won’t take long before we become inseparable and inseparable. Later, conflicts arose in our small group, and B and I had an quarrel. The reason was that A told me that B said bad things about me in front of her. I felt uncomfortable with B, so I deliberately distanced myself. At the same time, I also felt that B He looked at me weirdly. At this point, B and I drifted apart. But A still gets along well with us, and I can even feel that she and B are getting closer. A few years later, when we were about to graduate from high school, we met B by chance and we started chatting calmly. When we talked about the alienation back then, I realized that it turned out that A also said the same thing to B as I did. At that time, there was no anger or anger, only calmness and understanding, telling myself that I should be more cautious in the future.

When I was in college, I may not have grown up yet, but I made another friend that I can’t even express my feelings for, the one I had the best relationship with at the time. I have to admit that I later became cheerful and had a great relationship with her. I was always cautious and timid, but she gave me great encouragement in many things. Later, a girl in the same dormitory chatted with me until I was in a good mood. She tentatively said to me, "I don't understand why you do those things for C (for the sake of distinction, let's leave it that way)." What did I say? thing, she said, don’t you feel that C is bullying you? She always says that you are good friends and asks you to pick up and pour the water for her feet every night. Isn’t this okay? She never takes a dime with her when she goes out. She always borrows money from you, but almost never pays it back. Every time you remind her carefully, she will accuse you angrily, "I only borrow money from you when I treat you as a friend." , you actually want me to pay back the money, or are you not a friend?" You are always too stupid to respond. We are all just poor students spending our parents’ hard-earned money. I was enlightened at the time, but it wasn’t that I didn’t feel anything. It was just that sometimes I got used to it and found it hard to wake up. Our real breakup was when a boy chased me, her boyfriend's hometown. From the beginning, I didn't like it and had been avoiding it, but C always tried his best to bring us together. One day, C and I He said, "Just try to get along. It doesn't matter if you don't like him. You can let him take you out to play, buy delicious food, and buy things you like. When you get tired of it, just say that you think we are not suitable." I suddenly felt sick. Different ways don't work together.

Finally, let’s talk about the newest friend. She said we are friends, let’s call her D here. We have only known each other for more than half a year, and we don’t get along much with each other. I just work in the same building, occasionally take the same bus home, and talk about children and family because of the same role as a mother. As of today, we were getting along pretty well. Yesterday, the two families just made an appointment to go to the zoo together. Our relationship broke up less than five hours ago, and it was because of this break that I wrote this article.

? This time there is only two words for "profit" in this disintegration. I think it is ridiculous, really ridiculous. About two or three months ago, I recommended a good children's clothing micro-business to her. It was really good. I recommended it to at least ten people around me. Then, about last month, she became an agent and started making hair circles.

However, in the past two or three weeks, she has stopped doing hair ties. I think she may have stopped doing it because she found it difficult, and I haven't heard any news that she is still doing it. I took a break before lunch today. I found a children’s clothing micro-business that had a really good pair of leggings. They were of high quality and low price, so I sent the link to my circle of friends to see who might need it. This is a very occasional behavior for me. . Then, D sent me a WeChat message, and she talked a lot. The main idea was that I stole her business so that others would not buy from her. I almost vomited out a mouthful of blood, and I said, I really didn’t know you were still doing this, and besides, we don’t know more than five people in our circle of friends (I sent her a screenshot to prove my innocence), and I Their popularity is not as good as your business. They have a good relationship with you, so they will naturally buy from you. I really don’t understand how I affect your business... There was a loud noise, and I felt like I was going to have a cerebral hemorrhage. It took me a long time to calm down.

I think that after you are thirty years old and have a family and a life of your own, just live a good life. Friends or not are just a cloud. Don’t make trouble for nothing. Why spend that time? Don’t make friends with people who don’t agree with your own thoughts and worldview.

I yearn for the kind of friendship that is as light as water. Where there is something, there is nothing. It is enough to keep the inner peace and beauty.