Let me answer this question.

first of all, your question is very bad, which will do great harm to your body and mind. I think you should solve it as soon as possible.

In fact, I think it's hard for you to have no friends in society, but to form a family.

I want to tell you that it's okay, relax. If you feel really depressed, then go out for a walk and go to a place where no one knows you.

Do you know the pilgrims in Lhasa? They are very religious. They have faith, and they are not tired of living. I think you should also have a belief and a goal. Life can't be without hope. If you have a goal of faith, you must fight for it. So your life won't collapse.

Do you have your own dreams? If you have time, try to achieve it. If not, find one. Dreams are good hopes for future life.

and you should make some friends, because it's lonely without friends.

May your life be better. Don't break down, people always have to move on. There's nothing I can't pass, just I can't go back.