I feel the same way as you. When I was a child, I was forced to read many inexplicable books, but I didn't know what it meant at that time. When I grow up, I use less space and forget it. Didn't Bacon say that all knowledge is just memory? So it's natural to forget, but I also think, for example, I will read those chapters I like repeatedly, to remember, to feel and to understand. I think reading should be extensive reading, but I can read a lot for intensive reading, but I should also be willing to read deeply if I like it, and I won't feel that I haven't remembered anything. In my opinion, everything exists for a reason. Opera and pop music are very good. Just looking at different people. As people say, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so there is no need to be so exclusive. It is not an ancient society now. Of course, you can't ask yourself by ancient standards. The ancients studied the four books and five classics, while the modern people studied the method of studying the world. If you studied like the ancients when you were young, you can study with them now. You don't have to have no confidence in yourself at this point. For today's society, if you study ancient things, it is estimated that you will become a scholar in this society, but you will be a useless scholar. Therefore, these dreamy things should be in your dreams, and the real things should be in reality. You can like them, but you can't sink. Mentoring is very good. If not, there is the Internet. There are people like you in the loneliness of the world, so you can find people who are as troubled as you, and there are also many people who love classical literature. If you don't have a job, you can walk around these communities, and you will definitely find someone to sing with. Oh, the construction of life depends not on how many books you read and how much knowledge you have, but on whether you feel that you have a good life and have no regrets.