After listening to your description, I think you think too much. They say I was born useful and everyone is unique. I can only say that some aspects of a person are good, but some aspects are not so good. That's all, there is no failure.

You haven't worked for a long time and haven't integrated into the working atmosphere yet. I suggest that you concentrate on completing your work first, whether it is your own duties or the tasks assigned by the leaders. You should think and summarize on the basis of quality and quantity, compare with the old employees, and see what advantages you have and what aspects you obviously lack, and strive for perfection in your future work. The more energy you put into your work, the faster you will put into it, and you won't think too much about these things. When you enter it, some things will be understood.