On the bright side: you're scaring people. The question is simple. I guess this woman is thinking the same thing as you. They are all contradictory and want to be good to you, but the distance is impossible. So I gave up completely. You don't have to get deep to get out easily. All you have to do is talk about it before, start over, be friends again, and then behave well while being friends, implicitly enlighten the sharp questions. Don't say anything about your confession to her in advance, and wait until we can really talk about it later.
The bad side: lesbians are more cheerful now, and if they talk to you, even if they are ambiguous, they may not get along with you. So ... Needless to say.
Worst case scenario. This is a game. Do you understand?
I hope yours is good. . .