I don’t think I will go. Now I have been a stay-at-home mother for almost ten years, and my life is very tight and unsatisfactory. I feel that I have opened a gap with my classmates. This gap makes me embarrassed to appear in front of them. I can imagine how ashamed I felt to be in front of them.

Time flies by so fast. Unknowingly, it has been fifteen years since I graduated from technical secondary school, and eighteen years since I graduated from junior high school. The technical secondary school class reunion was in Yantai, but I had never been there. The junior high school class reunion was in our county, and I had never been there. Several times, I did not attend because my children were young. In fact, I understand in my heart that the fact that my child is young is just my excuse. The reason is more about my inner inferiority. This inferiority prevents me from having the courage to appear in front of my classmates.

The distance between classmates is now very obvious. The male students who did well were all rich or powerful, while the students who did not did well were disgraced and never showed up. Female classmates who do well either marry a rich and powerful husband, or they have a decent job. Every time my classmates chat in the group, I can't seem to get a word in, and I no longer have the same language as them. Watching them share their lives, I suddenly felt that my life was completely different from theirs.

Under this mentality, I am even more reluctant to attend class reunions. You can imagine a class reunion, where everyone is showing off their happy side and their rich and powerful side. And what do I have? When everyone goes to class reunions in various cars, should I go there on an electric bicycle? Everyone is wearing exquisite makeup and brand-name clothes, but am I going to show up wearing Taobao products worth tens of yuan? Thinking about it, I don’t have the courage to go.