Brooklyn at one o'clock in the morning has faded away from the hustle and bustle of the day and is as quiet as night. The car carried us across the East River from Williamsburg to the Isle of Man. New york, like a beauty who sleeps lightly, is still charming after taking off her heavy makeup. The light of the starlight city is her veil-like mystery, which will never make people lose the desire to explore further.
I forgot how many times I stared at new york City in the middle of the night like this. That initial surprise was gradually diluted by the wind, frost, rain and snow of the four seasons and turned into slightly drunk wine, which moistened every ordinary day here. As a permanent visitor, I was intoxicated and awakened by her psychedelic, trying to interpret new york's increasingly clear picture in my heart like a jigsaw puzzle, and I was pleasantly surprised to get another baby-like self.
I can't help but try to write down new york in my eyes.
initial
The original new york was a jazz under the arch of Washington Square Park. At 5: 30 in the evening, with the bleak autumn, my expectation and loneliness were wrapped up. It was melodious music like flowing water. I often walk along the street alone. The morning sun is getting closer and closer to the horizon, and the fallen leaves under our feet are getting thicker and thicker. The little squirrel jumped up and defiantly crossed the sidewalk.
It was a break from my college days, a trip to a foreign country, a challenge and a brewing change.
I try to complete every task, from writing an outline to reading a paper, and then I tell the professor my thoughts and materials in draft form. Slowly, I won his affirmation and trust. He would send me his books and talk to me about the differences between Chinese and American urban policies while walking. In the evening when I have no job, I will light a lamp in my room, make a cup of coffee and think about graduate application. Now that I think about it, it was in that small room that I vaguely realized the change in the direction of life. I am hesitant and painful, but I affirm myself again and again and push myself forward. All I can do is live every day.
Repeated days and nights had a sweet ending. With the affirmation and blessing of the professor, I reluctantly left 20Cooper.
Square. I remember it was a little gloomy that day. Tariq, who is next to me in the office, bought me a drink and gave me an umbrella. I said to him, Tariq, I really hate this. Actually, I don't know whether I am reluctant to go to new york or afraid to go back.
On the eve of leaving, I was sitting in the living room on the third floor of a small house in Brooklyn, feeling depressed. I cried when I talked to my mother on the phone. New york, you gave me a lot of hope. I'm afraid I can't catch it. Your freedom makes me more attached. When can we meet again? I flew home with longing and anxiety. But new york has become an indelible mark in my heart.
To me, she is a foreign land and a freedom. This is a hard wandering journey, but it is also a clean practice. I love her.
Know very well
The fate with new york has been extended. In March of the following year, I got the news that I could go back to new york to study.
This time, the city has become cordial and everyday because of its many familiar and lovely faces.
We had morning tea, took the subway to downtown, bought lobster rolls, and had dinner with fireflies in a dark park.
In winter, I skate in the skating rink in Central Park and walk on the snow to the library.
We walked past the tavern in the East Village, crossed the green grass in Bryan Park, and climbed the tower near Rockefeller, overlooking the mixed traffic.
Celebrating each other's birthdays is the closest partner.
I began to get used to makeup and became cheerful. I still like to fill the whole room with music and make my heart full of peace before going to sleep, but I also enjoy the feeling of being integrated with this complex city more and more. Partners are a group of people with different personalities from me, and getting along with them once made me feel a strong sense of insecurity in a sea of fire. I was confused and doubted myself, but I finally picked up the book "People" to make myself more mature. I understand that I have to learn to recognize, learn to be gentle, and learn to defend myself and fight. Perhaps this can make the inner little girl feel so simple.
On New Year's Eve, I got along well with two boys.
Lobby drinks. It is about the world, women and life. S and I are still arguing and disagree. And x always smiles at us, calm and indifferent like an outsider. There is a wonderful balance between three people.
The relationship with S improved strangely, and I took a walk in Central Park in the afternoon. Besides, he doesn't always attack me, and we don't often touch on the topic where we have the most different opinions. We can talk about Gothic architecture and the urban pattern of Beijing. He shared his research results on cities with me, and I told him which one was a chestnut tree. That day in Central Park, the lake was deep in You Lan. We watched the Upper East Side from the other side, bathed in the spring sunshine and didn't have to think about anything. I also think there is nothing happier than getting a good friend again.
With more and more friends, I understand that people can exchange more than just "hearts". Everyone has a key, some are material, some are metaphysical thinking, some are just dull companionship and joy, and some are desire and emotion. Explore the key patiently and let yourself have more keys. So we can share each other's world and divide the beautiful scenery into two parts.
Thank everyone who has hurt me and helped me.
Laughing with tears will eventually make me stronger.
home
Before I came to new york, I was a girl, a girl who longed for independence, freedom, dreams but was afraid of being hurt.
After going through new york, it turned me into a woman with many problems, a 24-year-old young and ignorant woman, but began to try to build stronger values. She also knows herself better, so she is confident and loves to laugh.
Columbia University is an ideal country, and it has taken care of my growth with its majestic body. During this time, no one can break my dream. So I have more dreams and more colorful fantasies. I began to dream, and I intend to realize them one by one. After all, youth will not last forever, so don't be young.
In new york, I fell in love with drinking. Red wine, champagne, peach wine, all kinds of cocktails, and even Maotai in China during the New Year. Not only do I gradually appreciate the fragrance and taste of different wines, but I also like the moment of toasting and chatting with my friends. People who are slightly drunk seem to be more honest with themselves and the people around them, speak their minds more, and friends will be closer.
When I am drunk, I am addicted to emotion, pain, memory and fantasy; When I woke up, that deep sensibility could lead me to find a rational match, so I read and asked, and began to take humanity and life seriously. I realized that everything has its own reasons. If you want to follow the trend, you must first understand the methods.
When I am drunk, it is also my inspiration. I wrote so many words in an emotional drunken state that I slowly found the state of existence and awakened the emotional girl inside.
I have studied in new york for one year and known new york for nearly two years. For me, it is no longer just an exciting but elusive place name in newspapers and on the screen. Since then, it has become vivid and tangible, full of vivid and unforgettable details.
It's the subway that rumbles by, and it's the sweet and greasy smell that comes to the nose.
It's the cold cocktail and the bitterness left on the tip of the tongue.
It was the black brother in the carriage who told us that everyone was beautiful.
It is also a model dancing in the middle of the noisy Times Square.
I met her in a light and gentle jazz bar and fell in love with her in the melodious and free sound of bagpipes in South America.
This is my home-I always feel happy and safe when I travel back to new york from other cities. I grew up here and matured rapidly. It became a part of my blood and provided nourishment for my soul.
She taught me to be warm but firm, brave but elegant. She told me that every day should be better, smarter and more fulfilling.
I like the diversity of new york, and I like the diversity of new york. Different possibilities, such as rotating light, are always dazzling.
However, this may be the reason why I left new york. Everything here is so short and unreal. With the changes in new york, one doesn't know where he will be at this time next year, and there will be several waves of people around him. But every night, I know my heart better: it is a little tired, it longs for a solid root, and it wants to know where tomorrow is.
So I know it's time for me to go back, no matter which city I go to. I want to build a foundation for myself and spread my branches there like a tree. I won't worry about him disappearing tomorrow when I make friends. I want to give myself a relatively stable reality, settle down to work, study and live a happy life.
For fellow travelers.
New york, do you understand me? Do you know what you can and can't give me?
A 24-year-old girl will keep dreaming. But she wants to land, and she wants to dream on warm and solid land.
I think she will come back. Just when she needed another glass of wine after a long sober period.