It is better to keep the circle simple. Personally, I prefer simple relationships. Those who are cynical or hypocritical have been kicked out of my circle and no longer contacted. You ask if this is pathetic. Actually, you have to ask yourself what you want. It seems that there are many friends every day, it seems that people are very wide, or small circles but all are high-quality friends. I know very well that I want quality, not quantity. I never feel sorry for myself. This is the life I want. But you should try to make some friends who really care about you. It's hard to believe that others are right, but if you don't want to trust anyone, it's really sad.