I think you should build up your confidence first. To tell the truth, when I saw your inner words, I was deeply touched, and I was in trouble like you. Before I entered high school, I was very introverted. I felt that I was as kind as you and asked others for help, but I failed. Maybe it's God's plan. My first love saved me when I was a freshman. Her name is Fang. Two years later, I still can't forget her. She is very kind to me and always thinks of me. So I began to like her, treat her very well, and regard her more important than anything else. My purpose is to study. She doesn't have the heart, and she knows it. She often encourages me to study. With the encouragement of the person I like, I have great motivation and good self-confidence. Then I had a very good boyfriend. So I began to reflect. Fang is a good friend, and so are men who play well. Why can't I do it for Fang? I have changed for a long time, and I have become better to my good friends. People have also become lively, can play with the opposite sex, can play crazy, really happy. In fact, she never tried to help me out of my introverted predicament, but helped me unintentionally with her love. As for generosity, I think so. People who are selfish to you are generally good. Be generous to the person who is worth your effort. Don't cherish it when you have it, and sigh when you lose it. You think people nowadays are hypocritical, which may be their means to adapt to this society. Simplicity doesn't mean that you don't think about anything, and what you need to think about can't be too simple. It is good to be simple, but not too simple. If you use the right place, you will succeed. If you use it in the wrong place, you will only suffer. Finally, I send you a sentence "Be confident, go your own way and let others talk" and a song "Daoxiang" (take a good look at those lyrics). If you think too much, set yourself a timely goal, such as I will sleep now and don't think about anything else. Having said so much, I hope it will help you. I wish you happiness.