It's really not terrible to have no friends.

I have been working for two years now, and I have "lost" many friends in these two years. I lost them rather than making friends with them.

Before, I was a person who loved to make friends. My wish is that everyone who knows me likes me and becomes friends with me.

In the crowd, I always take the initiative to be nice and proactive, and become the source of happiness for everyone.

But it seems that for a long time, I don't have many friends, and not everyone who knows me likes me. I began to wonder why I still don't have many friends, because I am so active and friendly.

After I went to college, I met people from different places and began to think about what friends are, so I stopped taking the initiative as before and began to be alone most of the time.

Only became close friends with one or two roommates. I thought I had mastered the way of getting along with people, and I was satisfied with having one or two sincere friends.

So I focused my attention on these two friends. Everyone is far away from home to go to college, and the relationship is closer. They attend classes, watch movies on weekends, eat, sing and chat with each other. They are always inseparable.

Until, falling in love once again broke my definition of good friends.

The other party is in love, so they don't go together after class, eat in the cafeteria or spend the weekend together. I can understand dating on weekends or after school, but I can't. I am everywhere, as if my friend never existed.

I can only be forced to go it alone and feel "lovelorn". No matter what I do, the other party will not join me. At this time, other roommates or classmates have formed a small group, and I can't join any more.

I was caught in a dilemma, embarrassment and even depression. I think it's my own problem. I become quiet and transparent at all times.

It was not until junior year that everyone began to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination, internship and textual research that I woke up from the muddleheaded. I can't go on like this. I began to introspect, put it down. Without good friends, most people have their own choices and ways to go.

At first, when my friend "left" me, I was a little angry, as if love was always more important than friendship. In fact, the two can be balanced. Later, I relaxed, loneliness is the normal state of life, and I should put more energy into self-improvement.

Life is a train. When someone gets on the bus, someone gets off. Someone will accompany you for a while, and you will get off when you meet better scenery. No one will always be with them, even the closest ones.

After work, my thinking of making friends has changed even more. I just need to keep friendly relations with my colleagues, but I don't want to talk about my personal life. It seems that this is the default communication rule for adults, and everyone understands it.

For me who used to love making friends, now I just "lost" many friends, which is not true. I didn't deliberately make friends to show my kindness. Making friends is not about quantity, but about quality. After work, my energy is limited. Self-improvement and focusing on making money are far more important than making meaningless friends.