Do you have any friends who believe in Buddhism? Ask for advice! I was too ignorant before I've been with a married man for many years, and I've beaten children during that time. I always felt in my heart The merits and demerits are not offset, and the mistakes made before must bear the consequences.

Since you are studying hard, it will certainly help you, help you before your bad karma comes and get rid of your bad karma.

What you are doing now is accumulating blessings for yourself. It would be more effective if every time you finish it, it will pay off. It would be more perfect if we could read the Bible while thinking about the teachings of Buddhism and practice the wisdom of Buddhism.

You can also practice the confession of "Vajrayana Zhu Bao" every day, and if you can, you can participate in releasing and feeding regularly.

Each of us has done a lot of wrong things from the beginning, and we need to purify our Aryan knowledge a little bit with practical actions (purification, in fact, all laws are empty and cannot be purified, so we can only follow fate).