Listen to your story, to be honest, your personality is really like a girl. That's how girls have ideas, and considering things involves a lot. In fact, according to the boy's personality, he can do whatever he wants, and he will speak boldly as long as he has no contradiction with anyone. The difference between boys and girls is that girls are more cautious and thoughtful, while boys are more casual and generous.
I think if you really want to make friends with others, you should also integrate into their social life, so that you can get together, find your hobbies with * *, have something to say and do it together. If you keep rejecting other people's circles, you won't be together, and people won't be your friends for long, because they don't know what you like and what to say to you. Most friends go through it together.