I think I can understand your loneliness. I have been a withdrawn and introverted person since I was a child. I have had no friends since elementary school. I have always felt that it is not a good idea to make friends if they are not true friends. I started living in school when I was in junior high school. , I miss home very much, I am much better than you, because, I can go home every week, and when I am busy in high school, I can go back once every half month, for four years in junior high school, three years in high school, and seven years in high school. During my time together, I had made friends, but later I found that I regarded the other person as her only good friend, but in the other person's eyes, I was just one of her many friends. I couldn't stand that when we were together, she always It's always because other people ignore me and neglect me, and I can't stand the other person always taking advantage of me intentionally or unintentionally, so every time I talk about being a good friend, the relationship falls apart. Without friends, I'm not only lonely, but also rejected and unwanted. Yes, I feel like I am incompatible with them. If I don’t speak, I am simply a transparent person. I am bullied, insulted, gossiped about, and ignored. I guess I am a monster in their eyes, although every I could go home for a week, but it was only for two days. Because I didn’t want my parents to worry, I never told them about my situation at school. It can be said that if it weren’t for the fact that I had a happy family in those years, With parents who love me, I might not be able to hold on any longer, or I might have reached a dead end, because those days were so desperate, with no hope and no end in sight. You know how I grew up in the first grade of junior high school. Stay until you graduate from high school? Every day in school, I was counting the days. Every night when I fell asleep at school, I hoped that I would not have to wake up again. I really wanted to leave this school when I opened my eyes. I just endured in despair. After enduring it, it finally came to an end. For me, graduating from high school was like pulling me up from the abyss. After I went to college, I could only go home during the holidays. At that time, the school was about a car ride away from home. It takes more than two hours. I have been car sick since I was a child. When I go home, I will be sick for half my life. Ever since I entered college, I have decided to say goodbye to the past. I have learned the lessons from the past and actively talked to my roommates. After building a good relationship, I treated every roommate enthusiastically, and finally got along with them. I discovered that it was actually not that difficult to get along with others. My three years in college were pretty good, and I started to learn how to make friends. Friends, I have done many things that I never dared to think about before. I even organized a dormitory party during military training. In their eyes, I am a warm and cheerful girl with a sense of humor, enthusiasm and cuteness. Although At first, I just wanted to blend in with them, so I forced myself to smile. But after I really blended in with them, the joy and happiness came from the bottom of my heart. It turned out that I had friends and was not alone. I was so happy. Sometimes, I even wonder, if I could have bravely taken that step in those years, actively established a good relationship with them, and participated in their group activities, would I have lived a different life? Woolen cloth? Will I not turn those seven years into a nightmare? The answer is unknown, because there is never what if, and time cannot be turned back. I don’t want to turn back time, because at least now I don’t have the courage to do it again.

I once thought that the so-called true friends meant that I regard you as my best friend and you regard me as your best friend. Friends can only be one-on-one, but later I discovered that this is not the case. , no one can have only one friend in this life, friendship is not love, there is no uniqueness, if you regard the other person as your only friend, what if one day you can't be in the same place? Then wouldn't you become a lonely person again? And the so-called true friends, you will never know whether the true friends you think are true friends until the last moment, so when making friends, make friends with like-minded people and the same hobbies, as long as you get along with the other person. Come and chat, I feel like we have the same language and are quite comfortable getting along together, so we can be friends. Even good friends who have been together for more than ten years may have a falling out one day because of something. , we will never get in touch with each other until we die, so why should we insist on looking for true friends? You never know what will happen in the next moment. As long as you feel that you can be friends at this moment, that is enough. In the future, if you find that the other party has done something to feel sorry for you, or there are really many places where two people cannot get along, then slow down. Slowly alienate me, I don’t want you to be as lonely as me, so I advise you to try your best to hang out with people in the same dormitory, try to have a good relationship with the classmates in the class, and do it when you meet like-minded people who speak the same language. My friend, after graduating from high school, won’t everyone go their separate ways? Who can guarantee that you can go to the same university as someone else? When I was a sophomore in high school, I met my current best friend. He is a very lively and cheerful person. He has many friends around him. I used to be very confused as to why I was not his best and only friend. But then I thought about it. It’s nothing. We have been best friends until now. It has been nearly ten years. Now that I am married and have a husband, those friends are scattered all over the world. We can only contact each other through Wechat, everyone has their own families and their own lives, so now I have started to make friends with people in the same community again. When I have children in the future, it will be very good for everyone to take the children out to play together and share parenting knowledge together. One thing.

You are lonely and homesick, all because you have no friends. Ever since I went to college, I have never thought about home again. My mother also said that I am a white-eyed wolf and don’t even know how to find one. She chatted and stuff, and in the end I especially hope that you will figure it out soon, listen to what I say, and be a happy person instead of lonely.