After reading your narration, I feel that you are a person with strong self-esteem. Being able to endure the belittling of your roommates shows that you are a very cultivated person. These are your strengths. It just seems to lack some confidence and expression.
First of all, we must correctly understand the relationship between our own self-esteem and self-confidence. Human self-esteem is divided into independent self-esteem and dependent self-esteem. People with independent self-esteem judge themselves based on their own standards. This kind of person is rarely affected by the outside world; people with dependent self-esteem are more concerned about the approval or comments of others, so they are more affected by the outside world. When external influences are not objective, one's own judgment of oneself also lacks objectivity. Your lack of confidence is mainly due to you paying too much attention to other people's attitudes towards you.
People can lose everything except their own self-confidence, because self-confidence is the basis of our success. When we have full self-confidence, we will view the outside world differently.
Two suggestions for you:
1. If your roommates still make fun of you and belittle you, tell them clearly that you don’t like it and tell them your inner feelings. they.
2. If they still hurt you, it’s okay not to have such friends.
3. Smile in front of the mirror every morning, imagine yourself as the best, and then start your day with confidence. The less you care about what others think, the less negative impact others will have on you.
I wish you more and more confidence and happiness!