A breakup letter to an online boyfriend.
I stayed up all night. Do I have to go? Thanks? McPhee. He's really useful. I tossed and turned in bed for five hours.
It's dawn
I'm very tired, very tired.
You almost got a job, didn't you? This is a new starting point. When some new elements are added to life, some changes will take place, and at the same time, some things will be forgotten over time.
Actually, I don't really need a girl to coax me. I will also consider your feelings. But I am an emotional person, full of all kinds of emotions.
I used to ask you to write an apology letter to my mailbox when you made a mistake, but later I won't. Because you said you couldn't squeeze a few words at all, and I thought, but I'm starting to be unreasonable. When I am angry, I will tell myself not to think about it. Actually, it's nothing. You didn't do anything wrong, and I don't blame you.
But some emotions are beyond my control, and I have to tolerate and accept your past endlessly. I gave a few examples. For example, I am wearing a necklace today, which was given by my ex-boyfriend. I tell you that there is nothing between me and him. What would you think? For example, a boy texted me that it was raining. Do you want me to give you an umbrella? No, I pushed it off. What would you think? For example, I put a photo of my ex-boyfriend in a bag that has been useless for a long time, and it says cat husband XXX on the back. This thing is a thing of the past, but what do you think when you see it? And if I lose those things, I feel sorry. If I cherish them, you will definitely be unhappy. Then these things are still the same boy, and he will send me short messages occasionally. When I didn't go to class, he would call me and ask me why. I tell you, he is a kind boy, but we are not suitable. I dare not let him know that we are together when I get his call, because he will be very sad when he knows. How would you feel if all this happened to you? Can you stay with me as if nothing had happened? Can we just care about the happy time between us and ignore this paragraph? Completely ignore this man's existence?
I believe you, and I know you love me. I told myself it would all pass. I never cry. My mother said that tears can only represent your weakness. But it's still sad when you accept it gladly. Sometimes I secretly cry, and I will tell myself that tomorrow will be fine. Sometimes you can't help getting angry when you see something, even if you tell yourself not to think about it. You start to worry when you see that I won't talk to you, but it's not your fault, so I have to understand and put it down. So I always accept it quickly and won't get angry quickly.
Yesterday I said I wouldn't have an affair with anyone, and you were angry. You think I wronged you, and I am particularly sad that you dumped my hand. You don't understand how I understand you and how I accept you. My tears almost fell.
You didn't come to see me that afternoon. Later, you said that you thought I didn't care, so you stayed in the dormitory and surfed the Internet. You didn't call me or tell me you weren't coming. You once said that you made all my friends jealous. Why did you find such a good husband? But my friend sighed helplessly when I said this and asked how you could stay with him for so long. I know that when you are with me, you are under great pressure and have a strong self-esteem and want to be recognized by everyone, but you have made a negative teaching material. Maybe some people have the wrong eyes. I don't think I can leave you. You've done so much for me.
I told you a lot about my friend's boyfriend yesterday, not because I thought you were bad or because I asked you to do something for me. Every girl I meet will lose her temper, and every boy will be with her without hesitation. You can't fool girls, and you can't fool girls at all. It doesn't matter. I wouldn't be so moody. When two people are together, they understand, tolerate and depend on each other. So when I know you are sad, I will pick you up in Nanchang even if it rains heavily, although it is very unpleasant afterwards.
I am very happy with you, and my life is full. I have never regretted being with you. I just don't know how much more I can take. So I say break up with you and find a simple girl, and your renewed love will never have your past again. And I always lose my temper because of something irrelevant for no reason.
You said you loved me and hoped that we could live together in the future. I have asked you many times, can you cook? Do you really want to learn? Have you kept this little thing in mind? Have you ever put it into action?
Besides, you can't understand my fear of some insects at all. Every time you say it, I feel that there are many bugs crawling around me, crawling slowly, and I am going crazy. Yesterday, I saw snails crawling all over the trees, and my scalp was numb. Seeing the snail on the ground, my mind is really blank and I don't know how to go. I'm afraid of those things, even more than you think. And you always like to tease me with such things. I really can't stand it. I'll be devastated. And you will only see me nervous and think I am cute. But my tears are about to fall. I'm really scared.
Can you understand me? I know. Did I suffer a lot?
I always say to myself, strong, independent and independent.
If you don't know this at all, let's break up.
Break-up Letter to Online Boyfriend Part II
Sorry, I decided to leave. ...
Tossing and turning in bed in the dead of night, be honest with yourself and ask yourself how much emotion you have invested. From the day I cried for you ... you comforted me with a smile ... I always felt good about you ... but I never dared to expect to have you one day, because you were so excellent in my eyes ... although I didn't know what you looked like at that time ... it was such a feeling that attracted me deeply. ...
When you say: Nobody wants you, I want you ... From this second on, you are not allowed to be sad ... Think of me when you are unhappy ... It all started so naturally ... Honey, do you remember? When you first said you loved me, my flustered expression and happy eyes, yes, I was ecstatic. So ... every day, you make long-distance calls and talk to me for hours. At that time, you were so warm and gentle ... Is your friend's eyes jealous or envious? All I know is that I am loved by you like a happy little honey ... like a baby in your hand ... and I have begun to look forward to falling in love again. ...
I'm used to listening to your voice and falling asleep every night ... I was awakened by your phone call in the morning ... Happiness caught me off guard ... You lived in my heart and began to think about our future. Listening to your plan, I can really imagine: when you write the script, you stand quietly behind you and watch your concentration ... when you are filming, I can watch every detail of your role from a distance in the corner ... or I can help you. ...
Finally meet ... although you are not as handsome as in the photo ... but no one can take your place in my heart ... what I can't forget is that you took my hand and walked down the street; The promise made by the little finger hook will last forever, and will last forever ... from now on, I only belong to you; I will still hear you whisper that you love me ... you always say that you have wronged me ... in fact, I don't feel wronged at all. It is the greatest happiness to have you around. Maybe you never know, the best sound is the sound of you opening the door with a key ... but the best sound is your voice. ...
You've been staring at me in the waiting room, trying to engrave my appearance in your heart? Or are you afraid I'll never see you again after I leave? Seeing your tears falling from the safety line, my heart suddenly collapsed ... Your tears fell in the deepest part of my heart, and I couldn't tolerate others any more. I saw the care in your eyes. This is the most important thing for me. ...
Out of your sight, I miss you endlessly ... I don't care what others say ... I just love you, love you, never leave, and don't care how many storms there are along the way. ...
Because I care too much about you, what happened later caught me off guard ... Everything is so coincidental, but it is so cruel ... There is no room for redemption ... I know you will be embarrassed about how to choose. ...
I found the answer myself, but I didn't expect you to cheat ... In fact, many times I will come up with many reasons to forgive you ... But the only thing I didn't expect was that you would cheat me ... Because the most important thing for two people to be together is trust ... My ears still echo what you said when we agreed: If one day I don't love you, I should tell you in advance ... You can't play lightning and disappear ... I didn't expect this to be your strong point. Actually, I've made the worst plan ... I'm going to see you one last time and call you goodbye when I get back ... because I don't want to see you unhappy ... You always say you understand me ... In fact, you don't understand at all ... You chose to cheat ... That's why I'm most sad ... We used to be so good ... Now you have the heart to lie to me ... I admit that I'm crying for you again ... Infiltration. ...
I don't want you to smoke and drink too much, because I'm afraid you don't know how to take care of yourself and ruin your health. ...
I remember you once said that you were afraid that I would judge you like XX ... In fact, it doesn't matter how you judge me ... At least he can tell me when he can't love me ... He dare not risk wasting my youth ... because he knows that a woman's youth is precious ... I still thank you for accompanying me through this unforgettable life journey. It's short, but I'm really serious and devoted ... thank you for sending greetings in the dead of winter ... thank you for your kindness. ...
The bus runs every 5 minutes, and the subway 10 minutes, but this is the only time in our love life ... I knelt in front of the Buddha for 500 years, just to be with you for a few short days in this life, and now the fate is gone ... You won't tell me ... I have to return it to you personally ... Dear Rui, I'm sorry, I decided to let go, because I don't love you very much. I have to quit your stage ... I don't ask you to stay and feel guilty ... I just hope that you will be really happy without me ... You must be happier than me ... Feelings must be sacrificed to be wonderful ... This is also the last good time in my life ... The most regrettable thing is that I can't stay with you and never see your smile again. I can't promise you ... not that I don't want to do it ... I used to. ...
Honey, you know what? I don't want to argue with you every time. I want you to be relaxed and happy when you are with me. I've been trying to raise my head to keep my tears from falling.
Dear, I hope the girl you meet is better than me. It will make you happy. If there is such a girl, please cherish her. Girls' hearts are very fragile and easily hurt. Please learn to respect her. Love her. Take care of her health. Don't ignore her. Learn to trust her. Don't think that your views are always right. She won't argue with you, not because she has no idea, but because she doesn't want to see your locked eyebrows.
Dear, pity and touching are not love. If you don't love someone, let her go sincerely. Let her wait for the boy who is sincere to her. If you love her, don't give her a chance to leave, and don't treat her with a playful attitude. Don't take her kindness to you for granted ... don't think that loving someone will love them all, regardless of advantages and disadvantages. We are not gods, but love makes us learn to be tolerant.
Dear, many things in the world can't return to their original beauty in the end. I can only retreat to the corner where you can't see it. I heard that you were happy and smiled safely. Death is a helpless pain, but now I am willing to turn around.
Dear, simply do many things, learn to cherish yourself and don't die. If you meet one day, just smile.
Dear Rui, I'm sorry, it's not that I don't want to keep you! It's just that I found that all the words I kept were pale and powerless. Maybe you chose to escape silently for your own reasons. Thank you again for bringing me happiness! Thank you for your concern! Tears flooded me again. This time it's because of you ... I didn't expect that you wouldn't allow me to cry alone a few months ago ... It happened again so soon ... because my love is heartbreaking ... I don't know how to pretend to be strong! If wine can really relieve my troubles, I really hope I can drink enough and forget myself and you. I won't let you appear in my dream again ... Maybe I'm stupid, but I'm just fooling myself! But I know I have no regrets! I closed my eyes, with tears in my eyes, thinking about our happiness. Maybe I can delete my diary, your photos and our chat records ... but I can't delete our happiness, and I can't delete the tears you left in my heart ... Let me call you dear for the last time tonight, baby husband for the last time, pig for the last time and miss you for the last time. I'm worried about you for the last time ... because I love you too much to love you anymore. I will let myself forget this wrong feeling ... I hope you can be happy without me, and I can be happy every day, so I am already satisfied! If you are wronged, please don't forget me ... honey, I'm sorry, I love you!
Break-up Letter to Online Boyfriend Part III
Baby:
Maybe this is the last time I call you that. Please read the letter patiently! Maybe we won't meet again!
We have been together for ten months, and I thought I would go on with you. I don't care about anything else, as long as you love me, but things are not as perfect as we thought. I still remember your attitude towards me when I was with you. I can't bear to leave every time I leave. But now, every time I leave, I just get off in a hurry. I can't adapt to these attitude changes for a while!
After being with you, my mood will always be with you. I feel uneasy, anxious and absent-minded when I can't see you, but as long as I get a call from you, I will get carried away and laugh uncontrollably. My friends say I can't live without you. To tell you the truth, I never thought I would be like this from the beginning when I was with you. I've never loved anyone so much. I don't know if we love each other like this! ! You can call me anytime and anywhere, as long as you are happy, even in the middle of the night, I can't help but answer your phone, can't answer your phone very late, and can't turn off your phone, otherwise I will only be scolded! But what about me? I can't call you in the morning and late at night, I can't call you regardless of time and place, you can not answer my phone, you can turn off your phone when you are bored, but there is nothing I can do about it, and this helplessness can only be transformed into helplessness. When helplessness becomes a habit, it will only be disappointment. I don't expect you to see me every day. I just want your concern and care, even if there is only one phone call every day, of course it is not a phone call.
Seeing that I always scold me and dig at me, I am used to it. what can I do? Resist Every time I say anything, I steal food to find a man. What's more vicious is that you said that I went out to sell and that I didn't have the ability to make money. Yes, I admit that I don't have your ability, but I earn clean money by traveling. I don't want to keep spending your money. I want to be independent, I want you to respect me and prove to you that I am not the parasite you think! You asked me where I got the money and said I earned it by sleeping with others. I'm speechless. My money is earned by myself, and it is not as dirty as you think. You insult me and hurt my self-esteem, but I can't argue with you. I can't compete with you Think what you want. I really just want to live a normal life with you, but you said you have a family. In fact, you don't understand how much I love you and how much I can't live without you. How can I go out and find someone else? You also said that I stole a bite, and my addiction was not that great. I'm not their kind of woman. I can't help it when I see men. I thought we had been together for so long that you should know me and rest assured me. I never thought I was such a restless woman. I thought I would never be sad or worried after you. I even gave up my marriage and everything and stayed with you for a lifetime. I am willing to be behind you and give everything for you. I don't want you to do anything for me, nor do I want you to abandon your family. I just want your love. I don't think it's too much, but I'm too naive to believe everything and that you love me!
In fact, I deceive myself every day. When I heard you say you would come to see me, I knew you were perfunctory, but I was still in a good mood. Knowing that the probability of you coming to me is almost zero, I still comfort myself. You will come. If you don't come, at least you will call me. When I want to see you, I don't want to do anything, just miss you. Actually, you think too much. I just miss you and want to talk to you through you. It's as simple as that, but such a simple thing is a luxury for me. I don't think my request is enough. But you can give me too little affection. I know it's not good, and I know you can only give me a little love. But I look like a beggar. I just need to keep asking until you want to escape. I don't need your promise, as long as you really love me, even if you think it's vanity or greed, but women are selfish about love, and no one regards love as universal love!
We have been together for so long, I still don't know you, and I can't even guess your temper. I don't know when you will be angry with me or when I will be happy. I'm nervous when I see you calling. I'm afraid you will scold me for no reason. What kind of person scolds his girlfriend when something happens, and his mouth is so ugly. I'm almost an antibody to your scolding. I'm used to it. I have formed the habit of being scolded by you. What a terrible thing!
Now I want to talk about the day when we went to Xi 'an. I just don't understand. I know, you won't take me to play alone, will you? What's more, you want a big bed room. I was in a daze as soon as I entered the room. I know you must have arranged it, but what can I say? I thought you were joking with me, but I was wrong. You are more devoted than you are with me. I feel sad, I want to cry, you say you love me! After returning home, that night, I saw the familiar car downstairs in the hotel. I was angry, sad and desperate! When I asked your room number at the front desk, when I stood in front of you, I cried and I cried myself. What role and status do I stand here? Funny, funny situation, when you told that girl that I was your wife, I was really sad. She said I misunderstood. You have nothing. She's just drunk and resting here. I don't want to say anything, because I am not qualified to say that I know my identity.
Today, on the phone, you scolded me again, because I went to another bar to drink and came home late, and said how I went out with a man. I don't want to be so obedient to you anymore. I didn't do anything. Why should I lie to you? According to yesterday's situation, I can not let you know that I am outside, and I don't need to lie to you. My frankness brought me nothing but abuse. When I can't bear it, I don't need to bear it anymore!
You often tell me not to mess around outside, but have I ever stayed outside? Every day when night falls, I will appear in your slow-heating bar on time. Even if you are not here, I can feel your breath and your figure. I hardly go anywhere else to play. There is a simple reason. I love you and everything about you except your money. I hate it when you show me your abundant funds and your family business, and I hate it when you say that I will live a carefree life with you. What I want is simple. I even hope that you will become poor, let you stay with me, and let me love and care about you. My friends call me stupid, yes, I am, but money can't bring me happiness, and what I want is exactly what money can't buy!
In fact, we don't trust each other. Maybe what we see is not necessarily true. I'd rather believe that you're probably just afraid of hurting me and didn't mean to lie to me. If you really love me, will you give up? But now I don't want to talk about the truth. It doesn't make any sense. I don't want to be your woman anymore. I don't want to live like this. I need a normal life. I need to guard this dying love like a normal person, not like a dying patient.
At this point, I burst into tears. Although I love you very much, I must give up. I can't waste my youth any more. After all, I am not young. I'm leaving. Only leaving and escaping is the best refusal, because I am afraid that when I see you again, I will lose control of my feelings. I wish you happiness! ! !