If you always try to be brave, happiness will slip away

The more painful it is, the more valuable it is, a sense of reality in life

People will always forget People who can’t understand it, but life is still very long. If you worry about this little thing, then do you still have to live?

It is not just by speaking the truth that you can understand each other.

The bond between people cannot become a bondage

I am not mature enough to forgive betrayal, so I lose

No matter how painful it is, as long as I survive, I will win. Good things will happen

No matter what kind of crowd you are in, no matter how you dress up, I am confident that I can find you. Therefore, no matter how sad the day is, I will not walk with my head down< /p>

If we are a couple, can the distance between us be filled with just a hug? Or is it that no one can resolve this loneliness?

Human feelings are easily shaken, and everyone is always blinded by what is in front of them, unaware that it is not the so-called reality.

It is very painful when the other person's wishes cannot be fulfilled;

p>

It is very lonely when one's wishes cannot be realized by the other person;

Such two people will not feel happy even if they are together.

NANA: Bald, you Have you always loved me?

Tai: Now that you have seen through it, I can’t hide it anymore

Zhang Si said: “My eyes are a little uncomfortable, maybe it’s farsightedness. If you can't see clearly, the further away you are, the clearer it becomes..."

The mistakes you have made and the wounds you have suffered will disappear if you don't block them.

I have long understood that wishes will never come true if they are just expectations.

Every time I realize a dream, I feel a little happier.

Why aren’t dream realization and happiness the same thing?

I still don’t understand!

I’m so sorry! I failed to keep my end of the bargain.

Although you may have forgotten. However, I have really thought about building a luxurious house with a big garden.

On a high platform with a view of the sea, there is a state-of-the-art kitchen and underground recording studio.

In the wardrobe in your room, you will always have the most complete collection of fashionable clothes. So that people who are always made to cry by men can be happy again no matter what.

People love only themselves, so they fall in love with things that can satisfy their desires

You must protect your dreams even if you sacrifice everything

My life , is originally a third-rate TV series. It doesn’t matter how others add fuel to the rumors about my dark past. However, I have to write the script to move towards the light myself. I am no longer a little child standing there waiting...

I cannot tolerate you completely because my size is too small, just like that cheap glass. However, compared with the loneliness of losing everything, the pain of gradually developing cracks and then breaking is more bearable. My fragility is definitely not caused by you!

There is no true love in this world, but even if it is false, believe it as true, love it, value it, cherish it, and the false will become true

p>

No matter who you follow the path of life. As long as you feel happy, it’s enough, even if I can’t do it... I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart, but I still hope that you see me in your eyes, strong and chic, just like the perfect protagonist in the comics. You can read from my story It disappeared. I knew very well what I should do and what I should say. But I can't do it. Sorry, I'm not mature enough to forgive the person who betrayed me. He wasn't desperate enough to fall and be bruised all over and still hold on tight.

Cinderella’s glass slipper obviously fit her feet, so why did it fall off halfway? It turned out that she did it deliberately just to attract the prince’s attention. This is how she often performs a one-man show, no matter what she does. Is it a waste of time and the jealousy of a woman who keeps missing out on happiness? I still think that I have to control my own life

But no matter who you are, you will become stronger as long as you admit that people cannot be that strong. I was more gentle then

What do I want? If I always go with the flow like this, I won’t be able to catch anything. Even if I try to be brave, I will make you happy! As long as it’s something that can make you happy. , I will do anything and try my best.

It should be said that as long as you are by my side, I feel that I can do anything

I want to be gentle to him, I want to I want to stay by his side, want to be his strength, want to hug him tightly.

Everything he hopes for, I want to realize for him. Before today, I only expected a man to treat me like this! < /p>

Maybe, that is a big mistake!

Cell phones are obviously just tools for communication, but they are used to test the closeness or alienation of relationships between people.

p>

Don’t take everything on yourself. If both hands are full, you won’t be able to act at important moments.

It is often said that friends who quarrel are the real ones. Okay.

However, quarrels are always just conflicts between two selves.

After all, people can not understand each other just by telling the truth.

Want Although it is impossible not to get hurt in your life,

However, you must try not to hurt the people around you,

I really think so.

If you have time to destroy other people’s gardens, why not let your own flowers bloom! ----------Tai

Our dreams will finally come true.

Although we pursue Ideals and emerging reality are always hostile to each other, and always cannot be perfect.

However, if people want to get something, they have to pay a price. Perhaps this is the rule that must be followed.

< p> I vaguely feel that the cycle of gain and loss is like destiny.

Although I believe that life should constantly fight against the countercurrent.

But living with the flow does not mean that Stupid.

Just keep moving forward.

I want to be happy, but my heart is wavering.

I have hurt someone several times, and I have hurt someone like this. Myself.

Is there really such a thing as a happy ending?

nana, cherish your favorite things, patience is necessary,

But why? Does God want to make people become intolerable the more they like something?

Is God a devil?

There is a difference between being alone and becoming alone - ---Tai

I want to love someone from the bottom of my heart

It doesn’t matter even if I’m not loved by the other person

I want to love someone

This is the simplest thing

But why is it so difficult?

Although people often say that life can be repeated, but, people, It is accumulated layer by layer through the past. Things are not as simple as they say. I don’t think that the so-called starting over means knocking down the stacked building blocks, but working hard to accumulate life. One day it will become your own. The ideal shape in my mind.----Agent

Why can't people stop anywhere, but it can also be said that they move forward without stopping.-----Leila

Human emotions are easily shaken

Everything reflected in the eyes is fictitious

There is no real thing there

< p> But although the moon seems to be waning, in fact it has not changed

Don’t forget...

I don’t believe in love and feelings very much,

If you invest on impulse, won’t you lose a lot of things?

I don’t like that feeling.---------Miu

If I can’t tell her that I will pick her up when she grows up...it means I don’t love her. ...?---Shinichi

Please don’t become that kind of lonely adult who only calls perfect things “love”!!----Nana

< p> The longer a person lives, the heavier the burden becomes. There is no way to do whatever you want! Therefore, you need someone who is willing to bear it together to continue on! You follow her. . .

Can't we bear it together? -- Leila

Because the most important thing to you is different for everyone...

Things were so sudden that I forgot to close my eyes

p>

I really think it doesn’t matter if I die

I really love him

I love him so much that I can’t help myself

From that day on, Until now

The second time I met ren

It was on a midsummer afternoon when the sea breeze caressed my skin

From that day on,

< p>The attraction radiated by ren

set off a huge wave in my heart

The waves are getting higher and higher

The emotions in my heart turned into singing

p>

However, I didn’t decide to sing for ren

I did it for myself

I have been singing to this day

Ren and I walked together, it happened to be the Christmas Eve that we had known each other for a year

The excitement of the live performance had not yet calmed down

On the way home after the performance, we walked in the snow-covered On the breakwater

The two of them were having fun

It happened so suddenly that I forgot to close my eyes

I really felt that it didn’t matter if I died< /p>

I really love him

I love him so much that I can’t help myself

From that day until now

The two started immediately Living together

ren brought me the joy of singing

taught me how to play the guitar

and also gave me the hope of survival

However, What can I do for ren?

Even if I can no longer sing, I will go to Tokyo with ren like this.

For ren, I will cook and clean the room every day. ren gives birth to children.

Maybe I should do this

Isn’t this already very happy?

For us who have no family, establishing A stable family.

It is more important than realizing your dream.

I have lived with ren for one year and three months,

I am just trying my best to The early spring with remaining snow

Ended our relationship

Although we didn’t say goodbye

But we both know

Living apart is very difficult for two people They are all fatal

Phone calls or letters are meaningless

It is meaningless if you can’t hug tightly

ren’s unspeakable loneliness

It is released in my body every night

I can feel it

I feel it more deeply than anyone else

On days without ren, occasionally I feel like it’s all in a dream

I sometimes regret it now

Especially on a snowy night like this.

Who can warm me on such a cold night? Where is he?

I have been separated from ren for one year and nine months

The spring of the second year is coming

On my 20th birthday in March< /p>

I bought a gift for my hardworking self

A one-way ticket to Tokyo

The only luggage on hand is a guitar and cigarettes!< /p>

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Chapter 1

Hey, nana

Do you still remember our meeting?

I am a person who believes in fate very much.

I think this is definitely destiny.

You can laugh at me.

Remember us? Have we met?

I don’t know when it started to snow again outside the window.

The car stopped and started, started and stopped again.

It took 5 hours. I just arrived in Tokyo.

I am a little bit disappointed

I didn’t feel bored at all.

However, I only talked about my own affairs.

I didn’t ask about nana’s personal matters at all.

As long as it was about nana

Even if I ask, I think you will change the subject.

Hey, nana

We once stood side by side by the river.

p>

Appreciate the sparkling waves on the river.

The tune you hummed casually at that time

I really want to hear it again.

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Chapter 2

At that time, for some reason,

I suddenly felt the urge to cry.

I can’t explain why I want to cry.

Nana’s outstretched hand was so warm.

Even my heart felt warm.

However, I am unbelievably not worried at all about starting to live together with Nana.

I don’t have any worries at all.

Why exactly?

It’s really hard to explain in words.

VIVIENNE

PISTOLS

SEVEN STARS

Coffee with milk and Strawberry cake.

And lotus flowers

Nana’s favorite things have never changed.

For me who likes the new and hates the old,

< p>nana’s character is so handsome.

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Chapter 3

If you always try to be brave, happiness will slip away< /p>

Hey, nana

Nana is like a willful stray cat.

Arrogant and free.

However, there are burdens on her An injury that cannot be healed.

I, being cheerful and cheerful, actually regarded him as a cool thing

Of course, I had no idea how painful this injury was.

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Chapter 4

Nana has a red lotus tattoo on her arm.

What does this lotus represent?

Of course I had no idea at that time

The more painful it is, the more valuable it is, a sense of reality of being alive. (Nana said about the lotus tattoo)

Then What happened one night is really unforgettable for me.

Nana casually added random English humming to the song that had no lyrics yet

It was like an incredible spell Same

A spell was cast on me

From then on I became a prisoner of the singing.

The dining table became a stage

The mobile phone becomes a microphone

The waning moon becomes a spotlight

The one who can do this kind of magic

Only nana in the world

I still think so

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Chapter 5

Only today can I say it frankly.

My admiration for nana is actually a bit close to love.

Even my lead singer has become the woman who plays the TRAPNEST guitarist.

You and Lian are really close. Similarly, before coming to Tokyo, Lian once said exactly the same thing as you just said:

"As a result, everyone is lonely, no matter how close they are, they still can't

It is impossible to become one and make someone belong to you

nana

Although I have been with you for so long, I don’t understand anything about you.

I didn’t even notice that you were hurt, please forgive me.

6~18?

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Chapter 19< /p>

What do I want? If I always go with the flow like this, I won’t be able to catch anything----Aha

Ah nana

Even if To this day, I still look forward to seeing you on the other side of the table every day.

Calling your name mentally,

over and over again....

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Episode 20

That night, when Nana sang the hand song composed by Nobuo, what was she praying for?

The shouting song reached my ears, and now I finally understand.

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Chapter 21

nana

If we were a couple, this level of gap

As long as we hug each other, we can fill it up

Or... this kind of gap Does everyone have the feeling of loneliness?

I don’t want to possess nana by myself.

I just hope nana needs me.

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Episode 22

I am the only one who can make music that brings out the best of Layla’s singing voice!----takumi

It's definitely possible, say goodbye to Takumi

If you can't do it, you have to break free from these arms

Just say "see you", it's okay, No problem. I will be very happy.

Because in these arms, there is all the future I want

I have this feeling

nana

That night, the vow I made in my heart

still has not faded to this day

In my heart

I Never forgotten...

The glory of our dreams.

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Chapter 23

Kissed, then held hands without saying anything,

We walked all the way to the convenience store.

His hands were so warm, just like Nana’s.

I want to talk to him These hands will never be separated.

What should I do to understand my feelings?

That day, in front of Nobuo, I just chased Takumi like that I haven’t come back.

No one will believe what I say now!

But, in fact, I have been patient

I really want to I want to be Nobuo’s girlfriend, and I really want Nobuo to touch me.

I hope that the day when we can be closely united will come soon.

As I walked along the river, I silently longed for it in my heart.

Now, what is his expression and what is he thinking? I am too scared to confirm.

It doesn’t matter if he just snatches me away!

p>

However, there is obviously a second man, but a woman changes her heart so easily...

<

p>What if his fantasy is really shattered?

I will try my best to make you happy! As long as it is something that can make you happy, I will do anything and do my best. Yes.

I should say that as long as you are by my side, I feel that I can do anything.-----Nobuo

nana

To this day, although I have been in love many times, I have always thought that in today's life, it is impossible for anyone to say such a thing. What did Ren say to Nana?

Ah, nana, did ren say anything to you to express love?

If I had known that time, I should have asked nana first.

The bathtub with cat legs is no longer here. < /p>

The sun-baked wall left indelible traces of posters.

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Chapter 24

Nobuo really loves to act coquettishly. It’s really troublesome. It’s obviously me who wants to act coquettishly, but what is this feeling?

It’s like a love so strong that it can’t be melted away!

I want to be gentle to him, want to stay by his side, want to be his strength, and want to hug him tightly.

Everything he hopes for, he wants to realize for him. Before today, I only hope that a man will treat me like this!

Perhaps, that is a big mistake!

Why does it feel like the criminal is destroying evidence when I just want to seal the memories? What?

Did I...did I do anything wrong?

nana

The mistakes I made, the wounds I suffered, are not If you block it, it will disappear.

I still continue to call Nana’s name.

No matter how painful it is, I have to call you until you respond to me.

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Chapter 25

I'm sorry, I couldn't keep the promise

Although you may have forgotten,

But, I have really thought about it

Building a luxurious house with a big garden

I can see the sea from the high platform

There is The latest kitchens and underground recording studios

In the closet in your room

Always have the most complete collection of fashionable clothes

So that you can always be fucked by men People who cry

No matter when they come back, they can be happy again

One that will never be forgotten, March 5, 2001

My 20th birthday

You and I met

We met in the car on the way to Tokyo

Nana Komatsu then lived together by coincidence

She is also willful, loves to cry, loves to act coquettishly, has an abnormal love system, and is busy all day and night.

In less than half a year since she came to Tokyo, she has already had three men, but she still remains innocent. What an incredible woman. ,

Aba is like a pet to our band. Wherever there is Aba’s laughter, it becomes lively.

In the recording studio or at a concert , everyone is full of energy.

This is more meaningful than having new members with high abilities join...

Naive and difficult to deal with.

You probably haven’t noticed that every move you make is as powerful as the current typhoon

It disturbs my mood, just like a teenager who is experiencing love for the first time, and his emotions are high... .

The dam is about to burst.

At that time, I had a dream that I would never give up

Because of it, I gained a lot, but also lost it. The most precious thing,

But because I have worked hard, I will not regret it, I just have one regret

Ah Ba, are you laughing now?

I know ren likes children

, I also know that I can continue singing after having a child, but I probably just...

I don’t have the confidence to play the role of a good mother.

Episode 26

You Do you know, Ah Ba?

I still believe that I have to control my own life.

But no matter who you are, as long as you admit that people cannot be that strong, they will change. It is gentler than that time.

DRAPNEST means...a nest with traps.

Once you break in, it is impossible to escape by your own strength.

p>

I think this is a name thought up by a very controlling man.

Chapter 27

You know, Nana

I am very I want to put a collar on your head

and then tie it to my feet

It really scares me to think this way, so I deliberately distance myself from you.

I am still so bad at making friends,

I am still a little scared

There is no reason to make up excuses anymore,

The bed is too small , or forgot to bring my wallet

When I feel lonely and unbearable, I hope that the person who can be by my side is not ren

28 words

p>

No matter who you follow the path of life

As long as you feel happy, that's enough,

Even if I can't do it...

Bless me from the bottom of my heart

But I still hope that in your eyes, I will be strong and chic, just like the perfect protagonist in the comics

Chapter 29

16 In the summer when I was 18 years old

I switched to Seven Star cigarettes because Ren smoked this brand.

The number of ear piercings also increased to the same as his, and I wore the same style of boots while sleeping. On the same bed, having the same dream.

However, ren left me and left.

Somewhere in my heart, maybe I have never forgiven him. Just like I can't forgive my mother.

Ah Ba, I can't tolerate you completely because my tolerance is too small,

Just like that cheap glass .

However, compared with the loneliness of losing everything, the pain of gradually developing cracks and then bursting,

is more bearable.

My fragility is absolutely It was not caused by you.

Chapter 30

Ah Ba,

The reason why I am hostile to TRAPNEST is because of me Jealous of LAYLA, she stole ren's heart as a singer, not as a woman.

I just want to take revenge on ren, but I don't want to turn him into an enemy.

It makes me want to cry!

But since the day you were taken away, I have no way not to knock them down.

No matter what, I will I want to snatch you back!

Chapter 31

If I had known better, I shouldn’t have brought a mobile phone with me. Even though I didn’t go home for no reason, but because I couldn’t receive any emails from Ah Ba, He thought she was a willful woman and became restless because of it.

Obviously it is just a communication tool, but it is used to test the closeness or alienation of the relationship between people.

This is what I hate the most.

Don’t take everything on yourself. If both hands are full, you won’t be able to act at important moments.

Ah Ba, If you are addicted to love, maybe like me, you have always wanted to get rid of the feeling of being unsatisfied.

If this is the case, I can finally understand your mood a little now.

Can the new life you insist on protecting satisfy you now?

Chapter 32

Ah Ba, no matter how hurt you are, your lover’s heart will never be hopeless. Meaningful,

I still treasure the love letter you gave me that day

Chapter 33

Some people often say that it will make noise

Friends who quarrel are truly good friends.

However, quarreling is always just a conflict between two selves.

After all, people do not understand each other just by telling the truth. < /p>

Although it is impossible not to get hurt for the rest of your life,

But you must try hard not to hurt the people around you,

I really feel this way I think.

Chapter 34

If you have time to destroy other people’s gardens, why not let your own flowers bloom! ----------Tai

You know, Ah Ba.

From that day on, no matter how many times I am defeated, I can get back up.

Because you are always looking at me....

Episode 35

Our dreams will finally come true.

Although the ideals we pursue and the reality that emerges are always hostile to each other, we can never achieve everything we want. .

However, if people want to get something, they have to pay a price. Maybe this is the rule that must be followed.

I vaguely feel that the cycle of gain and loss is like fate.

p>

Ah Ba, I can no longer be...the hero in your story.

But the name of the heroine in my story is still nn.

No one can be as lovely as you!

Chapter 36

Ah Ba, the sky is full of stars, the night sky is particularly bright tonight.

Even though Now, whenever I see something shiny, I will think of ren.

I deliberately did not think deeply about the problem, and I was vague and perfunctory all the way.

Finally I have to face it. Moment.

Chapter 37

Ah Ba, the more you struggle, the more you sink.

Humans are such illusory creatures.

If there is an afterlife, I would rather be a fish.

There are only two of us, Ren, swimming in a small aquarium.

Even if I die now, I think Ren will also He will definitely not die with me.

But that will be fine.

He must do that.

However, I feel sad because of this , I must have a problem.

Chapter 38

Ah Ba, although it is a bit far away,

But that is the safest special seat.

Can the child in your belly also hear the song I sing?

Although I believe that life should constantly fight against the countercurrent.

But living with the flow, But he's not stupid.

Just keep moving forward

Chapter 39

It turns out that the reason why Tai is not harmful

No Because he has great enlightenment

Not because he regards me as his sister

Just because I am Ren’s woman

Tai protects me so desperately

Just for ren who has no way to take action

The emotional connection between Tai and ren is stronger than that between me and ren

Because ren has been with him since he was born Together

The same orphanage

The only rope I can rely on is broken

I am in pain because I am hopeless and addicted to Ren

< p>No one can save me

Only Ren can

A fate that cannot be escaped?

Hachi, the thing that made you and Takuto know each other, < /p>

At that time, I really regretted it from the bottom of my heart.

But if you are by that man’s side,

If you can have a happy life,

< p>I can be saved.

You are the only rope I rely on.

Chapter 40

My life is originally a third-rate TV series, others It doesn’t matter how you want to spice up my dark past. It’s just that I have to write the script for a bright future myself.

I am no longer the one who has been standing there waiting.

I have a child.

Why do you have to give commitments and documents to those around you if you love each other?

Human society is really troublesome!------------- ren

Ah Ba

We two have completely different interests

I never dreamed that one day we would wear the same gemstone

< p>You who like new things and love others,

I hope you can still cherish it today,

This is the standard ring of this old store!

Chapter 41

It’s definitely not a dream, Ah Ba, we want to have a happy time like that day. Let’s start over again, start over again, go back to that summer, and let’s rewrite the story of Mai together. A script for a bright future.

Ah Ba People often say that you only discover the value of something after losing it. However, I think the real discovery always comes when you are face to face. If we can meet again When I see everyone, I will definitely act like a baby to everyone again. For this reason, I am so scared that I can’t move

Chapter 42

Dear nana This year, beautiful fireworks can still be seen on the banks of the Tama River . Would you like to go back to Room 707 with everyone and change into the kimonos I sewed for everyone?

This year is the day when the annual Tama River Fireworks Festival is held. No matter how busy everyone is, in On this day, everyone will definitely gather in this apartment with the same pain. The passage of time will heal everything in the past and heal the wounds in people's hearts. But some wounds will not heal completely. If time can stop in this room at this moment... .

nana There are many things I want to tell you now. This room is full of memories of you.

nana The summer that nana once had the most expectations for has passed and is irretrievable. Just stay here and I will keep waiting, even if it is 10 years, 20 years, or 50 years.

Episode 43

Na nana, even the girls who are in love now are listening While listening to your songs, the story of you and ren is spreading. However, what I want to see is obviously not such a sad ending

Chapter 44

It is full of charm Her appearance, her admirable talents. Partners who can help each other, and a destined lover. Nana has what girls long for. I believe she will live the most fulfilling life

Chapter 45

For me, Nana is a person who makes me feel the wonder of destiny more than anyone I have ever met. The broken red thread, the same ring seems to be maintaining the relationship between us. The connection

Hey nana, why did Cinderella’s glass slipper fall off halfway when it fit her perfectly? No matter what you think, I think she dropped it on purpose to attract the prince’s attention. These are probably those No matter what you do, you will work in vain, sing a one-man show and never get happiness.

Chapter 46

I want to be happy, but my heart is wavering. Several times Whoever you hurt, you also hurt yourself. Is there really such a thing as a happy ending?

Hey, nana, no matter what kind of crowd you are in, no matter how you dress up, I have it. I am confident that I can find you, so no matter how sad the day is, I will not walk with my head down, because the end point I am looking for is in Nana’s hands.

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