It was on such a rainy day that Xiaotian came to see me. She wore a black suit, which made her look a little blue. She walked, high heels making a pleasant sound in the quiet tea bar. She sat opposite me, smiling, took out an album from her satchel, turned to a photo and pointed it out to me. There are two smiling girls in the photo, wearing identical pink sleeveless tops, with shoulder-length broken hair fluttering in the wind. A girl named Xiao Tian. At that time, she was young and ignorant The other one, slender and delicate, is a typical southern jasper, I don't know.
I looked up at her. She is looking at the photo with rapt attention, and her eyes are gloomy as if it had rained for a week. "You say, how much harm will young impulse do to another person?" She asked loudly. I was speechless and stood there. Then, pointing to another girl in the photo, she said softly, "She was my best friend in college, Ting Du …" She choked up, so I ordered a warm glass of orange juice for her.
For a while, she stabilized. Six years ago, it was presented to me in her narrative. ...
That year, 17, I walked into the university gate with great excitement. The first person I met in college was Ting Du.
That day, I couldn't find a girl's dormitory, carrying a broken luggage and sweating profusely. When I came to a path, I saw a girl standing under an oleander tree, looking at the pink flowers on the tree with interest. I walked over and asked timidly, "classmate, do you know where the second building for girls is?" She turned around, her soft long hair drew a beautiful arc in the air, and then smiled at me: "I live there too." I will take you there. " Say, lift my trunk.
She took me to a silver-gray downstairs: "This is the second building for girls. What floor do you live in and which room? " "The third floor, room 307." I answered with a smile. "Really?" Her sweet voice became excited. "Are you from Class Two, too?" "Yes, and you?" "Me too ..."
For this little coincidence, we danced happily. All the strangeness disappeared in an instant.
"What's your name?" When I went up the stairs, I turned to ask her. "What about you, Ting Du?" She answered with a smile. "Xiaotian." I said.
When I arrived at dormitory 307, I found that Ting Du and I were not only in the same department, class and dormitory, but also in the same bed-I made the lower bunk and she made the upper bunk.
Gradually, I know that Ting Du is from Wuxi, and Wuxi has a beautiful Taihu Lake, which is surrounded by mountains and waters. I also know that her favorite is writing, and her biggest dream is to be an excellent reporter. In the long run, we became close friends who talked about everything. We can get together and talk about things. We can talk for a long time. The most talked about are the handsome guys who make people dream a little.
From then on, when I wanted to listen to any song, I raised my right foot, kicked her shop, and whispered, "Hey, girl, I want to listen to Xu Ruyun's songs." After a small rummaging sound came from the upper bunk, a slender hand came out of the bed, holding the cassette I wanted, and gently said, "Flash, something is coming." The tape fell, just to the left of my pillow. I don't need to say thank you, so I put the tape in my walkman and enjoyed it to my heart's content.
But girls are a little jealous, even to their closest friends. Many times, when I look at Du Jiao's good face, slender figure and smiling face, I will ask sourly, "Are all the girls in Jiangnan as beautiful as you?" She giggled and made no answer. Occasionally, she would say half-truths: "Why don't you say that your brain is so smart and you are the first in all subjects?" In addition, you are very beautiful, otherwise, why do so many boys make eyes at you ... "At some point, the two men wrestled intimately, and finally, a small quarrel turned into whether to eat Yunnan rice noodles crossing the bridge or Luzhou sauerkraut tofu pudding today.
Last semester of my sophomore year, Du Ting and I had a very tacky thing-we fell in love with a boy at the same time. The boy's name is Yi Tian. He is excellent. He is the president of the student union in the department of electrical engineering. He is only a junior, and his computer software won the national prize. Besides, he has an enviable handsome face. At first, Ting Du and I just whispered everything about the boy. Between the lines of Ting Du, the secret love for boys is obvious; I only joked that I liked him, but Ting Du didn't take it seriously.
One day, Ting Du blushed and said to me, "Xiaotian, he asked me to go to the movies." My mind was a blur, and I had a hunch that it was Yi Tian, but I still asked: "Who asked you out?" "Yi Tian." Say, pass me a movie ticket. On that day, Cecilia Cheung's Star Talk Wish was shown in the cinema, which was a popular love movie at that time. Yi Tian's goodwill towards Ting Du is obvious. At that time, I pretended to smile casually: "Well, your secret love is finally over." In my heart, there is a deep and deep loss.
That day, watching Ting Du dress up for an appointment made my heart sour. I stood on the balcony, looking at Yi Tian, whom I liked for a long time, and waiting for my best friend Ting Du at the entrance of the dormitory. Then, Ting Du went downstairs. He smiled brightly and gently took Ting Du's hand. Everything, so natural, so harmonious, the setting sun shines on them warmly, plating them with a faint Phnom Penh.
This is a beautiful night. I shed tears.
Since then, I have a very complicated feeling for Du Ting. Seeing them in pairs together, my heart hurts like a knife; But when I think of Ting Du's care and love for me, I feel too narrow-minded. I have written this tangled pain in my youth diary. In the dead of night, when I have insomnia, I will cry inexplicably.
Ting Du didn't realize my change and cared about me as always. He must cook two meals and wash two fruits. Yi Tian gave him a gift. She must buy another one exactly the same, and then give it to me when she returns to the dormitory.
Under normal circumstances, I will accept what she has. But many times, I regard her concern as pity for the loser, and sometimes I say a few sarcastic words with a gun and a stick. She just smiled indifferently and ignored me. That day, she and Tian Yi came back from dinner and bought me lunch as usual. She knows I'm not in the habit of eating dinner. When she handed me the lunch box, she joked, "Hey, girl, it's time to find someone to fall in love." I suddenly felt that her words were particularly harsh, and my anger that I had endured for a long time finally broke out. I shouted, "Yes, it's great that you have a boyfriend!" Ting Du leng, holding a lunch box hand stopped in mid-air, become a lonely posture. The other six people in the dormitory also looked at the two of us with complicated eyes.
Everything stopped at that moment.
Since then, Du Ting and I have become passers-by. Several times, Ting Du wanted to talk to me and looked at me sincerely with clear and bright eyes. But I didn't give her a chance, and I knew in my heart that I was wrong, but I still stubbornly refused to give friendship a new germination soil.
For a long time, Du Ting didn't know that I changed her because of Yi Tian. She is still talking about sweet love in Yi Tian, eating together, shopping together, walking together and studying together every day. I try to avoid them and don't want to see how sweet they are. But the campus is so big that it is easy to meet people you don't want to see.
That day, it was raining, and I went to the canteen to cook alone. When I passed the flower bed next to the playground, I saw Yi Tianhe and Ting Du holding an umbrella. In the thin rain, you are eating ice cream bite by bite, which is warm and sweet. My heart suddenly ached and the fire of jealousy rekindled. Until, let me lose my mind. At that moment, I thought of a vicious insult to get back at Ting Du.
When the final exam came, I took advantage of being a student cadre and got the ranking seat number during the exam. Then, when nobody was there at night, I slipped into the classroom, imitated Ting Du's handwriting, and wrote some conclusions on the next day's exam subjects. I know Ting Du. She won't notice this tiny abnormality.
At that time, the school was cracking down on cheating, and the invigilator would definitely check the desktop. As long as there is a tendency to cheat, it must be all wet. In other words, once Ting Du is found to have something about the exam on her desk, she will definitely be convicted of cheating.
The next day, as I expected, Ting Du didn't check his desk at all. Seeing the hard evidence on her desk, the invigilator mercilessly cleared Ting Du out of the examination room in public. Behind Ting Du, I clearly saw the wronged tears in her eyes. Tears trembled in her clear and innocent eyes.
When I feel distressed, I don't get the pleasure of revenge as I wish, but I can't breathe.
A few days later, the punishment result came out, and Ting Du was sentenced to probation. The names of all cheaters are posted on the bulletin board at the school gate, and Du Ting ranks first. It is the first time that a girl has been detained in our school for cheating.
From then on, Du Ting became unhappy and didn't like talking to people. Yi Tian gradually alienated her, and then, two people broke up peacefully. At night, when I can't sleep, I often hear Ting Du sobbing in the upper bunk.
After more than a month, Ting Du suffered from severe depression, forgetfulness, and could not remember anything. A month later, she dropped out of school automatically.
It rained heavily the day she left school. The rain in late autumn, pattering, makes people feel surging. She gave me all the tapes before she left. When she went out, she turned around and gave me a deep look. With tears in his eyes. She tried to give me a smile, a sad smile. Laughing, tears fell down.
I didn't dare to see her off, just on the balcony, watching her slim figure gradually disappear in my sight and in the thick misty rain. ...
After all, I don't have the courage to say my irreparable mistake. Ting Du's tearful smile is deeply imprinted on my mind.
Since then, I have been living in self-condemnation. Close your eyes, Ting Du is in my mind; When I woke up, Ting Du's voice and smile came into my eyes. After learning that young love is just a flower that is easy to thank, I miss the warmth and care brought by Ting Du even more.
However, my impulse ruined her life.
Last year, as a special correspondent for the centenary celebration, I returned to my alma mater and sat in the guest seat.
When I finally arrived at the meeting, my college classmate Xiao Ran Lala asked me, "Let's find a quiet place to catch up." This idea coincides with mine, and we followed our memories to the Sichuan restaurant that we often went to in college. Or antique decoration, elegant layout. In those days, how much youthful passion did we spend here?
The boss came over enthusiastically, and a petite woman with deep vicissitudes in her brow. I feel familiar, but I can't remember where I have seen it at the moment. When she came up to me, Xiao Ran blurted out, "Ting Du!"
That's right. It's Ting Du. At the thought of this name, my heart ached, and remorse and regret invaded my mind as easily as the high tide of the sea.
Unexpectedly, several years later, I will meet her in such a place and such an occasion. She obviously recognized us and smiled professionally: "I didn't expect to meet two big reporters."
I looked down, afraid to look at her dim eyes. But she still sat down, picked up the glass with her rough and cracked hands and had a few drinks with us, talking about the bitterness and hardships of these years.
It turned out that after dropping out of school, she had been afraid to go home, for fear that her parents would be sad and vulgar when they knew. She started from the hotel waiter to the front desk supervisor, and every step was extremely difficult. It was not until last year that this small shop started with the money from working, which was regarded as taking root in this city.
In her bedroom, which is only six square meters, I finally got up the courage to tell her the mistakes I made when I was ignorant. I said, "Ting Du, I'm really sorry. I am really sorry. " Ting Du smiled sadly: "In the face of some injuries, the word sorry is too light."
Yes, in the face of some injuries, the word sorry is as light as a feather. On impulse, I ruined everything in Ting Du, ruined Ting Du's dream as a journalist, ruined Ting Du's first love guarded by body and mind, and ruined Ting Du's hardships for so many years.
Out of the door of Ting Du store, I feel my eyes are astringent, and something cool slides down the curve of my face.
I turned my head and asked softly, "Will we go back to our previous intimacy?"
Du Ting looked at the sky with turbid eyes, and a drop of crystal tears fell from the corner of her eyes. It took her a long time to squeeze out three words: "I hope so ..."
Finally, Xiao Tian choked up, and I wiped my tears with the tissue I handed her. At that time, my mood also became heavy. The difference in her thoughts turned a girl's life in different directions. This kind of injury is painful. At first, Oda's narrative was clear; But when she mentioned Du Ting, who became the proprietress of the restaurant, she began to be confused. She said that she gave all her news books to Ting Du, hoping to help her realize her dream as a journalist. She also said that she would spare no effort to help her as long as she could. I looked at her painful expression, hoping that no one would repeat her mistakes again, only that she and Ting Du would have a better tomorrow, and that a pair of good friends could eliminate their bad feelings and return to that innocent childhood. ...