I think of Salome again. A few years later, at the end of last year, I found a book in the bookcase, and I want to tell you, dear-selected letters from Rilke and Salome. Deer is not a movie fan. She must have learned about Salome from this book. I took this book and another book "Lena Maria Rilke and Rilke Traveling in Russia" from the bookcase and began to read. I need to make sure that Salome in the book and Salome in the movie are the same person.
It turns out that Salome described in the book is more detailed than Salome described in the movie, which makes me feel sorry for Salome. I mean, Salome's extraordinary life experience can give me some positive energy, which I can't get from other women, I think.
Although these two books focus on the emotional stories of Salome and Rilke, they involve several men as extraordinary as Salome-Nietzsche, Freud, Kilo, Tolstoy, Wagla, Andreas and Paul. They all had a passionate and uncontrollable love for Salome (except Wagla), but in the end-Salome refused to accept this love and established a lifelong friendship with them. Therefore, I think that friendship between men and women in a simple sense is more precious than love-friendship is also a kind of love, isn't it? I need to explain that this view is really the wisdom given to me by the words at the moment. When some problems that remain in my mind are fragmentary and vague, when I express them in words, I can witness how they are transformed from fragmentary and vague state into complete and clear concepts and become my thoughts-I think this is why I love writing. )
I want to know more about Salome's love story with these extraordinary men. So, please return to "Angel of Man, My God-The Legend of Salome" from Excellence. Regarding the reading of legendary books, I tend to write them myself, and I don't like those written by later generations. I will be suspicious of distorted reports. Fortunately, the original work of this book is Salome. Although it's a Chinese translation, I'd rather read it.
I want to say that this book has given me a more detailed understanding of Salome's extraordinary life experience, and I am happy to repeat the brief introduction of this book.
Salome was born in a prominent aristocratic family in Russia. Her father is a general valued by the czar. She didn't get her only daughter Salome until she was 50. Her father loves Salome all the more, which provides Salome with a favorable environment for growth. She has the excellent qualities of ordinary aristocratic girls, but she is smarter and more lively than ordinary aristocratic girls. The love between her and her father goes beyond the general relationship between father and daughter. It can be said that her father loves Salome.
Salome, 17 years old, was in a rebellious period and was sent to the church by her mother for education. Salome met her first lover, Father Kilo. Father Kilo seldom taught Salome many doctrines, but more told Salome about philosophy, literature and history, and inspired Salome to find the meaning of life in philosophy. In Salome's eyes, Father Kilo, like his father, can give himself meticulous care, guide Salome to feel his deepest feelings and express them with the truest thoughts. Therefore, Salome found herself in love with Father Kilot, just as she loved her father at the beginning, but there were some differences. Love for his father, whether given or received, can be accepted without disguise, but after all, Kilot is a man other than his father. How to explain Salome's feelings for Kilot? The only explanation is that Kilot is a copy of Salome's girlhood image of God-God can only be used for love, not for ordinary people to love, otherwise it will lose its symbolic image.
If Salome of 17 can fall in love with 43-year-old Kilot, there is no doubt that Kilot will fall in love with Salome of the same age as his daughter. If Kilot doesn't propose to Salome, their love will certainly continue. Because Salome loves Kirot like a god, Salome can't put her love into any man who is not a god in reality. There is no doubt that Kilot's proposal to Salome shattered Salome's love for God and threw her from the sky to the ground. Salome did not expect that her first love came with regret from the beginning. She had no choice but to leave Russia for Europe.
In Rome, Europe, Salome was determined to heal her emotional wounds. Salome, who is far away from home, has a clear understanding of her relationship with Kilot, that is, knowing that it is impossible, it is better to give him up from the heart and never see him again in my life. Salome is convinced that with God's mercy, Kilo can't embarrass a little girl who used to get along well with him.
God has always been good to Salome. In Rome, Salome often attended the salon party of her friend Marvida's house, from which she lamented that men were obviously superior to women in ideological quality and ability. This may be because most women at that time didn't leave home, didn't know much about the outside world, and didn't want to think against their lives. Salome said: "I prefer to associate with men and learn knowledge or ideas from them." As long as men and women are soul mates, they can maintain pure friendship and be full of brotherly affection. " Based on this premise, Salome met Paul of her age in Rome and forged a close friendship with him. They live in the same room, form a "two-person alliance", work and live together, but Paul shows a vacant attitude. He said: "The purpose of men and women is not only for friendship, but also for other things."
Paul proposed to Salome in front of Salome's mother-this was a completely wrong move, which made Salome feel helpless and angry. In Salome's view, the fruitless love between her and Kilott hit her hard. She is not ready to love another person, let alone get married. Salome needs to make Paul understand that the love life she wants is free, lonely and completely unconstrained. They can appreciate each other, like each other and express their feelings, but they can't turn this relationship into love.
Just then, another young man came into Salome's life like lightning. This man is Nietzsche, a friend of the great philosopher Paul.
The first thing Nietzsche said when he saw Salome was: "Which planet did we fall here from together?" What a poetic person, it brings Salome the feeling of reunion after such a long separation. Nietzsche's thinking temperament made Salome think that she was a unique superman, with extremely strong thoughts and attractive magnetic field, which made Salome make a plan to form a "three-person alliance", which made Nietzsche, who had always been taciturn, look cheerful, as if a child had been rewarded by an adult. However, Salome did not expect that her relationship with Nietzsche had a good start, but it soon experienced twists and turns. The reason is that Nietzsche's affection for Salome is becoming more and more obvious, surpassing friends, teachers and students, approaching lovers and proposing to Salome. Salome rejected Nietzsche's proposal of marriage just as she rejected Paul. Salome sees herself this way-I am still a young woman eager to learn, not a leftover woman who hates getting married.
Because of Salome's refusal, the marriage proposal between Paul and Nietzsche finally came to an end, and life returned to its original rhythm.
Unexpectedly, a man named Andreas broke into Salome's life and became Salome's husband, forcing Salome to end her five-year friendship with Paul. Salome experienced the marriage proposal of Kilo, Nietzsche, Paul and Andrias all her life. She never thought that she would be conquered by strange Andrias. In Salome's words, "When I first met him, I felt an indescribable magic, as if something must have happened." In fact, Andreas salome is fifteen years old, and at first glance he looks like salome's father-"I love my father, so I decided to marry this man who looks like my father." I believe this is the best explanation for Salome marrying Andreas. However, Salome made a very special request to Andreas in the engagement, refusing to have sex with him and allowing her to establish intimate relations with men outside marriage. Salome didn't tell Paul about it, which made Paul very sad and led Paul to commit suicide shortly after Salome got married.
Salome and Andreas have been married for more than 40 years, and they have maintained a asexual marriage. Andreas thinks that time can change everything, but he is wrong. Salome, who is so stubborn about her figure? Kilot? Paul. Or did you meet someone irrelevant at the intersection? Salome can't give herself an accurate account, and neither can I.
Later, by chance, Salome met a young poet named Rene Maria Rilke. But Rilke's infatuation with Salome is just like Salome's dependence on Father Kilo. Rilke lost his mother in his early years, and has been living a life of lack of care, especially maternal love throughout his life for nearly twenty years. Now, Rilke needs such a kind of female love-a kind of mixed love of mother, wife, sister and lover. If there is only one kind of love, it can't erase the emotional trauma accumulated by Rilke over the years.
Salome is determined to meet Rilke's emotional needs without reservation, and is convinced that this is an act of God and a fate between powers. Salome began to fall in love at the age of seventeen, but was brutally killed by fate. At 36, a 22-year-old young man fell in love with Salome. If it's not providence, what is it? So Salome is willing to dedicate her unswerving feelings to Rilke. I'm sure one of the important reasons why Salome gave up her principles is that she doesn't want to miss Rilke as much as she misses Kilott, Nietzsche and Paul. Salome must make Rilke a loyal lover in her life.
I don't think this love based on Salome's marriage is an abnormal extramarital affair. It is Salome who has witnessed with her own personal experience what kind of love is equal to love. It can be said that Salome shaped Rilke into a great poet, and it can also be said that their love maintained each other's lives, never interrupted and never forgotten.
When Salome was fifty-three years old, I met Freud and became interested in his psychoanalysis. I am willing to learn from Freud, but Freud has no intention of accepting Salome as an apprentice at all. Salome, who was eager to learn all her life, taught Freud through self-study. She has the same ability as men in dealing with the same problems. From then on, Salome became a disciple of Freud and made great achievements in psychoanalysis, so that they had an unforgettable last hug before entering the kingdom of heaven-
"Dear Professor!"
"Dear Lou!"
A few lines of old tears flowed from their eyes.
The story ended like this, and my eyes were moist.
In the bibliography listed in the appendix of this book, I found several books that helped me understand Salome's extraordinary experience again, and I did not hesitate to invite them back from Confucius Old Books Network:
The Life of an Extraordinary Woman-Salome by De Xufei Witt.
Learn from Freud-My Personal Notes-1912 _ _1913 Lou Andreas Salome? Wesley Wang
The Woman in the Attic —— Salome on Ibsen's Woman
These three books can be regarded as decomposed versions of the book Men's Angels, Their Gods. After reading them, I want to sigh like this-
It is not a crime to love someone or to be loved by someone.
It is very complicated for two people to love for a lifetime, but for two people, loving each other is sometimes a very simple thing.
It's like what Rilke wrote in his "Love Poems"-
How can I stop my soul,
Not close to you?
How can I get it to pass you in another direction?
Ah! How I want to put it in.
Any corner, any quiet place,
Quietly stop beating
I can only hear your heartbeat.
But everything, everything is about you and me,
It seems that the violinist brought us together,
Pull out the same sound from two mysteries.
What kind of musical instrument will we be attracted to?
What kind of players will hold us in their hands?
Ah! Sweet song, like a dream.
After reading all the books about Salome, I suddenly remembered a biographer named Li Yafan. I read her Duras and Beauvoir, and looked it up on the Internet. Sure enough, she wrote Salome, so please go back to this book and read it. There are not many readers who want to know Li Yafan, but I am fortunate to be her reader. When I was 36, I was crazy about Duras. After reading her biography, I decided not to be infatuated with Duras. This time, after reading her Salome, I decided not to be infatuated with Duras, which was wise and decisive. This woman, besides writing, drinks like life, possesses men and is keen on sex. In her, Salome's elegance and nobility will never be seen, and Salome's love for men will never be seen as a kind of love beyond the body.
I don't need to repeat what an elegant woman Salome is. I just want to briefly describe some of my cognitive experiences with Salome:
1: Salome's unusual growth experience with ordinary women is doomed to have enough good opportunities to meet prominent men and have the ability to make them madly fall in love with her and establish a lifelong and profound friendship with her.
2. Salome's lasting charm for men is not because of her prominent family status, nor because of her beauty; Is that she knows that the trick to please men is to know how men think.
This ability enables her to get along well with any man, whether it is love or friendship, because she can keep her personality independent and never belong to a man. So every time her relationship with a man begins to end, there will be no trouble.
Salome has the super power to dominate her own destiny, and has a love view that ordinary women don't have. In addition to physical needs, Salome is more about the communication and combination of souls. She firmly believes that the most perfect love in the world is that dozens of people can maintain each other's love without having sex.
Finally, I sigh that not all women in the world have Salome's ability to design and plan their lives according to their own understanding of life. I read this series of books, not to imitate Salome's life, but I am glad to see that because I read Salome, my stupid brain can only accommodate one thousandth of Salome's wisdom, even if I stay up late to write this article.
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